We often only give God power over the margin of our story. We limit what edits God is able to make in our life, which is the biggest mistake we could make because ultimately that is keeping us from experiencing a joy we never knew was possible. He is a master creative. Our story has the potential to be so beautiful as we hand our will over to him.
In the world that we live in, our activity and productivity often are seen to determine our identity and value but God teaches that "WHO YOU ARE determines WHAT YOU DO". When you lose sight of who you are, you end up being someone you never wanted to end up being! If you are unsure who you are, I call you to fall to your knees and ask God to make it clear to you, He truly is eager to speak truth into you. Let me remind you that God refers to his disciples as "the salt of the earth", in scriptures salt was seen to be useful and valuable. The Israelites used salt as a reminder of WHO THEY ARE!!! We too are valuable because we are God's REASON.
Hurry kills intimacy with the Lord. There is a reason "walk" was referred 212 times in the bible. Waiting produces patience. Your suffering truly does bring experience and hope. As we hold on to the hope which god embodies, we are no longer paralyzed by shame, fear, and anxiety. Let God write your story and walk with you, make more than a margin for the Lord! Let him WRITE YOUR STORY.