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The chaos of our attempts to boost productivity and creativity, and let me tell you, it's a roller coaster! I recently rearranged my apartment, seeking a fresh perspective, but it turns out that even a new desk orientation can’t magically fix my productivity drops. I’ve been battling fatigue and the dreaded feeling of just not wanting to do anything, which many of us can relate to. So, I found myself tempted to buy the latest gadgets, thinking they would spark my creativity—only to realize that this shiny new gear often leads to a cycle of purchase and regret. Join me as I navigate through the ups and downs of podcast promotion, the lure of new tech, and the common pitfalls we face in our creative journeys. Excitement bubbles up as I share my recent weekend adventures and the thrill of rearranging my apartment. There’s something refreshing about a little chaos, isn’t there? I’ve been facing the wall at my new desk setup, and surprisingly, it feels great to have a fresh perspective. Honestly, I think it’s normal to feel the need for change; we all crave that fresh start sometimes. But let’s be real, with this new arrangement comes the inevitable dip in productivity. Between feeling under the weather and juggling responsibilities, it’s been tough to stay motivated. I often find myself stuck at my desk, yearning for that spark of creativity, but it eludes me. So, like many of us, I turn to shiny new gadgets to rekindle my inspiration. But I recently decided to curb my spending habits—though I did have a brief, impulsive fling with a new phone that I returned the next day. This leads me to a deeper conversation about podcast promotion and how, in today’s landscape, video content seems to be the golden ticket. I’m torn: as much as I want to embrace video, the self-consciousness creeps in. I reminisce about my vlogging days, but now it feels a bit insincere, and I wonder if my true passion lies in simply connecting with you through audio. I’m excited about the potential of live streams, but life’s commitments hold me back for now. Meanwhile, I find myself contemplating the latest tech, and the allure of the newest iPhone tugs at my creative aspirations. But I know all too well how easily we can slip into the trap of buying gear only to leave it untouched. It’s a common story; we invest in equipment, thinking it’ll spark our creativity, but often it just becomes an expensive paperweight. I’m determined to break that cycle and remind myself that creativity isn’t solely dependent on the latest tools. The real challenge lies in consistently creating, regardless of the gear we have. Let’s keep this conversation going as I navigate the highs and lows of tech temptation and creativity together with you, my fellow podcast enthusiasts! The air is thick with anticipation as I dive into my weekend reflections and the excitement of shaking things up in my apartment. It’s funny how rearranging furniture can feel like a mini-reset for the mind. I’ve turned my desk to face the wall—yes, the wall!—and for some reason, it feels liberating; maybe it’s a metaphor for facing my tasks head-on. Yet, with this newfound arrangement comes a struggle: a drop in productivity. It’s been a rough patch with illness and the weight of daily responsibilities, and I often find myself staring blankly at my screen, wishing for that burst of creative energy. We’ve all been there, right? The temptation to grab the latest gadget to reignite that spark is real. I confess, I recently bought a new phone on a whim, only to return it the next day after a night of contemplation. It’s a classic case of thinking that new gear equals new ideas. But as I transition to discussing podcast promotion, I realize that video content is becoming increasingly necessary in our current landscape. I’m itching to experiment with video, but my self-consciousness holds me back. I reminisce about the authenticity of my vlogging days, yet I can’t shake the feeling that it all seems a bit staged these days. What truly excites me is the idea of connecting with you through this audio format, where I can share unfiltered thoughts without the distractions of visual presentation. With that said, I’m eager to explore live streaming in the future, but life’s current demands mean I’ll have to wait. I find myself contemplating the latest iPhone and its capabilities, but I also reflect on the cycle of consumerism in our creative pursuits. It's too easy to think that a new piece of equipment will magically transform our creative output. I aim to remind myself that buying gear doesn’t equate to creativity. The real work lies in consistently producing, regardless of the tools at our disposal. Join me as I navigate this journey, sharing insights and experiences, and let’s challenge ourselves to create meaningfully without falling into the trap of consumerism.

Takeaways:

• Rearranging my apartment has given me a fresh perspective, and I'm excited for the week ahead.
• Feeling unproductive can hit hard, especially when responsibilities pile up and energy drops.
• I realized that buying new gadgets often leads to excitement but rarely to true creativity.
• The temptation to upgrade my phone was strong, but ultimately I decided to stick with my current one.

Companies mentioned in this episode:

• Pixel 8 pro vs Pixel 10 Pro
• iPhone 17 Pro Max - king of the smartphone video

We're diving into a significant shift in our podcasting journey. After three months of exploring various topics in a freeform style, I’ve realized that the podcast landscape is a bit more structured than I initially thought. It turns out that categorization is essential for reaching the right audience, which has led me to the decision to transition toward a subject-specific format. I'm excited to focus on the intersection of technology and society, a theme that resonates deeply with me. We’ll still have room for those spontaneous monologues, but now they’ll be framed within a context that makes it easier for listeners to connect with what we’re discussing. So, join me as we explore the fascinating ways technology shapes our lives, even if it means confronting some uncomfortable truths along the way. I’ve been on quite the journey with this podcast over the past few months, and honestly, it’s been a rewarding experience. The freedom of an audio-only platform allows me to express myself without the constraints of algorithms dictating what gets heard. As my listener base grows, I am reminded of the power and importance of genuine connection in this medium. However, there’s also an unavoidable realization dawning on me — comparing my podcasts reveals a stark difference in engagement levels. It seems that a podcast that focuses on a specific theme garners more attention than one that meanders through various topics. This observation leads me to consider a shift towards more specific subject matter, which is a decision I approach with mixed feelings. Transitioning to a subject-focused podcast means narrowing down my content, which feels bittersweet. I’ve always relished the freeform style, giving me the flexibility to explore various thoughts and musings. Yet, I can’t ignore the reality that such a format makes it harder for potential listeners to discover me. The podcasting landscape is rife with categories and tags, and if I don’t fit neatly into one of those, I risk being lost in the shuffle. So, I’ve taken a step back to analyze what themes resonate with me: my personal life and technology. While I’m hesitant to delve too deeply into my personal experiences, I find the intersection of technology and society to be a rich ground for exploration. There’s something fascinating about how technology shapes our lives and influences our choices, and I want to dive into that. For instance, I often ponder why I feel compelled to buy a high-end camera when my life mostly revolves around family snapshots. It’s this disconnect — the marketing of lifestyle versus the reality of our lives — that I find intriguing. By framing my discussions around technology, I hope to share insights while still allowing for the spontaneous and freeform conversations I love. So, as I embark on this new direction, I invite you to join me on this exploration of technology and society, reflecting on how both shape our lives in unexpected ways. I’m looking forward to what’s ahead, and I appreciate you being here with me.

Takeaways:

• I've been enjoying the experience of podcasting without the constraints of algorithms, which is refreshing.
• Transitioning to a subject-specific podcast might break my heart, but I believe it's necessary.
• It's hard to ignore that certain podcasts get more engagement than others, which is a reality check.
• My personal life is interesting, but it's also something I prefer to keep private and separate from this podcast.
• I want to explore the philosophical aspects of technology and its impact on society in future episodes.
• I aim to create content that invites listeners in by framing it around technology while allowing for freeform discussions.

Links referenced in this episode:

email me at [email protected]

Intricacies of maintaining creativity during challenging times, tackling the emotional rollercoaster that can hinder our artistic flow. I share my recent struggle with motivation and how, despite having the time, I found myself unable to engage in creative activities. We explore the tension between the expectation to perform, even when feeling less than inspired, and the reality of our human experiences. It's a candid conversation about the unfiltered truth of life, the importance of connecting through shared struggles, and even a breakthrough that came in the form of a listener email that reignited my passion. Together, we reflect on the value of authenticity in our creative pursuits and the surprising joys found in the mundane, like my new coffee machine that signifies more than just a caffeine fix—it's a ritual that grounds me. This week, we jumped into the heart of the podcasting experience, reflecting on both the creative hurdles and the emotional struggles that come with creating content. I shared my personal battles with maintaining a backlog of episodes, especially during a recent emotional rough patch where motivation seemed to vanish. I found myself with a weekend free of obligations but still couldn't muster the energy to dive into my projects, leading to a kind of self-imposed creative pause. But rather than chastising myself, I embraced the downtime as a vital part of the creative process. It was during this quiet period that I received my first listener email, a moment that lit up my week and reminded me of the connections we forge through this medium, even when the creative fire feels dim. We also tackled the subject of authenticity in show business, discussing the expectations to maintain a polished persona while dealing with personal struggles. I opened up about my difficulty in pretending everything is fine when I'm feeling emotionally drained. This led to a rich conversation about the value of vulnerability and how sharing our real, messy selves can deepen our relationship with our audience. I argued that while the industry often pressures creators to project positivity, there’s a unique strength in showing our authentic selves. We ultimately explored the idea that connections based on shared values can be far more impactful than those based solely on fleeting interests. In a lighter turn, I shared my latest passion—a new coffee machine that has become a cherished part of my daily routine. It's more than just a brewing device; it's a ritual that provides comfort and structure amidst life’s unpredictability. I reflected on how these small daily rituals not only ground us but also bring joy and satisfaction, especially during tumultuous times. By the end, I encouraged listeners to reach out, inviting them to share their own stories and experiences, reinforcing that this podcast journey is about building a community where we can all feel seen and heard.

Takeaways:

• This episode dives deep into the emotional struggles that can hinder creativity, reminding us that it's okay to take breaks and not force ourselves to be productive all the time.
• We explore the idea that even though the new year is often seen as a fresh start, real change can happen at any time, and we shouldn't restrict ourselves to yearly resolutions.
• The speakers discuss the importance of maintaining authenticity in podcasting, emphasizing that it's okay to share personal struggles without turning the podcast into a diary.
• Our conversation touches on how technology, like AI, is evolving to make creative processes easier, allowing us to focus on the essence of what we do rather than the mundane tasks.
• There's a humorous look at the balance between being genuine and maintaining a persona in the entertainment industry, highlighting the pressure to always appear polished and composed.
• We reflect on the connections formed through shared experiences and values, rather than just common interests, which can often lead to more meaningful relationships.

Email me at: [email protected]

Companies mentioned in this episode:

• Unreal Engine
• Captivate

Time seems to drag when we’re stuck in a loop of mindless scrolling, but what if I told you that embracing a structured routine could change that? This episode unpacks the experience of navigating friendships with people who embody the traits of a jester—those who use humor as a shield but may leave us feeling emotionally drained. I share my personal journey with these relationships, exploring how the need for constant laughter can overshadow deeper connections. We reflect on the balance between humor and authenticity, questioning whether jesters truly understand the impact of their words. Join me as I sift through the complexities of these dynamics and contemplate the importance of meaningful friendships in our lives.

Takeaways:

• Time might feel like it drags when we have nothing to do, yet a packed schedule can make it fly by.
• Setting up a podcast can create a structure that pushes us to produce more regularly and feel accountable.
• Interactions with jesters can be tricky; their humor often masks deeper insecurities and emotional immaturity.
• Jesters can dominate social situations, making jokes that silence others and create an uncomfortable atmosphere.
• The balance between humor and authenticity is vital in relationships; we need depth beyond laughter.
• Reflecting on past friendships with jesters reveals the importance of genuine connection over superficial humor.

email me at [email protected]

Waking up to a rare snowfall at 6:00 AM, this installment serves as a "New Year’s audit" of attention. It moves from a personal commitment to keep the "screens from winning" at home to a broader critique of how social media has distorted our survival instincts.

• The Bourdain Experiment: A spontaneous Reddit post about Anthony Bourdain’s values led to the creation of a Berlin-based meetup group focused on real-life interaction rather than digital exchange.
• Content vs. Survival: A chilling analysis of the recent Swiss nightclub fire, where victims reportedly prioritized filming and uploading content as the tragedy unfolded.
• The "Little Black Rectangle": An observation of the "eerie" and "sick" physical alignment of people in public spaces, completely consumed by their smartphones.
• Spatial Awareness Exercise: A personal practice started in December to reclaim attention by consciously observing smells, sounds, and the needs of others on public transport.

To combat the "digital feed," the host proposes a deliberate exercise in being present:

1. Observe the Environment: Note the lighting, the smells, and the noise levels on your commute.
2. Identify the Needs of Others: Look for people requiring assistance (the elderly, those with heavy luggage) who are often ignored by a phone-distracted crowd.
3. Detect Opportunities: Move beyond the "screen leash" to find inspiration or connection in the physical world.

• Meetup: Berlin Social/Bourdain WhatsApp Group (see Reddit https://www.reddit.com/r/berlinsocialclub/comments/1q1xi6d/anthony_bourdain_fans_in_berlin/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=web3x&utm_name=web3xcss&utm_term=1&utm_content=share_button).
• Reference: The Swiss NYE fire investigation and the shift toward digital "isolation" over integration.
• Connect: Reach out via email at [email protected] to share your own stories of reclaiming your attention.

A breakdown of a 24-hour transit through the "liminal spaces" of Agen and Paris to Berlin. I examine the textures of 13th-century furniture, the "naive" honesty found in 12-year-old video archives, and the ergonomics of a 30,000-step day. This is an audit of the "scars of progress" visible in our modern landscape.

Recording from the transition between two worlds.

I’ve just completed a 12-hour journey from the quiet, 13th-century streets of Southern France back to the foggy "concrete jungle" of Berlin. This episode is a raw audit of that transit—a 30,000-step trek through Paris that became a meditation on what we’ve lost to progress.

In this installment:

• The 12-Year Time Capsule: While editing footage from a decade ago, I discovered a "pure authenticity" in people who weren't yet tethered to smartphones.
• The Digital Fidget: Observations from a turbulent flight where passengers, gripped by anxiety, mindlessly scrolled through dead apps like a digital rosary.
• The Food Divide: Why the culinary landscape of Paris makes Berlin feel like "feed for animals."
• The Leash: A sobering look at how our devices have transitioned from tools to tethers.

I also share a candid update on why I’m moving toward a curated paywall to protect the privacy of this journal while continuing to connect with a "tight" audience.

• The Destination: The town of Agen, France.
• The Meal: Kodawari Ramen (Tsukiji) — The restaurant in Paris mentioned by YouTuber Alex (French Guy Cooking), featuring an interior imported from a Tokyo fish market.
• The Stat: 30,000 steps (22km) through Paris.
• Contact: [email protected]

I’m currently walking through the narrow, 13th-century streets of Condom, France, trying to move slowly enough to keep my brain out of "hyper-mode". There is a certain peace here, but it’s a peace complicated by a very modern dilemma: the intersection of personal happiness and responsibility.

I’ve done the "big move" before. A few years ago, I went to Majorca with the intent to stay forever, but I learned that island life brings a sense of alienation and separation that I wasn't prepared for. Being on the continent feels different—more connected, less reliant on ferries and planes to feel part of the world.

The hardest part of this contemplation isn't the logistics; it’s my seven-year-old daughter in Berlin. We are close, and any move here would require frequent travel back to nurture that bond. It’s a trial of the heart. I’ve realized that a frustrated father is of no use to a child, so finding my own happiness in a place like Southern France is, in a way, an investment in her well-being, too.

Lately, I’ve been questioning the very meaning of life. I’ve come to feel that it isn’t a pursuit of "joy" or "fun" that matters most—it’s the pursuit of meaning. Berlin has felt like a chapter that is closing, and while I feel like an outsider there even after ten years, I’m learning to view my nomadic nature not as a lack of roots, but as a way of opening my mind.

A friend recently helped me break out of a "scarcity mindset" regarding where we live. Why must we only have one home? I’m starting to think about a future where "migration" isn't a permanent exit, but a fluid existence between the places that nourish us—whether that’s France, Germany, or even returning to my roots in Poland.

I'm not on social media, but I am looking for a "tight, communicative audience". If this resonates with your own story of relocation or searching for meaning, please reach out. Let's skip the algorithms and just be human.

Get in touch with me, by emailing: [email protected]

In this free-form episode recorded while walking through the streets of Berlin, I strip away the need to educate and focus on honest connection. I discuss why I skipped the company Christmas boat party and reflect on the confusing, often blurry lines between being a colleague and being a friend.

As I make my way to my daughter’s school, I also dig into my current creative struggles. Despite having skills in 3D design and Unreal Engine, I feel "invisible" online. I share my plans to finally launch a portfolio website to validate my work, the experience of walking past a VR studio I was too shy to enter, and the hard reality of aging—where protecting my energy and getting enough sleep has become more important than pulling creative all-nighters.

Today I talk about challenges of creative blocks and the journey to rediscovering our voices. I share my recent struggles with overthinking and self-doubt, questioning the purpose of this podcast and what direction it should take. But through this reflection, I've come to embrace the idea that this show is essentially my personal journal, capturing my day-to-day life and thoughts. Alongside these introspections, I also chat about my recent Black Friday splurges, including some irresistible deals that I couldn't pass up, highlighting the joys and quirks of consumerism. So, let's explore how we can navigate these creative hurdles while finding joy in the little things, all while keeping it light and fun.

The latest podcast episode dives into the chaotic yet creatively fulfilling journey of the host, who recently faced a creative block that left him questioning the purpose of his show. We explore the highs and lows of his creative process as he reflects on the expectations of modern podcasting versus the authenticity of personal storytelling. The host opens up about his struggles to produce content that feels genuine rather than falling into the trap of algorithm-driven mainstream media. He shares his thoughts on how this pressure can stifle creativity, leading to overthinking and self-doubt. Yet, through candid anecdotes and a light-hearted tone, he reveals how he navigates these challenges, ultimately embracing the essence of his podcast as a personal journal.

As we delve deeper into the episode, we also discuss the festive chaos of Black Friday shopping, which serves as both a metaphor for excess and a moment of clarity for the host. He humorously recounts his impulsive purchases, including a robot vacuum that brings unexpected joy to his daily routine. This light-hearted segment contrasts with his earlier reflections on creativity, showcasing how everyday life can inspire and distract in equal measure. By the end of the episode, listeners are left with a sense of camaraderie, as the host acknowledges the universal struggles of balancing personal expression with societal expectations, all while maintaining a sprinkle of humor and relatability throughout.

Takeaways:

• In this episode, we dive deep into the challenge of creative blocks and how to overcome them while podcasting.
• I candidly share my experiences with self-doubt regarding the content I create for this podcast and its purpose.
• We discuss the impact of mainstream content consumption on our creativity and how it shapes our podcasting journey.
• I reflect on the importance of acknowledging seasonal changes in our lives and how they influence our mood and productivity.
• This episode also touches on my recent Black Friday purchases and the joy they brought, despite overspending.
• Finally, we explore the idea of podcasting as a personal journal and the value of uncurated content in today's media landscape.

Links referenced in this episode:

• archive.org
• hostinger.com
• Unreal Engine Diaries (my other podcast)

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podcasting tips, overcoming creative block, personal journal podcast, Black Friday deals, parenting podcast, audio journaling, podcasting journey, Berlin podcasting, digital content creation, single dad experiences, Unreal Engine projects, podcast website setup, maintaining podcast quality, mindfulness in podcasting, podcasting without monetization, DIY podcasting, creative challenges, seasonal reflections, family activities, self-expression through podcasting

Let’s dive right into it! This episode is all about the overwhelming presence of AI in our lives and how it's leaving us feeling a bit exhausted. I've been navigating the parenting trenches solo for a couple of weeks now, and let me tell you, finding the energy to chat about tech feels like climbing Everest with a toddler on my back. You know how it is—AI's everywhere, throwing new tools and updates at us like confetti, but do they really change our lives? Spoiler alert: not really. We also get cozy with the winter vibes, where the lack of sunshine has me reminiscing about summer days and sipping on sage tea like it’s the elixir of life. So grab your comfiest blanket, kick back, and let’s explore this whirlwind of parenting, AI fatigue, and the cozy charm of winter together!

Finally, I get to sit here and record in my cozy little home studio—what a treat! This past week has been a whirlwind, let me tell you. I’ve been juggling parenting duties solo, and boy, has it left me drained. It’s like I was running on fumes, trying to squeeze in some personal time to create, but every time I hit record, it was just a chaotic mess. I was stuck in this loop of exhaustion, and my thoughts felt all jumbled. But tonight? Oh, tonight I’m feeling a bit more alive, and I want to dive into a couple of topics that have been swirling around in my mind. Sure, I can’t help but feel a bit silly talking about podcasting itself—because, let’s face it, podcasting about podcasting is a little on the nose, right? But let’s talk about AI instead. I mean, we’re bombarded with AI news left and right, and honestly? It’s wearing me thin. I’m exhausted just keeping up with all these updates and new tools that promise to change the world but kind of just… don’t. It’s a bizarre dance, really. We’re expected to be thrilled about every new gadget, but when you dive deep, it feels like we’re just skimming the surface of something that should be way more meaningful. I often find myself wanting to tune it all out, even as I rely on AI more and more in my daily life. But maybe there’s a silver lining? I’ve found some comfort in the winter season lately. There’s something about the coziness of the dark evenings and warm spaces that makes me feel at home. I've been going a bit sage-crazy, too! Burning it, brewing it, you name it. I think it’s my little way of battling the winter blues and keeping those pesky colds at bay. But I’ve got to admit, the lack of sunlight does take a toll on my energy. It feels like I’m perpetually tired. Anyway, I’ll share more on my thoughts about parenting, winter, and maybe a sprinkle of Black Friday chaos in the coming chats. Let’s keep it real and relatable, yeah?

Recording in front of my mic tonight feels like a small victory after the exhausting week I’ve had. I’ve been in full-on parenting mode for what feels like ages, and let me tell you, it’s been a wild ride. The energy levels? Let’s just say they’ve been at an all-time low. 9 PM was my only window for ‘me time’, but by then, I was too beat to even think straight, let alone talk coherently into a mic. But tonight, I’ve got some energy back, and I’m ready to spill a few thoughts. First off, can we talk about podcasting about podcasting? It feels a tad cliché, but there’s something about the creative process that’s worth exploring. Then there’s the AI chatter that’s been nonstop. I swear, every time I check my news feed, there’s another AI tool or update that’s supposed to be revolutionary. But honestly? It’s exhausting. It’s like we’re all expected to keep up with the latest and greatest, yet most of it feels like a whole lot of hype for not much payoff. I find myself using AI for daily tasks, but I’ve become increasingly skeptical about its efficacy. It’s a strange relationship, really. On the flip side, I’m embracing the winter season, which has surprisingly brought some comfort. There’s a unique coziness about dark evenings, and I’ve found solace in the warmth of my home—plus, I’ve been going a little wild with sage! Burning it, cooking with it, you name it. It’s like my winter survival kit. But let’s be real, the lack of sunlight can be a downer, and I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one feeling it. I’ll wrap up for now, but let’s keep this conversation going about the ups and downs of winter, parenting, and maybe even some reflections on consumer culture this Black Friday. Buckle up, folks!

Finally getting to record again feels like a breath of fresh air after a week that felt like I was in a blender. I’ve been on full-time dad duty, and let’s just say it’s been a rollercoaster. There were days when I thought I might just fade away into the background noise of parenting chaos. Every time I thought about hitting record, it was like my brain just went blank, or worse, all I could produce was a ramble of nonsense. But tonight, I feel a spark of energy! I’ve got a couple of things on my mind that I want to share. First up: podcasting itself. I know, I know—it’s a bit of a meta topic, but hey, it’s part of my journey. Then there’s the whole AI phenomenon that’s just exploded everywhere. I mean, we’re inundated with AI updates, and honestly? It’s overwhelming. I get that tech is supposed to make our lives easier, but it feels like we’re on this hamster wheel of constant updates that rarely deliver on their promises. I often find myself wanting to tune out all the AI noise, even while I use it daily. Then we shift gears to winter—ah, the season of cozy vibes! I’ve been enjoying the darker evenings, wrapping up in warmth, and yes, I’ve become a bit of a sage enthusiast. I’m using it in every way you can think of—cooking, burning, you name it. It’s like my little antidote to the winter chill! But let’s be real, the lack of sunshine? It’s draining. I miss those long, sunlit days where you feel alive. Anyway, I’m excited to keep exploring these themes in our chats. Let’s dive into the madness of parenting, the quirks of winter, and maybe a little retail therapy during Black Friday. Here’s to keeping it real and relatable!

Takeaways:

• Podcasting can be a rollercoaster of joy and exhaustion, especially when juggling parenting duties.
• AI tools are popping up like weeds, and honestly, they're not always helpful, right?
• Winter brings cozy vibes but also a serious energy drain, making us crave sunshine like it's our job.
• Finding meaningful topics to discuss can feel forced; sometimes, capturing spontaneous thoughts works better.
• The struggle of resisting those tempting Black Friday deals is real; just because it's cheaper doesn't mean we need it.
• Creating engaging content is more about connection than numbers; I crave a close-knit audience over a massive following.

Links referenced in this episode:

• Contact me at [email protected]