colin verdon episodes:

• July 29, 2023Full-on Ugly Feelings

  Reach out to me when your whole life dissolves

  Reach out to me when your best friend stall

  Reach out to me for anything at all

  I’ll be reaching right back

  Like a fucking drunk in the dark

  Somethings, you can’t plan

  Now attached to your head

  ...more

  

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• July 25, 2023the invitation

  The way the world leans its curve its axis

  My satellite brain I sent into orbit

  The tomb, the millstone, my body left folded

  My time in the sun before exploded

  Stones I cut from mountains

  Mountains cut from the ice

  The pain that I inflicted the harm that I invite

  X2

  The hardest part of ownership is

  How to possess and appreciate balance

  It’s tasteful to let some time pass

  Finger bruises where we were grabbed

  I’ll help you move in

  Stones I cut from mountains

  Mountains cut from the ice

  The pain that I inflicted the harm that I invite

  Stones I cut from mountains

  Mountains cut from the ice

  My arms I left extended

  The harm that they invite

  Stones cut from mountains

  Mountains cut from the ice

  The pain that I inflicted

  The hate that I invite

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• June 28, 2023Reigns

  Reigns by Colin Verdon

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• June 21, 2023has beens

  has beens by Colin Verdon

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• June 20, 2023Resting Dead Face

  No more silent treatment

  You are just screaming in my ears

  What the fuck am I doing here?

  I am just dancing at the edge of the world

  My father was a freight train, derailed

  Hard not to see the appeal

  Remembering then , before he was dead

  Everything was too loud

  Just say the word, and I’ll burn it all to the ground

  I have eyes of every color now

  I’m a child, with an old tired heart

  I am a beam of old light from a depleted star

  And I will only find you in the dark

  Fear is a fetish I can’t hang up the tether

  Been in the future where it’s hard to remember

  I awoke alone and I said out loud

  What is one more worm in the hole

  When I am put in the ground

  I am not ashamed of my shame

  Now that I gave it a name

  I sink and I cannot choose

  Brain cut my body looks

  I let it all pass through

  Because I need to

  But my heart don’t want

  My heart don’t want the truth

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• April 30, 2023Blossoming

  Living life like an axe in a dartboard

  Living life like a b rated actress

  Yeah I’ve been a bitch and I been a bastard

  ...more

  

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• March 26, 2023too soon for who

  Trying some stuff out

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• March 24, 2023life in the ball pit

  Instrumental for now

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• March 22, 2023Pity Drip

  I feel your pity

  It’s drips right down your fucking shirt

  It’s pooling right by your legs

  A sad spot for you to be

  I hear you calling

  You think I fuck up everything

  Well, that might be true

  Chance to shine or something to prove

  Hold me, and tell me I’m someone you like

  Someone who loves me

  Sounds like it would be nice

  I got fucked up

  I threw some asshole down the stairs

  Drunk tank at 3am

  I find myself with new friends

  High on my soap box

  I can see the world for what it worth

  So tired of all our shit

  I’m sick of how we’ve been

  I stole a car and crashed it

  Got out and left it in the street

  I can’t feel my legs

  Need to make it home to your bed

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• March 22, 2023suffering with interest

  Had another fight now I’m back in the corner

  Time to think to myself, and figure out my disorder

  All these fucking problems find their way in

  No talk no touch you just pretend you’re sleeping

  Are we feeling sad enough?

  Do you think we’re out of touch?

  Are we feeling bad enough?

  Enough to say that enough’s enough

  Hard to talk about problems when we can’t hear ‘em

  Even harder to look at myself in the mirror

  I’ve got another excuse can I come and see you

  I know I make you sick. I just want to be near you.

  Are we feeling sad enough?

  Do you think we’re out of touch?

  Are we feeling bad enough?

  Enough to say that enough’s enough

  Put my head through the fucking wall

  Learn brand new ways to forget my name

  Drink myself to death inside my home

  If I’m dead, there’s no one left to blame

  ...more

  

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