Feeling like my life isn't my own. Kept under one minute for submission to a competition.

Lyrics

I am living life

Through someone else's eyes

This story's not my own

Never was my own

The paths that I can take

Have all been preordained

The choice was not my own

Never was my own

I am sick of what the world has thrown at me

I am breaking out, there are no rules

I got burnt out last year. Never really recovered from it.

Sheet music: https://robinsyl.dev/sheets/originals/Left%20Behind/

Lyrics

Left behind

Oh my god I'm struggling

I'm left behind

No one here to help me

I'm a failure and I am just left to die

Left behind

I missed my train, I've lost my way

I'm left to find

My own way to paradise

The gates to a good world are hard to find

Why can't you just do the work that everyone is doing

It's so simple so simple

Why can't you just be like all the others they don't need no help

You're lazy just lazy

Left behind

Everybody thinks that I am

Doing fine

Why won't they believe me that I'm

Trying my best not to fall behind

Left behind

Every day is tiring

Stuck in a grind

Nine to five I bide my time

Exhaustion and breakdowns come every night

No one ever asked me if I wanted to live life this way

Is there not a choice here

Why I got to work all day in order just to feed myself

Just ableist nonsense

Hanging by a single thread the future is just full of dread

I'm holding on barely

I just have to find a way to have my mind not go insane

It's just my normal life

These are my feelings on recently coming out as non-binary.

Also this is my first time using Ableton Live instead of GarageBand

Lyrics

When you look at the world through a mirror

Do you look the same

You're too big, you're too square, you're too manly

It drives me insane

I've been finding

A new word, a new phrase, to describe who I am

I am something

Not a sir, not a ma'am, but the middle

When you show a new you to the world

Are you still the same

Some new clothes different hair and new pronouns

With the same old name

I've been trying

To escape leave behind these old roles I've been given

I've been trying

To escape somewhere safe in the middle

I was inspired by a conversation with Reed in the game Goodbye Volcano High, about what the point of everything is if the world is gonna end. Why do we still care when we know life is temporary, a flash in a pan? Well, I don't know, but I have a song.

Sheet music: https://robinsyl.dev/sheets/originals/We%20Are%20Here/

Lyrics

And so what if it's all just a dream

We still did the best we could

And so what if it's all temporary

We still lived the life we lived

And so what and so what and so what and so what if it's a dream we still had fun

And so what if it all ends right now

We still had the best of times

And so what if it all has no meaning

We were there and we had us

And so what and so what and so what and so what if it ends now we are right here

And so what if we don't leave a mark

We still live the here and now

And so what if no one knows our faces

We still have us in our hearts

And so what and so what and so what and so what if it ends now we are right here

A cover of Fang's song 12 o'clock from the game Goodbye Volcano High

https://dabuaudio.bandcamp.com/track/12-oclock-ft-lachlan-watson

Some call and response

The original version of the main melody

This is a song from early transition. I wasn't very sure of myself, and I felt very insecure confronting my gender. Written 2018, only completed in 2023.

- Lyrics -

[Verse]

Another day, another morning

The same old hat and same old coat

Deep down, I still get the feeling

I’m missing something I can’t find

By the sink, up at the mirror

I see a shadow of myself

From my face, down to my body

There's something wrong I can't define

[Pre-chorus]

Is the real me the me people see

Or the one that wants so desperate to be free

[Chorus]

Do you look into the mirror

and you see someone you never want to be

Do you hear yourself cry

'cause the world around you misidentifies

In the looking glass

Am I looking at myself or just an image of myself inside the

glass

And I wonder

Are you ready to make the leap into the great unknown wonderland

[Bridge]

I'm not ready

but it's too late

I'm already here

in this brand new fate

I'm not ready

but it's too late

I'm already here

in this strange new fate

All the hate and fears

All the worried tears

What if someone knows

What if someone hears

Everywhere I go

Everyone I know

Should I be myself

Should I let them know

[Pre-chorus]

It's a long way home

[Chorus 2]

Do you look into the mirror

and you see the one you've always wanted to be

Do you hear yourself cry

'cause the world around you finally realised

In the looking glass

I can see my former self admire the image of myself inside the

glass

What a wonder

I'm awake and all I wanted is right here in reality

Yes it's about Blåhaj in case you're wondering

- Lyrics -

It's a cozy night and I'm snuggling my thoughts away

Twas a stressful day and I need a way to drift away

Suddenly, I'm struggling to keep my fears at bay

After all, you cannot talk, you're just a children's toy

You've got blue skin body of polymer and sewn on eyes

Brings me back to the innocence of simpler times

Hold you softly in my arms, you’re never judging me

You're my only company, I'm desperately alone

[ instrumental ]

Hold you softly in my arms, you’re never judging me

You're my only company, I can’t do it alone

All together now!