Compulsive Overeating Diary

Back on the mountain Laurie lets go of the stew of anxiety and doubt swirling around trying new things, newly tight pants, photos that make you look as bad as possible AND discovers that Photoshop can crop your negative thinking as well as those pesky bad photo angles! Max's 20/20 show is delayed due to the passing of Joan Rivers. Laurie is LaurieDreamWeaver on Instagram and she likes to see your photos. A shout-out to Sophie from Scotland. Laurie decides to make certificates for catching up with all of the show episodes and mentions how to sign up for the show email list so you can be one of the first to see them. Welcome to new brave companion Annie! Last show, Stéfanie's Secret Topic of the Day triggered a comment conversation between Cheryl, Marquita and Laurie. Marquita is on the bravery report for calling the bravery hotline! Laurie's on the bravery report too for sharing the stories and clips from her first voice acting class and her first singing lesson.

Surprise! After waking early Laurie heads to the podcast rock even though just the day before she had recorded a long interview with Alen Standish. Letting go of internal fear is one of the topics of the day. Laurie shares her latest bravery news. Thanks to the newest Coffee Klatch subscriber and to Amazon shoppers in the USA, Canada and UK! Welcome to new brave companion Marquita who posted her story on Day 71. An update from Alana on Facebook with her reactions about housework and catching up with the show episodes. Cheryl has a question for us based on Stéfanie from Quebec's comment on day 73 about what's under our reactions to unsolicited advice. Another great comment conversation between Helen from the UK and Amy from Wisconsin on Day 72 about intuitive eating. Stéfanie from Quebec asks her secret topic of the day about what's under the fear of emptiness?

Last week's whacked up events demonstrate Laurie's total dependency on schedules and how she needs to let that go and become more flexible. Thanks Helen for your funny joke and 5-star review on UK iTunes! Thanks too to Amazon shoppers and Coffee Klatchers. Several BCs chime in and give support to Shaunie L, Diane the Champion and express their comments about unasked for advice. More thoughts on being selfish vs. being self-supportive. Responses to Kendra's question about what to do when you are mourning the loss of food as a coping mechanism. The unknown Foolish Funner tells a joke that transports Laurie back to when she was a teacher. Brave Companion Amy asks for our thoughts and opinions about how much is a good amount to eat when learning Intuitive Eating.

Totally stressed out from a podcast technological disaster, Laurie heads off to the park to blow off steam. She'a encouraged by a call from Sarah from Wisconsin on the bravery hotline. Kendra asks our opinion on what replaces food and do we mourn our old relationship with food? Helen is a knock out during Foolish Fun. Diane the champion is on the bravery report for calling directly following a binge and for her great plan to deal with it. Brave Companion Suz shares inspiring songs on Facebook.

Laurie digs deep to discover, define and then actually share her fears, concerns and boundaries around giving and getting unasked for advice. Learn about the wonderful album that Laurie's theme song, 'I'm Letting Go' comes from. Shauni L is on the bravery report for calling the bravery hotline and telling her story in her own words.

Hold on to your hats and glasses, it's going to be a wild and wooly time on the podcast rock today! Laurie has an epic tussle with a newly discovered inner bully and kicks its ass to the curb! It all starts when waking up in an unexplained blue mood for the second day in a row, Laurie straps on her recorder, grabs her half-written notes and heads off to the park to figure herself out. In this hybrid episode of bonus off the cuff rambling and regularly planned notes, Laurie decides to let go of having to feel wonderful every single day and ponders the source of her recurring blue mood. While she's pondering, she gives thanks for the new 5-Star rating on iTunes USA and a heartfelt special thanks to her second podcast subscriber. She reminisces about what she's learned from her past diet history and discovers that bastardly inner bully. Well, let's just say Laurie enjoyed what came next! Shauni L calls the bravery hotline with her reactions to Day 69 and earns a place on the bravery report for allowing her voice to be heard. We hear the reactions of Dawny and Diane the Champion to hearing their own bravery hotline calls last show. Cheryl and Helen also post encouraging comments.

It's an unexpected Scottish appreciation day in honor of BC Sophie as a bagpipe player practices in the park on the very day Laurie was mysteriously hungry for, and baked scones for breakfast! Laurie thanks all of the Coffee Klatchers and Amazon shoppers and explains how you can use these ways to support the show and how to get onto the various special email lists. Laurie tries to correct her last show's mispronunciation of Brave Companion Fionna's name and takes proactive steps to correctly welcome new BC Alana from Facebook. We hear a cool hiking analogy from our caller from Rhode Island, who Laurie's now calling BRICE as a nickname for Brave Rhode Island Companion Extraordinaire, because it's easier than Brave Companion from Rhode Island. Together they muse on how much time compulsive eating takes up and what they might do instead. New BC Shaunie L calls the bravery hotline and allows Laurie to share some of Shaunie's story, but not her voice as yet.Cheryl leaves another supportive comment on day 68 and Laurie tells all of the Brave Companions just how much their support on day 67 and day 68 did to help change her mind and her life. Laurie's new voice acting buddy and honorary BC, Max and his friends make a killer video on YouTube called Les MiseraBaristas. We hear two very different Bravery Hotline calls from Laurie's new dynamic duo, D and D, Diane the Champion and Dawny. We discover Dawny's been on the Half Size Me podcast! Diane reveals her own, very personal feelings about her current interactions with food. Laurie's husband, Mark begins a new feature where he tells it like it is about Laurie's progress and what it's like to live with her now vs. when she was dieting. Mark will report monthly from now on in lieu of Laurie's scale. Finally, Laurie muses on her main topic, What's the difference between eating intuitively and just eating all that you want whenever you want?

Laurie mourns actor and comedian, Robin Williams, and ponders her own experience with depression. Laurie decides to let go of feeling repsonsible for what happens to other people. For example, Laurie felt she was disappointing you on Day 67 by not being thinner. But after exploring her issues with the diet/binge cycle further she realizes she needs to be true to herself and continue on with Intuitive Eating. Laurie's super excited when Brave Companion Cathi from Connecticut calls the bravery hotline during her own walk to share her take on intuitive eating and how she really feels about Laurie's journey. Brave companions Amy and Sue also post encouraging comments on Day 67. Laurie really appreciates the support and it helps her look deeper. Welcome to new listeners Sandra and Suz who both post on Day 4, to Diane, a Body for Life champion, who posts several places to share her feelings and to support Crystal and others. Also welcome to new listeners and brave companions from Facebook, Fionna, who has a wonderful blog herself, and to Lisa, a successful loser and maintainer, who has made a decision to try intuitive eating herself. Many of our brave companions are good examples of why we can't assume people's relationship with food by their size.

Laurie ponders her sudden burst of body shame and explores possible reasons why she feels she may disappoint listeners and herself. Laurie tells about a cool Facebook group, Operation Global Change, that supports the body acceptance movement. Laure updates her Amazon page to include her favorite things and thanks the generous shoppers who use the Compulsive Overeating Diary link for USA, UK and Canada. Laurie listens to the Coffee Klatch and updates her buttons on their feedback and advice. Finally, the Unknown Foolish Funner makes us all feel good!

Insecurity seems to be another excuse to give yourself permission to fail. Laurie ponders this and ways to gain clarity on what we actually want for ourselves. Thanks to the 5 dollar senders, aka Laurie's new Coffee Klatch and to the Amazon shoppers for supporting the show. Welcome to new Sparkpeople team members. Thanks also to Melb4564 whose 5-star iTunes review causes Laurie to ponder on the nature of cross-addiction and overspending when dieting. New brave companion Cathi from Connecticut is on the bravery report twice! Once for her comment and once for her brave call to the bravery hotline. Laurie tells the harrowing story of her latest bike incident. Welcome Maggie who kindly posted on day 4. Learn the details of Laurie's next possible adventure and how the brave companions helped her to prepare for it. Also, due to Kendra's great advice, Laurie creates and shares her own personal mission statement and reveals her biggest life dream. Cheryl supports our listener from Rhode Island and then Laurie and Cheryl have a great comment conversation about money and self-worth. Dawny bravely shares her less than happy feelings on the bravery hotline and new listener, Brave Companion Isabel helps Laurie discover what's really under Laurie's feeling fat.