Conscious Conversations with Cam

*TW: Mention of suicide

I have been so honored to share details of my journey through life on this podcast. Now, I feel inspired to begin sharing other peoples’ transformative journeys to hopefully inspire you upon your path. 

The first story I want to share is Kaizen’s. 

I met Kaizen on my recent plant medicine retreat in Peru, which you can hear all about on my last podcast episode. 

Kaizen is a Mindset Coach from New York, where he was born to Ghanaian immigrants. His parents were extremely invested in his success and as their oldest son, Kaizen himself began to feel the pressure to strive for perfection. Though raised around religion, spirituality, mental wellness, and holistic wellbeing weren’t a focus - life was about taking logical steps to success.

After years of excellent grades and setting high standards, Kaizen was accepted into Harvard, where he attended college. Despite being a high achiever with all the qualifications to study amongst his peers, Kaizen began to feel like he was floundering. In his mind, he had achieved his goal and reached Harvard, so he should be happy. In his heart, he felt anxiety, depression, and discomfort surrounded by so many over-stress, type-A, high-expectation people. 

Eventually, the stress became more unbearable and turned into darker thoughts of self-harm and suicide. Kaizen knew he needed to take time off. 

After Harvard, exercise and fitness became Kaizen’s outlet for keeping his anxiety and depression under control. He took on an exciting job planning e-sporting events, and for all intents and purposes, was successful. However, Kaizen spent most of his 20s simply getting by, that stress and anxiety kept at bay but never truly going away. 

In 2020, at age 30 and faced with a looming global pandemic, Kaizen quit his job to become a pro gamer. Instead, Kaizen found himself on a journey of Self-discovery, fueled by spirituality and plant medicine. 

In this interview with Kaizen Asiedu - who you can follow on Instagram @ThatsKaizen - we go in-depth on how transformational work, plant medicine and psychedelics have changed Kaizen’s life, and what truly knowing your Self can do for your life’s purpose. 

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As you know, I recently took a trip to Peru to embark on a Sacred voyage thanks to plant medicine. 

I have worked with plant medicine for about two years now, and it has been an immensely powerful part of my healing journey. 

Plant medicine has helped me remember the sexual abuse my mind had hidden away and helped me to heal from that trauma as well. Plant medicine has helped me clear out limiting beliefs and thoughts that no longer serve me while expanding my consciousness. Of course, you could achieve this without plant medicine, but plant medicine serves as a teacher, an accelerator, a guide towards healing and truth. 

Over the last two years, I have been using plant medicine here and there, always with intention and with people I trust, that respect the Sacredness of plant medicine in the way I do. Now on my trip to Peru, I tried something new: Ayahuasca - the Grandmother - and San Pedro - the Grandfather. 

Before I left for Peru, I recorded an episode called “Surrendering to the Unknown”. Strangely enough, as I walked away from my profound plant medicine experience, I felt the greatest sense of surrender throughout my entire body. I felt fully open and surrendered to the present moment, the Universe, and in return, the Universe told me that I was loved, and made me feel safe and protected.

What Ayahuasca and San Pedro gave me is the ability to release the need for control, and bask instead in the glory of the present moment, trusting that the Universe is there to guide me. 

I went into this journey wanting to let go of whatever blocks may still have existed in my heart from past pain. As I took these plant medicines, I began to be able to engage with the pain and learn from it, and I came upon a profound awareness: There is no pain when you are just Love. And that even the pain is God.

When you vibrate on a loving frequency, when you embody, see, and know love, you feel no pain, you feel only love. When you are open to understanding yourself, the pain empowers and emboldens you. 

When we ignore, push down, and look away from the pain, it only builds. When you begin to engage with it, you can start to purge that pain and find the deeper lesson. 

For me, plant medicine has made a tremendous difference in my healing. The magnitude of my experiences can never truly be put into words, but I feel liberated and freer than I have in years thanks to this healing journey. 

Whether or not you feel called to explore plant medicine doesn't matter, but be sure to give yourself another avenue to explore your pain, whether that be therapy, meditation, or whatever helps you feel most at peace with yourself and the Universe.

Listen to the full episode to learn more.

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I’m writing this to you from the Sacred Valley in Peru. I’m here for the next couple weeks to do some deep healing work, so you won’t be hearing from me for a few weeks. I’m here to let go of the old, and allow the new. To surrender to the unknown. 

Exactly what I speak of in this episode. 

Surrendering to the unknown.

Humanity is going through a collective awakening, and as with all awakenings, there’s A LOT coming to the surface. Much of it very heavy. Much of it things many of us may not want to see.

The unknown has all of us feeling out of control, but it’s important to remember that control is an illusion. Control is a coping mechanism and without it, our egos are terrified. 

Your ego, which I define as anything separate from your authentic Self, is scared. Your ego is afraid of losing the familiar. Your ego is afraid to lose control. The ego is the part of you that believes in owning or controlling in the first place. 

In truth, we own nothing. We are as temporary as our belongings, but the ego clings to material things and theoretical control. Your soul, however, knows that the unknown is where we grow and evolve most, and embraces it. 

In this time of the unknown, how can you detach yourself from your ego to feel more centered and at peace? How do you tap into your soul consciousness and step out of your ego consciousness? 

You surrender. 

Let Go and Let God.

We can only control ourselves, and in times of chaos, the most empowering thing you can do is to trust the process and surrender to the unknown. As scary as that may sound.

Take control of the one thing you can control: you. Anything outside of you will happen the way it is meant to happen. Everything else will fall into place as it needs to for you, and for all of us, to grow and evolve. 

When you learn to surrender, you connect with your true, authentic self and your authentic needs, and you are able to allow yourself to focus on your life without fear and worry. 

Surrender and allow, and observe how your life shifts. 

Sending you all love.
Cam Kashani
Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide
Inspirational Speaker
camkashani.com

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We are living in a very interesting and defining time in history. There’s massive division, separation, and darkness in the world right now, which is most likely going to get worse before it gets better, and it is very easy to get sucked into the stress and worry of it all, despite the fact that much of it is beyond our control.

So, how do we navigate through this unprecedented time without allowing it to throw us for a loop? How do we stay centered, grounded, and committed to our authentic selves? What can we do to help ourselves, and of course, others?

Heal.

If there’s ever a time to heal, it’s now. If there’s ever a time to go within and explore your triggers, this is it. If there’s ever a time where your inner work will not only help you, but will help propel humanity forward, this is that time. 

The world’s traumas are being exacerbated by fear and separation, and now is the time to tune in and protect your energy.

All of the world’s darkest shadows are coming out right now. The shadows we have been trained to drown out, the secrets we have been told not to look at, the heavy stuff we’ve been conditioned to push away, it’s all coming to the surface. Add the impact of the shadows to our already stressful lives, and that trauma is amplified. 

This is why we see so much division. So much agitation. So much pain. Our traumas are being activated, and it’s pushing us apart. 

It’s important to remember that much of what’s happening is beyond our control, so surrender is an essential component, but it’s also important to protect yourSelf and your energy to ensure you remain grounded and whole through the chaos, while healing the trauma triggers. 

Here are a few strategies you can use to begin to heal, protect and connect with your true Self:

1. Create a daily ritual or spiritual practice to center yourself (yoga, prayer, meditation...)
   
   
2. Move every day (go for a hike, take a walk, dance...)
   
   
3. Build/find/join a community (talk to friends, join an online club, have dinner with family…)
   
   
4. Try to eat as clean as you can (get rid of the foods that don’t make you feel good after you eat them...)
   
   
5. Do your inner work and peel back layers of your trauma to empower and heal yourSelf

And finally... turn off the news. That shit is toxic, it’s fear-inducing, and it lowers your vibration. What are you actually gaining by watching it every day? Curb the addiction to fear, and work on what you can control -- you. 

This is the time to HEAL. You deserve to live a life that is healed and empowered. You deserve to live as your true Self.

Sending you all love.

Cam Kashani

Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide

Inspirational Speaker

www.camkashani.com

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Inner child work has been supremely healing and life-changing for me. I have learned to love myself, built my own power, and healed from trauma that affected me for decades. Simply by connecting to, and loving on, my little one inside.

All of us have this inner child who, at some point, was told that they were not enough, not lovable, not worthy. The damage done to your inner child is real, but with that being said, the damage is also reversible. 

In this meditation, I’ll guide you through a process to help make your inner child feel loved, accepted, heard, and understood. My encouragement is to do this meditation as often as you can, so that you can cultivate a profound relationship with your inner child, and over time, you two can become an unstoppable force together. <3

Before you begin, I have one small piece of advice: Be open. Be willing.

Meditation is a practice, and it takes practice, so don’t be frustrated if it is hard or unnatural at first. That being said, the first time you practice this inner child meditation can be a profound and healing experience. Either way, be open and willing to receive whatever comes to you without self-judgment or shame. 

Now, find a comfortable position in a quiet place, and let’s begin...

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If there is anyone in this life that is absolutely worth loving unconditionally, it is you. 

When you go through life without a sense of true Self-love, you miss out on a lot. You miss out on opportunities to fully know and understand yourSelf.

You are deserving of knowing and loving yourSelf in full. You are worthy. No matter where you’ve been or what you’ve done, every part of you is worth loving. Any other idea is a lie. 

Conditional love is the programming we all have, but true love is unconditional. 

So, how do you tap into Self-love? How do you begin the process of falling in love with yourSelf?

First, you must understand that all of the reasons you have for not loving yourSelf are lies. They are programmed, taught, and conditioned lies fed to you by a society that does not want you to love yourSelf. Any excuse you find to withhold Self-love is a lie, and you need to start by unlearning those lies and discovering the beautiful truth. 

Next, you need to take a look at the underlying reasons you have not begun to grant yourSelf Self-love. Most of the time, the reason is trauma. The reason we stay in addiction is usually trauma. The reason we avoid eating healthy foods is usually trauma. The reason we don’t take care of ourselves is, you got it, trauma. Unfortunately, that trauma is often hidden, or so deeply buried that we can’t look at it. 

It took me until last year to remember a severe trauma that I had repressed and had suffered as a young child. It took years of intensive inner work to uncover the pain I had been hiding from mySelf that had inevitably prevented me from loving my entire true Self. Once it came forward though, everything shifted.

True, authentic Self love starts with yourSelf and the Universe. You must access your innermost Self, your inner child, your inner soul to be able to fully heal and begin loving yourSelf for who you truly are. 

So ask yourSelf: Where am I not honoring mySelf right now? 

What do you need to do, what do you need to acknowledge, how do you need to be open with yourSelf to begin the process of falling in love with the most important person there is... you?

Sending you all love,
Cam Kashani
Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide -- I help women BE THE QUEEN
@cam_kashani

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We are raised in a fucked up society. 

We are raised to believe that there is something wrong with us no matter what we look like. We are raised to believe that what, who, and how we are is not enough.  We are raised to believe that all answers lie outside of us, not within. 

So, what’s the solution? Buy products that don’t work, starve yourself, conform and try to look like someone you are not?

NO. It's enough.

This toxic programming affects everyone. For example, I was at the beach the other day and I saw this beautiful woman. She had the typical model build, was tall and thin, and really fit into the “beauty standard.” While I watched her, she started to take off her cover-up, and as she did she looked around sort of nervously. 

I realized that she was looking around to make sure people weren’t looking, and then I heard her say to the guy that was with her: “Don’t look at my butt.” 

She felt uncomfortable. She felt like something was wrong with her. She felt the same way I used to, and the way many of us feel at some point. Everyone has experienced feeling “not enough” or “imperfect”. 

Well. Perfect is bullshit. Let’s get rid of this notion that we have to be perfect. There is no such thing as perfection. It doesn’t exist. What if our “flaws” are what make us perfect? What if what we’ve been conditioned to believe about perfection is a lie? (spoiler alert: it is)

Can you imagine how much happier you would be if you could look at yourself and say “I love myself. JUST AS I AM. I love my stomach. I love my butt. I love my hips. I love the way I look.” How much room opens up energetically within your being when you truly LOVE yourself vs. put yourself down?

So, why do we give into the notion that we aren’t good enough? 

I went through this, too. I spent years feeling ashamed and uncomfortable within myself. I was never pretty enough, thin enough, or enough. Period. I had deeply programmed body shame that wouldn’t give no matter how thin I got. 

I know this struggle from experience. And I know how to overcome it.

And you can too. You can deprogram your body shame, live life fully with love, and you can help build up the people around you. If you have kids, you can help them grow up without the stigma of societal expectations. You can help the next generation grow up feeling confident in their natural beauty and power. 

It all starts with you. So ask yourself: How would your life change if you decided to fully love yourself? Because that’s all it is… a decision. <3

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We all have weird days, right? We all have days where we feel off, or not fully connected to our true selves, or disconnected from our bodies. Maybe you have anxiety or are struggling with feelings of hopelessness. Maybe you’re just feeling general blah. 

I’ve been feeling that recently. I’ve been blah. 

Usually, I’m a pretty positive and happy person, but I've been feeling blah and feel disconnected from my true self. 

While it’s uncomfortable to sit with ‘the blah,’ I always try to remember that ‘the blah’ is here for a reason. Maybe I need to learn something or get insight into something I’m not paying attention to. The body is an amazing thing and can tell you exactly what you need, just so long as you are able and willing to listen. 

Unfortunately, our society trains us to ignore our bodies and to simply patch ourselves up and keep going without investigating the root cause. Of course, there’s nothing wrong with short-term relief from an Advil or a bandaid, but that doesn’t solve the issue. In addition to that short-term solution, you need to listen to your body to find out what’s really wrong and receive the message your body is sending to you. 

There’s a message in the blah, and there’s a message in the pain. Your body is trying to communicate. But the question is: are you allowing that kind of communication?

Rather than calming or quieting the pain, do you give it time to speak? Have you listened closely to find out if it has something to tell you? Could there be a hidden message under the blah?

When I sat with my own ‘blah,’ I asked, “what is your purpose, and why are you here?” I allowed myself to be uncomfortable, and to sit with myself and the feeling of my body without dismissing my pain. 

Pushing away or numbing the pain doesn’t work. You might feel better for a little while, but the pain will come back stronger and with a more urgent message. 

When you give space for your pain to exist and for your body to communicate, you can unlock secrets and profound truths. You do not need to lead a life of pain. You can heal yourself and live in harmony with your body. 

The process starts with awareness and allowing. You have to feel to heal, so give yourself the space to begin communicating with your body. 

Sending you all love,
Cam Kashani
Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide
Awakened Leadership Expert
Inspirational Speaker

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Hi everyone! Welcome back to the first episode of Season 2 of the Cam Kashani show!

Today, with everything happening in the world right now, I felt really called to speak about BODY AUTONOMY. This conversation might be difficult for some of you, and that’s okay. I may even lose some of you, and that's okay too. But before I start, I want to ask that you try to listen to this episode all the way through because if you are triggered, that could reveal something deeper about yourself that needs to be healed. <3

"Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes."

My truth is my truth, and it’s meant to spoken. Just like yours. 
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Body autonomy. What does that mean?

Body autonomy means I get to govern my body, decide what goes inside my body, what it does, where it goes.

My body, my choice. My body, my domain.

Now I have spent most of my life healing my relationship with my body, learning to love my body, healing body shame, rebuilding my relationship with myself, learning to speak my truth, and connecting to my inner Sacred Queen. 

And one thing that is absolute for me now is that no one gets to tell me what goes inside my body. No human, organization, or government gets to make decisions for MY BODY.

So I am here to reflect back to you now, that if you are allowing a forced mandate to make a choice for you, what else are you allowing in your life that you have not necessarily chosen? 

When were we conditioned to forget our body autonomy? When were we taught that our bodies are not our own? When were we told that we don't have the power to choose what goes inside our bodies?

Now, don’t get me wrong, I am not against the shot. I am only against being told what goes inside me, without my full consent. If you feel it's best for you to get it, by all means please do so. Just do so by choice. 

I am also not here to tell you what to do; I’m here to remind you that you have the power to decide. 

Many of us, women in particular, are raised to be quiet and unassuming. We are taught not to ask questions or stir the pot and to avoid conflict. And I used to be that way too. I used to avoid conflict at all costs -- especially mySelf. But now, it's different. I'm different. I've grown, I've healed, and I've learned to EMBRACE my power, not shy away from it. And if staying quiet and not disrupting the peace means giving up my freedom and my body’s basic rights, I don’t want peace. I want my power and my freedom. 

I know many of you are in the same boat as me but are rolling with the status quo to avoid rocking the boat in some way shape or form. I see you. I feel you. I was you. 

It is so much easier to just stay quiet and go along with it all. But it is so much more authentic to the core of who we are to stand in our God-given power and say: My body, my domain, I decide. 

I will leave you with this invitation: 

Does your power trigger you? Does your freedom trigger you? If so, I invite you to follow the line of energy and heal that trigger, so that you can allow yourSelf to revel in the glory of authentic empowerment and freedom in your own body.

Sending you all love,
Cam Kashani

Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide
Awakened Leadership Expert
Inspirational Speaker
camkashani.com
@cam_kashani

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Trigger Warning: Mention of drug use, addiction, and trauma

On the final episode of the first season of the Cam Kashani Show (be back in a few weeks), I want to cover a massively complicated topic, and one that I myself struggled with: Addiction. 

What is addiction? I define addiction as dependence. Dependence on something outside of yourself and believing that you need that thing to continue, to be yourself, and to function. As a former addict myself, I have come to the realization that none of that is actually true.

You need nothing outside of yourself. Everything you need already lies within. 

In the spiritual context, addiction can be defined as a lack in your aura. A part of your soul has left your body and so an outside dependency has taken its place. But where does addiction come from? How does that spiritual rift occur? 

If you have listened to the first eleven episodes of Season 1, you have a basic understanding that most everything comes down to trauma. No matter how lovely your childhood was, how amazing your parents were, or how happy you are now, we have all experienced trauma. Trauma is part of the human experience, and not one human being in the world has lived a fully trauma-free life. Addiction, in my experience, stems from trauma and is used by humans as a way to either avoid processing or avoid feeling what we have gone through. 

Addiction comes in many forms. It doesn’t always look the way it does in the media, where someone is found on the floor with a needle sticking out of their arm. Of course, this kind of addiction is devastating and does occur, but for many people, addiction looks very different. 

I was a closet addict. I hid it well, so well that no one knew about my 20-year on-again-off-again amphetamine addiction (adderall). Yup, in this episode I’m going there.

Before I had any hope of beating my addiction, I had to begin working through trauma. I did trauma work every single day at the beginning of my journey with the help of incredible mental health professionals and the support of family and friends. 

If you or someone you know is struggling with addiction, and the story of how I overcame my addiction helps you, I encourage you to start by 1) asking for help, we cannot do this alone 2) taking steps towards loving yourself and working on trauma. It’s not easy AT ALL, and everyone’s addiction is different, and to be clear I am not offering medical advice whatsoever or claiming I know what’s best for you -- I am simply sharing my journey and what worked for me. Once I realized that I did not need anything but me, I was astonished by my remarkable divine power, and realized I need NOTHING beyond mySelf. And that’s the possibility I hold for anyone struggling with addiction. 

Join me during the final episode of this season as I journey through the story of my addiction and recovery and share wisdom learned along the way. 

Sending you all love,
Cam Kashani
Sacred Queen Embodiment Guide
Awakened Leadership Expert
Inspirational Speaker

*Disclaimer: this is not medical advice. I am not a doctor. Every addiction is different. Every human being is different. Do not do anything without consulting with a professional first. Addiction is serious and should be treated as such.

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