Philip is the Sheik for the 'Turning' group at Colet House. He studied with Dr Francis Roles for many years. He talks about becoming seriously ill. 'I had always thought that it was possible to change my attitude to any situation. With the illness, I realised that there was a stage where you couldn't. You could have a good attitude either side of the experience, but not while you were in it, ….when the illness was deep in the brain, there was no way out until it passed, and you just had to allow the experience to be what it was. I was having to assimilate the idea of illness and suffering as a gift - what looked like suffering …could often have a transforming effect on the deeper spiritual levels.'