Just because you can see through something doesn’t make it clear does it? We are all so busy judging and deciding what is true, we forget that our perception isn’t always reality. So let’s all take a step back from playing judge and jury shall we?

Depression is.. so different from crawling under your covers and not coming out for days at a time. It looks like that too sometimes, but just as health and life isn’t one size fits all, neither is mental health or life with depression. It’s all kinds of different than what I expected and it’s always catching me off guard. So let’s chat about it.

Let’s have a conversation about body shaming, body dysmorphia, eating disorders, unsolicited opinions, modeling and all the other things. I’m tired of the shaming and the feelings of loneliness or isolation that comes with all things body. So after being prompted many times this week, we are gonna talk about it.

I’m a mess, day in and day out. Sometimes it’s not so bad, sometimes it’s worse and sometimes it’s somewhere in the middle and I just shoot and hope I don’t miss ya know? So if you want to know a little bit of the ins and outs of being me.. here ya go.

I figured I’d give y’all a little background (the very short and condensed version) on me and all the things chronic illnesses. It’s long overdue, but will hopefully help you understand who I am and what I’m dealing with. This is part one, so stick around for part 2 next week.

Church hurt shouldn’t be a thing. But since it is, let’s chat about it. People walk away from the gospel for all kinds of reasons but I think being burned by the church is way too big of one. So let’s have a chat about how humanity occasionally does a real bad job of being like Jesus, and how we are getting in the way of Gods work when we act like idiots trying to be God and think we can do the work better than He can. Oh, and if you’re thinking, but Emily you love Jesus, you’ve never known church hurt. Do I ever have a story for you.

I can’t possibly be the only one that’s had something happen, or in my case, a lot of events happen that drastically change, limit or alter my life in ways I can’t return or rewind. I’ve had so much taken from me without my permission.. so I think it’s time we have a conversation about that stuff, and how the hell you say goodbye to a life you never got to have.

Marriage is hard but I think the way we as a Christian people view it, teach it and approach it in the church is making it harder. I’m frustrated with it, and from personal experience find it to be limiting and isolating. So. I’m doing my best to talk about it, and hope my ramblings open the door to some change down the road. Cus the church, in my opinion has it all wrong.

Let’s talk about how I came to Jesus, how good God is and all the things. In light of Christmas coming up, I think it’s only fair to chat about my fav ABBA Father for a bit. The last few episodes were hard to share, harder to live and probably hard to hear. So time for Joy. And the best joy I know is Jesus. Don’t forget you guys, if you’re not dead, Gods not done.

Okayyyy, so everyone always asks why bad things happen to good people, or why God allows such hardship. I just got gospel smacked by the truth of this difficult question, so I am now going to do my best to convey it to you as it was just laid out for me. Today - let’s rest in and dive into Matthew 13:24-29.