Country Geisha

Here I go again being confused! The problem is I stayed in a relationship because I thought this was the right choice for my family. I realized I was unhappy and that I staying because I was comfortable. I was no longer happy. The final straw was when he said my sister couldn't stay in my apartment that I paid for. I was done being misused and angry. I had to come up with a plan to leave. I drew out a plan and I left. I started with lining up a job, getting emotional support from my family, getting a lawyer, and I dissolved the marriage. When a person is fed up, there is no turning back. There is only so much a person can take. Ready for the next chapter in my life!

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This episode talks about why people cheat. I explain why cheating happens and why it’s okay to cheat sometimes. People cheat because they are unhappy in their relationship. Cheating is wrong if you stay with the person that you cheat on. I did cheat, but I left afterwards. No one is perfect, but I don’t regret what I did. I wanted to feel that spark again because I was unhappy in my marriage. So, I went with my feelings and I hung out with my ex. He and I was reliving our teenage dreams because we never ended our relationship. We randomly found each other again. We went out for a night and had an amazing time. We were living our teenage lives, but as adults. I was finally at peace with this past relationship. It all started with temptations.

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In this episode, I talk about being married. We are taught to go to college, get married, have kids, and buy a house. These goals should make us happy right? I did these steps, but I was not happy.

Marriage is not easy as it looks. As a young adult, I didn't know that my marriage was going to be a failure. I only knew of fairytales and happy endings. I had to learn the hard way by suffering and being in a toxic relationship. After more than a decade, I realized what a marriage should and should not be. My husband was not a man. He was my man child. I took care of him and my children. I was the man in the relationship. This relationship was draining. He didn't work so I had to make up for what he couldn't to keep my family stable. As a mother, I did everything in my power to make sure my children were safe, healthy, and fed. It got to a point where I gave up in this relationship. It was the only way to stay sane. 

In this episode, I talk about what it was like being a 17 year old teen mom. This was the transition of being the fun pretty girl into teen mom. Life was going so well until a big curve ball took me back to the beginning. I describe the verbal abuses from everyone around me. Family and friends turned their back when they saw me as a pregnant teen. I grew up with my kids learning as I went along with no guidance. I talk about raising my toddler while having a newborn son who had many episodes of seizures. He then was diagnosed with ADHD and Autism. I speak about the struggles of adjusting to the many new changes in my life. Digging deep into troubled pasts that made me learn and grow into a stronger person. I did what was best for my children and not what was best for me.