Cultured Boy

Episode 31: What happens when you grow up with 44 siblings in a Fundamentalist Mormon cult—and realize the whole world might just be...a cult?In another raw, late-night (after 2am) “sleep-drunk” episode in New York City, I talk about what it’s like to wake up from a belief system, how cult documentaries miss the real story, and the one simple practice that can keep any of us free from cults.Ready to dive in? Always follow the white rabbit.Follow me on Instagram, TikTok, and X — @calvinwayman⏱️ YouTube Chapters0:00 – Sleep-drunk honesty returns 🌙1:04 – Building a little “culty” community 🌀2:03 – Wait…44-siblings? 😳7:17 – Turning the Wayman name cool again 😎7:47 – Realizing I was born into a cult 🧠9:46 – The mind-fuck of doubt, while in a cult 🪞10:18 – Why cult documentaries miss it 🎥12:50 – The fish story: “what is water?” 🐠13:52 – You are the fish? (Hint: we all are) 🌊17:04 – The good news: you’re not alone 💛19:20 – Cultiness is everywhere 🌍24:50 – Doing “the right thing” = cult rule #1 ⚖️27:44 – Beyond religion: politics, media, academia 🧩29:35 – The gift of seeing through illusions 👁️31:42 – The danger of missing the good 🌤️35:22 – Why I still love America 🇺🇸36:39 – Higher education as a modern cult 🎓47:55 – The hardest, bravest thing: curiosity 💫49:33 – We’re all believing some BS right now 💩53:04 – Why America’s core values still matter 🗽56:36 – Leaving despite eternal punishment 🔥58:00 – The human story of leaving ❤️1:00:46 – How to avoid being trapped in a cult: state the obvious 🪩1:03:05 – Replace righteousness with honesty 💬1:05:17 – Mormonism is a cult—and full of good people 🤝1:06:16 – We’re all participating in the system 🔄1:07:02 – Honesty is freedom 🕊️1:07:30 – The next chapter of Cultured Boy 🎬

this raw, sleep-drunk episode, I get real about everything — from growing up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult to leaving it all behind, betting on myself in New York City, and re-learning love, sex, and self-trust. I talk about following what feels real, the evolution of Cultured Boy, the future of Hearts Unknown, and why honesty — even when it wrecks your life — is the only way to truly live.💭 Real talk. No script. Just truth.Stay curious. Stay real.#CulturedBoy #CalvinWayman #ExMormon #Honesty #NYCFollow me on IG and TikTok: @calvinwaymanCollab or hire me to speak: [email protected] Chapters: 00:00 — Sleep-Drunk & Honest 😴00:14 — “Wait… You Have 44 Siblings?!” 🤯03:16 — The Story of Starting Over ✨06:57 — “My Gut Was Right.” 🧭09:04 — The Moment I Left the Religion 🎧12:05 — The Courage to Question Your Own Beliefs ❓18:04 — Living on Credit & Faith 💳24:41 — What My Dad’s Death Taught Me 💔26:16 — The Bet I’m Making on Myself 🎰29:14 — How New York Healed this Fundamentalist Boy 💫32:11 — What’s Next for Cultured Boy 🎙️33:07 — My Dream for Hearts Unknown 🌍37:01 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting 👁️38:33 — Every Human I’ve Met Is Interesting, Growing Up with 44 Different Personalities 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦40:15 — Finding the Universal in the Personal 🌐41:48 — The Need for Real Human Connection 🤝42:56 — Upcoming Episodes I’m Excited About 🔥44:12 — Let’s Talk About Sex & Dating 💋45:24 — From Arranged Marriage to Real Love ❤️48:55 — Learning That Sex Is Normal 😅50:59 — “It’s Never About the Dishes” 🍽️53:11 — Working Through Shame & Sexual Healing 🌙56:54 — The Two Relationships I’m In 💍59:04 — What I Actually Want in Love 💌1:02:59 — The Kind of Love I’m After 💞1:05:09 — The Magic of Not Forcing Life ✨1:08:10 — Love as Synergy: 1 + 1 = ∞ ♾️1:09:42 — Curiosity About Conflict (and Global Ones) 🌍1:10:02 — The Trump Peace Treaty Surprise 🕊️1:16:20 — Rethinking Trump as a Negotiator 🤔1:18:10 — Peace Isn’t the Goal—Agreement Is 🤝1:20:31 — Final Thoughts & Gratitude ❤️

happens when you sit down with your 8-year-old self? 🎧In this deeply personal episode, I revisit an old cassette tape from 1996—a recording of me as a kid growing up in a fundamentalist Mormon family with one dad, four moms, and 44 siblings.I sing along with my 8-year-old self for the first time in nearly 30 years… and what unfolds is part time capsule, part therapy session, and part revelation about authenticity, curiosity, and becoming who we really are.I explore childhood innocence, trauma, creativity, religion, money, freedom, and even the Israel-Palestine conflict—because all of it connects back to one question:👉 How do we return home to who we really are?If you’ve ever felt like life made you lose yourself somewhere along the way…this one’s for you.Follow me on IG: @calvinwaymanFollow me on TikTok: calvinwaymanHire me to speak! [email protected] Stamps:00:00 Meeting my 8-year-old self 🎧02:20 The return to childhood 👦06:00 The life of a fundamentalist kid 🏡09:00 What my childhood song revealed 💭10:30 When I saw my dad hit my mom 💔12:00 The “A++” lesson that changed my life 🧠15:00 Finding of adventure 🌲17:00 Climbing trees & earwig horror 🪳19:00 My first crush… on my dad’s new wife’s sister 😳22:00 Pretending to be asleep 😴27:00 Would 8-year-old me approve of life now? 👀30:00 Returning to authenticity 🧩34:30 The ordinary can become extraordinary 🌟36:00 Why being yourself feels risky 😬38:00 Are humans really “born broken”? 🤔40:00 Aligning values = finding God 🔥44:00 Why I chose New York over safety 🗽48:00 The story that changed my view on money forever 😱52:00 The event that changed my life forever 🚀55:00 Don’t believe anything that disempowers you ⚡56:30 The win-win mindset 🔄58:00 Trusting the unknown 🌌59:30 Israel-Palestine reflections ✡️☪️1:01:00 Can humanity finally get along? 🌏1:02:00 Coming home to my real self 🕊️

What if everything holding you back isn’t the world…it’s how you treat YOU?In this raw and eye-opening conversation with Justin Nault, we dive deep into self-love, authenticity, shadow work, and childhood conditioning — and how they shape everything from your relationships and health to your biggest dreams.You’ll learn why forgiving yourself might be the most powerful thing you ever do, how to stop chasing “enoughness,” and why the fastest path to growth is not grinding harder… but removing the invisible blocks that keep you stuck.Whether you’ve struggled with self-judgment, people-pleasing, impostor syndrome, or the feeling you’re “not there yet,” this episode will give you a roadmap to love yourself fully — and watch the rest of your life change. 💫FOLLOW JUSTIN:YouTube:  @JustinNault2  Instagram: JustinNaultOfficialFOLLOW CALVIN:Instagram: CalvinWaymanTikTok: CalvinWaymanX: CalWaymanTimestamps: 00:00 – What if everything we do is driven by love? ❤️03:40 – “44 Siblings?!” My Wild Origin Story 🤯07:10 – Can a rockstar really become a self-love coach? 🎸10:40 – What happens when your “dream life” makes you miserable? 🍺14:10 – Could food actually save a baby’s life? 🍼17:40 – How did a homemade formula turn into a business empire? 🧪21:10 – Can psychedelics make you quit the life that isn’t yours? 🌿24:40 – Is authenticity just another word for self-love? 🪞28:10 – Are we all chasing legitimacy without realizing it? 🏆31:40 – Why is unconditional love so damn hard? 💗35:10 – What’s really keeping you from your “future self”? 🛤️38:40 – Spotting ‘Blockages:’ The Water You Swim In 💧42:10 – Could talking to your mirror change your life? 🪩45:40 – Is forgiving yourself the most radical thing you can do? 🕊️49:10 – What if withholding the truth is just another form of lying? 🚧52:40 – How do you ask for the love you actually need? 💬56:10 – What if reality is just a mirror reflecting you? 🔄59:40 – Why explain yourself when self-love needs no explanation? 🥗1:03:10 – Are you performing for love that never touches you? 🎭1:06:40 – What if love was a daily practice, not a mystery? ☀️1:10:10 – Can two tiny bedtime rituals rewire your mindset? 🛏️1:13:40 – What do your 100 wants reveal about your limits? ✍️1:17:10 – When should unconditional love not mean unconditional access? 🚪1:20:00 – Wrap: Choose Love as the Default—Everywhere 💫

This story is FASCINATING!!! If you think you know Fundamentalist Mormonism (FLDS) or Warren Jeffs, think again. This gets to the deeply personal insight the world of America's Most Wanted Cult Leader. Follow me on TikTok and Instagram: @calvinwayman00:00 — “What to expect, getting into the episode--meet Jaden Jeffs” 🔥08:00 — FLDS vs LDS: Who Warren Jeffs really is (and how big this got) 🧨16:00 — When “play” was a sin: childhood without games + the Cave moment 🕳️24:00 — “Work hard, obey, maybe you’ll be saved” — the psychology of worthiness ⛓️32:00 — Three-day fasts & 24/7 prayers to free the prophet — inside the ritual 🙏40:00 — “Only 10M left in the US” — meetings, fear, and a crack in Denver traffic 🚗48:00 — Warren Jeff's public shaming from the pulpit: names, accusations, and terror of being next 🧱56:00 — The day his mom was “named” — grief, loyalty tests, and soul math 💔1:04:00 — Exile orders: houses of hiding, Short Creek demotions, and control 🧭1:12:00 — Touching the “devil’s ground”: first internet search… and nothing exploded 💻1:20:00 — YouTube at 3am, deleting phone plans, and the curiosity spiral 📺1:28:00 — The bike loophole: “better to ride than to sin online,” first taste of play 🚲1:36:00 — Human nature on display: revenge, cutoffs, and getting labeled apostate 🧪1:44:00 — Wi-Fi on, floodgates open: binging every FLDS doc and connecting dots 🌊1:50:00 — How to break a spell: “state the obvious,” spot cultiness everywhere 🧠

I grew up with 44 siblings in a fundamentalist Mormon cult. In this episode of [Cult]ured Boy, I react to Johnny Harris’s viral investigation into how the Mormon Church built a $293 billion empire. I share what it stirs up for me—stories, manipulation, rejection, polygamy, money, and why narratives shape human lives. This is about Mormonism, fundamentalism, cult dynamics, family, and ultimately freedom.Follow me on TikTok and IG:@calvinwaymanTimestamps00:00 – Come on in + incense 🚪00:18 – Why Johnny’s new Mormon $$$ doc hit me 🎬00:54 – “This should win an Emmy” 🏆01:42 – Leaving makes the “not true” feel obvious 🧠03:00 – The golden book assumption → everything else 📖04:41 – Stories serve purposes, not reality 🎭06:11 – The First Vision (revision & timing) 🌲07:54 – 1886 revelation and fundamentalist echoes 📜09:59 – Women in my community are finding their voice 👩‍🦰11:07 – Motivated narratives (assess who benefits) 🧰12:21 – Why I went to the war zone for Hearts Unknown 🌍13:13 – Who I am: [Cult]ured Boy, 44 siblings 👋14:02 – Stories target the believers you need 🎯16:30 – Messiness over certainty; kick the pedestals 🌀17:36 – Love the people, critique the machine 💛19:47 – LDS as franchise + constant rebrands 🏢22:03 – Family values… and men taking credit 👨‍👩‍👧‍👦23:16 – Why I keep “[Cult]ured Boy” (reclaiming “cult”) 🧢24:59 – NYC gave me breath + agency 🗽29:28 – Anger, arranged marriage, community flip 😤33:09 – Betrayal & rejectionism across sects 🔪35:33 – “Nicest people, eats its young?” sect splits 🐣49:01 – “Give it to priesthood” → power hijack 🥖50:58 – The polygamy math problem ➗53:16 – When prophecies fail: blame the faithful 🔁56:37 – “Not enough girls because men lack faith” 🔒58:51 – People are the magic; credit gets hijacked ✨1:01:31 – “Bought and paid for” rhetoric 🧾1:02:08 – Validation + the pain of deconstruction ✅1:04:36 – Principles vs tribes (truth-seeking) 🧭1:05:51 – Skin in the game; care about the why 🏃1:07:42 – Go watch Johnny’s video (seriously) 📺1:08:00 – Owning [Cult]ured Boy; ditch the script 📝1:09:23 – Nobody has it figured out → charlatans thrive 🌪️1:10:33 – Outro: subscribe; Jaden Jeffs soon—“Trust your discontent. Stay hungry. Stay curious.” 🙏

In this episode, I give tips for self care, especially with the wildness of the world.

Charlie Kirk was assassinated in Utah during a Turning Point USA event. In this emergency episode, we break down what happened, why it matters more than you might think, and what it reveals about America’s growing political divide. And...what we can do about it. From the shooting details to the cultural fallout, we ask: what does this mean for the future of the country?Timestamps:00:00:00 — Who this is for (left, right, everyone) 🎯00:00:25 — “Emergency” setup + meet Anthony 👋00:01:07 — What happened & where (UVU, Utah) 📍00:02:08 — Calvin’s background: fundamentalist roots, 44 siblings 🧬00:03:04 — Disagreeing with Charlie, still calling it a tragedy 🕯️00:05:02 — Rage-bait, campus clips, why people get heated 🔥00:06:10 — The line we can’t cross: is that ever “deserved”? ❌00:07:08 — Shooter basics at time of recording 🎯00:10:52 — Not teams—humans: the core lens 🧍00:15:12 — Tribalism & plausible deniability (quiet cheers) 😬00:21:06 — 9/11 memory: rallying as one 🇺🇸00:29:04 — Labels, Muslims, and forgetting we’re human first 🕌00:33:02 — Absolutism vs relativism: why labels stick ⚖️00:37:59 — Joseph Smith, shame cycles, and martyrdom 📜00:47:04 — “The Last Mirror”: intolerance of reflection 🪞01:03:12 — A plea to Charlie’s supporters: extend grace when tables turn 💗01:10:59 — Bottom line: Life, Liberty, Pursuit 📌Would love to hear from you! How are you holding up with this?

I grew up in a fundamentalist Mormon cult—1 dad, 4 moms, 44 siblings—and finally escaped after 30 years. In this episode, I break down the hidden playbook cult leaders like Joseph Smith and Warren Jeffs use to control people…and how those same tactics show up in politics and power today.This isn’t just about religion—it’s about spotting manipulation anywhere it hides. And at the end, I’ll give you the single safeguard that can keep anyone from getting swallowed by a cult.👉 Subscribe for more raw stories, breakdowns, and life after the cult.👉 Drop a 1, 2, or 3 in the comments so I know who’s watching.Stay hungry. Stay curious,– Calvin[Cult]ured BoyTimestamps00:00:00 — Listen Closely--I Escaped a Cult 🔥00:00:14 — 44 Siblings, 4 Moms. Yep. 👀00:02:00 — Going Beyond the BITE Model 📖00:02:32 — Who This Video Is For 🎯00:05:37 — Two “Prophets,” One Pattern 🌀00:06:16 — Warren Jeffs: How He Held Power ⛓️00:07:02 — The Joseph Smith Link (Brace Yourself) ⚡00:09:02 — LDS vs. Fundamentalists: The Split ✂️00:12:04 — Mormons Becoming More Likable by Becoming Less Mormon 😅00:15:24 — Step One of Cult-Building: The Narrative 📝00:16:10 — Reality Doesn’t Care About Your Story 🌍00:17:55 — The Master Trick: Change the Meaning 🔄00:20:55 — A Chilling Night in Colorado City 🌙00:24:31 — Blame as a Control System 🎯00:26:59 — Weaponized Shame 101 🪤00:31:01 — Tyrants All the Way Down 👑00:42:09 — Polygamy as “Holy”: The Switch 💍00:43:49 — Angel with a Sword (Convenient Revelation) ⚔️00:50:42 — Distrust Yourself; Trust the Leader 🧠00:59:56 — The Antidote to All Things Culty: State the Obvious 🛡️01:04:20 — Find One Safe Person and Say It Out Loud🤝01:09:30 — Final Charge: Stay Hungry, Stay Curious 🚀What part hit you hardest? Drop it in the comments 👇

In this episode, I travel to Harlem to try authentic African cuisine (fufu + jollof rice) for the very first time (something I definitely could not have done just a few years ago). It’s messy, it’s wild, and it pushes me way outside my comfort zone. But guess what, I’m all for it! What shocked me most wasn’t just the food—it was what the experience taught me about culture, curiosity, and what it really means to be free.👀 Watch to see how this food felt “naughty,” why it reminded me of my childhood in a cult, and how trying something new can completely change your perspective.👉 Drop a comment: What’s the most “forbidden” food you’ve ever tried?👍 Like if you want to see me explore more cultures through food.🔔 Subscribe so you don’t miss the next adventure.Follow me: Instagram: @calvinwaymanTikTok: @calvinwaymanX: @calwayman#ForbiddenFoods #CulturedBoy #fufu Timestamps00:00:00 I Could’ve Never Done This a Few Years Ago 🔥00:00:26 Headed to Harlem for… THIS 🤭00:01:04 No Forks. No Spoons. Just Hands. 🍽️00:01:25 “This Food Feels Like a Boob” 😂00:04:56 Can I Turn My Food Into a Spoon? 🥄00:05:40 My Raw Reaction Says It All 🤯00:06:15 “This Feels Naughty!” 😈00:07:54 The Messiest Bite Yet 🦴00:10:00 The First “Cultured” Food I Ever Tried 🍣00:11:17 Matt’s Childhood vs Mine… Worlds Apart ⚖️00:12:03 What It’s Like Growing Up With 44 Siblings 🏠00:13:02 Married for Eternity… ⛓️00:16:24 Sneaking Pizza Was a Sin 🍕00:27:04 The One Game That Saved My Sanity 🏀00:33:00 What MDMA Taught Me About Love ❤️00:45:14 Why I Fell in Love With New York 🗽00:57:11 Touching the Hot Stove for the First Time 🔥01:02:10 My First Taste of Award-Winning Jollof 🏆01:03:38 Five Stars for Accra Express ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️