Being present is not synonymous with saying “yes” to everything

Sometimes it’s one persons job to ask, and the other persons job to say “no”

Both are doing their job

Cool

This class is pretty vulnerable to post cuz it ended up pretty clunky and messy but I’m saying hi to the self conscious part of me and choosing to anyways 🫅

Some follow up thoughts:

I think the part of me that has a hard time accepting the importance of “Moshiach Ben dovid” is the part of me that wonders : will it ever actually happen. Is it actually possible for things to actually change.

it’s that vulnerability that would rather just stay present in the tzimtzum , instead of the “risk” of hoping for something that “might not happen”

This part of me has gotten comfortable living as the viceroy of Egypt. It has moved furniture into this basement. It continuously renovates the walls of a home that is not my dream home.

I thank this part. This Moshiach Ben yosef part. This “I’m going to be here and make the most of where I am now”

But I also choose to not going to forget about the Moshiach Ben dovid part. The part that says “there is more then this” we are going somewhere. Redemption is coming. The blessings we seek are flowing toward us. Golus is not the only option.

Sending so much love 🤍

Parshas Vayeshev 🤍

This part of Chumash is super vulnerable and intense. Especially for anyone who has been though anything that hurt them (aka- all of us)

Sending so much love and power and self compassion and the courage to find holy anger

🤍

All in time

Because we already won, we can be here now

You are mine and not me and you are also the point

🤍

Even the limp

Nobody and nothing can gate keep the blessings that are yours.

Ever.

🤍

Deeper understanding of who rochel and Leah are

And who yaakov and esav are

And why rivka did what she did

And why rochel gave the signs

And what all of this has to do with me and my life and my story

TYH

There is a delicious divine story happening and I (including my rochel and my Leah) am in the center of it.

The parts of me that feel they don’t fit, actually fit perfectly 🤍

In depth of parshas Vayetze

TYH

The Torah teaching us what fear of god really is and what love of god can accomplish

And suddenly we are home