Ever wonder if all this staying home, pouring out, and homeschooling is really worth it?

In this honest episode, I’m sharing a moment where I almost walked away from the calling—and what helped me stay rooted. We’ll talk about the tug-of-war between purpose and pressure, and how God reminded me that this season of motherhood matters deeply.

Takeaways:

Doubt doesn’t mean you’re not called.

Obedience sometimes looks like staying.

Your faithfulness at home is kingdom work.

For the mama who feels tired, torn, or tempted to chase something else—this one’s for you. 

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Ever notice how your home shifts with your mood? I sure have—and it was a wake-up call. In this episode, we’ll talk about why moms set the atmosphere of their homes, how our emotions, rhythms, and spiritual walk ripple through our families, and how even the smallest self-care moments can shift everything. Mama, you have more influence than you realize—let’s learn how to use it with grace.

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What if the biggest thing standing in the way of God's plans for your family… is you?

In this vulnerable and heart-changing episode, I share the costly and humbling lesson I had to learn about submission—what it really means to walk in biblical order within our homes, and how I unintentionally distracted my husband from hearing God's direction.

If you’ve ever wrestled with control, pride, or the desire to “help” steer the ship… this one's for you, sis.

We talk about:

This episode is a real, raw invitation to check your heart, pray over your marriage, and remember that submission isn’t weakness—it’s powerful surrender.

✨ Includes a guided prayer and encouragement for every wife trying to walk in God’s will while still learning to let go.

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Preparing for Your Homeschool Year (Even If You Don’t Feel Ready)

Feeling behind before the homeschool year even starts? You’re not alone, friend. Whether your books haven’t arrived, your plans feel scattered, or your confidence is shaky—this episode is a gentle hug and a deep breath for your homeschool mama heart.

In today’s episode, I share some of our messiest first days, the years we started late (or not at all), and how God lovingly led me to lay down my hustle and invite Him into the planning. It’s not about perfect charts and tidy shelves—it’s about connection, flexibility, and faith.

We’ll chat about what it looks like to:

Whether you’re planning with a latte in hand or praying in between diaper changes, you are not behind—and you are not alone.

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Sometimes hope feels like the hardest thing to hold onto—especially when the ending of your story looks nothing like what you pictured.

In this final episode of our Through the Fire series, I’m sharing how God taught me to hold on to hope—not because I had all the answers or could see the whole plan, but because He was still with me in the unknown.

If you’re standing in the ashes, wondering what’s next, this one’s for you.

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Who are you when the title is gone?

If you've ever felt lost in the in-between, this one’s for you. Let’s uncover what was always true: you are still chosen, still called, and still His.

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What happens when the dust settles after everything falls apart? In this deeply personal episode, I share how God used the fire—not to destroy me, but to refine me. I open up about the false identities I didn’t know I was still carrying… and how, in the aftermath of a dream that didn’t end how I hoped, God began to rebuild something deeper, stronger, and more honest.

If you’ve ever found yourself questioning your worth, wrestling with your identity, or wondering what purpose looks like after a hard detour—this episode will meet you right there. You are not starting over. You’re being rebuilt with grace, grit, and a God who never left.

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What happens after the disappointment—when the plan falls apart, and you’re left holding questions instead of answers?

In this heartfelt episode of Dreams, Dirt & Grace, we step into the vulnerable space that comes after the fire. The space where God feels quiet, the next step isn’t clear, and you’re wondering if you missed something—or if you’re just… stuck.

Kawailani shares what it looked like to trust God when there was no clear direction, no “next big thing,” and no plan to follow. Through raw stories, tender reflections, and a moment of unexpected wisdom from her 5-year-old, this episode reminds us:

Faith isn’t always a bold leap—it’s often found in the stillness.

If you’re in a season of waiting, wrestling, or wondering what comes next—this one’s for you.

📓 Reflection for this week:

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When the ending isn’t what you prayed for and the heartbreak feels heavy, peace might be the last thing you expect… and yet, somehow, it’s what God offers in the middle of the wreckage.

In this tender episode of Through the Fire, I’m sharing what it looked like to find peace after being released from Fire Academy—just weeks before graduation. The kind of peace that doesn’t come because everything worked out… but because God was there, holding me in the heartbreak.

If you're walking through a season that feels uncertain, painful, or unfinished—this one’s for you. Because even when the story breaks, God’s presence stays.

📓 Reflection for this week:

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Through the Fire – Part 5 | Dreams, Dirt & Grace

What do you do when you obey God, pour your heart into the journey, and the ending still doesn’t look like what you hoped for?

In this episode, I’m sharing the heartbreak of being released from Fire Academy just weeks before graduation—and the peace God gave me in the middle of it. This is a real look at unmet expectations, holy redirection, and the truth that even when the dream changes, God’s faithfulness does not.

If you’re grieving an outcome you didn’t choose, this one’s for you.

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