The chilling realization that she wanted me dead. Since I wrote this blog post, I have realized that her life insurance policy on me at the time was quite high. A few years later, her life insurance policy on me, through her workplace, was much, much lower than at the time I was depressed. This episode is also available as a blog post: https://dudeshesanarccom.wordpress.com/2021/05/18/example-post-2/