We said no more interruptions. We lied.

A month out from Greece, and we needed to stop before going back in. Not to recap — to take inventory. What actually changed. What we've already let slip. What's still working on us whether we want it to or not.

The second half starts next week. This was the exhale first.

We interrupt your regularly scheduled Greece content for something we didn't plan, didn't script, and almost didn't do — Travis fumbling the intro, both of us admitting we've never actually listened to our own podcast, and somewhere in the middle of all that, a real conversation about what it means to still be here.

This is a short one. An anniversary episode. What a miracle actually looks like from the inside — not the Instagram version. The triggers and the grief and the gratitude threaded through all of it. An old couple dancing in the street. Forgiving more than once. The daughter who only exists because we stayed.

Travis sends voice messages to people like it's the last time he'll talk to them. I'm still working on believing I'm well-loved. Both of those things are true at the same time.

His parting challenge might change your relationship if you let it. Greece resumes next week. This felt more important.

We found the audio. We almost didn't — and the re-record we attempted at home was, to put it kindly, a disaster for our marriage. But this? This is the real thing.

Part 4 from Greece is where Gabor Maté talks about hopelessness, the mind as a barrier, and what happens when you actually sit with your pain instead of pushing it away. Travis cries, which is brave. I hold a grudge against a TSA agent, which is something I'm apparently still holding on to.

And by the end, we're both walking away with the same invitation: fall madly in love with yourself. Easier said than done. Worth trying anyway.

This is the shortest episode we've ever recorded — and somehow the one that hit the hardest.

We weren't expecting it. The session wasn't even led by Gabor. It was a quiet meditation from someone we didn't see coming, and it took both of us somewhere we didn't plan to go.

You'll hear us crying through parts of this. Badly articulating things that meant everything. We left it in, because some things shouldn't be cleaned up before you hear them.

There's a line from earlier in the retreat that's still sitting with both of us — about the difference between feeling hopeless and being hopeless. We'd sit with that one for a minute if we were you.

Short episode. Long impact. Come find out why.

We promised you Greece. Here's part two.

This episode covers our first full session with Gabor Maté — four to five hours of material that started with mammals and eagles and somehow ended with both of us staring down the grief we didn't know we were carrying.

We talk about the difference between grief and grievance — and why that distinction might be the most important thing we took home from the entire retreat. 

We talk about addiction as a failure to grieve. About people pleasing as a way to avoid grief. About Travis tracing his wounding back further than he ever had before — not to a memory, but to before he had any. About the woman in the room who said she was wasting everyone's time, and what Gabor said back to her. About judgment, and what it always, always points back to.

And then Travis hits a wall. You'll hear it happen. We left it in because that's what real healing looks like sometimes — not a breakthrough, just a body saying enough for today.

One takeaway if you only take one: everything is about you. Not in the way a narcissist would hear it. In the way that sets you free.

Part three is coming. Until then, slow down enough to find the grief you've turned into a grievance.

We promised we'd take you to Greece. Here's episode one.

This is us, late at night, on our second Greek island, recording right after the first session of the One Sanctum retreat with Gabor Maté. The audio isn't perfect — the AC in our room won — but what came out of that first night was.

We talk about what it felt like to walk into a room of 120 people from all over the world and feel, within the first hour, like something in us had already begun to open. About the question Gabor kept returning to — not what is love, not how do you find it, but what is blocking it. How freedom and compassion get stopped at the door, and how most of us are the ones holding it closed without realizing it.

Travis gets emotional in ways that surprised him. Jenn almost raised her hand to speak to Gabor and couldn't get the words out through the tears. And somewhere in the middle of a conversation about scarves and group assignments and Greek dinner at 8:30pm, something real got said about safety, and love, and what it costs to let someone back in after they've broken you.

If you're not familiar with Gabor Maté's work — this is your invitation. And if you are, you already know why we went.

This is part one of a series. Come back next week for episode two.

After betrayal, shock, or life-changing news, it can feel like you need to make a massive decision immediately.

Leave.

In this solo episode, I’m talking about the best advice I received at the very beginning:

We talk about:

I also share how slowing down protected not only me, but my children, my healing, and ultimately my future.

If you’re in the middle of betrayal, grief, trauma, confusion, or any life transition that has your nervous system screaming for certainty, this episode is for you.

You do not need your five-year plan today.

In this episode, we’re talking about therapeutic disclosure, drip truth, betrayal trauma, and what happens when the truth finally comes to light inside a relationship.

This conversation is raw, emotional, and deeply personal because we’re revisiting some of the hardest moments of our marriage and recovery journey.

We talk honestly about:

We also talk about the emotional reality of betrayal trauma, the overwhelming need to know everything, and the difficult balance between honesty and information that can never be unheard.

If you’re in the middle of betrayal, addiction, disclosure, or trying to figure out whether healing is even possible, we hope this episode helps you feel less alone.

And if there’s one thing we hope you take away from this conversation, it’s this:

This one is different. No conversation, no husband, just me reading a deeply personal piece I wrote poolside in Egypt after my first solo trip since my accident.

I was in the Red Sea when my body told me something my mind hadn’t named yet. I’m sharing it here because I think your body might be trying to tell you something too.

This episode includes a journaling prompt and closes with a prayer. The full piece, complete prompt list, and audio version live on Substack: link in show notes.

Read on Substack

We sat down to figure out why we keep not doing this podcast. What happened instead was better.

In this episode we get into urgency versus consistency — why chasing urgency is just hitting yourself against a wall and thinking the wall will move, and what might actually unfold if you showed up instead. We talk about healing your younger self through the people right in front of you — what it looks like to pour love into a childhood memory by washing your toddler's sheets at midnight and meaning it. We get into being triggered by your kids not because of anything they're doing wrong, but because of the age you were when everything went wrong for you. We talk about not knowing how to receive love when your filter for what love looks like is broken. About recovery getting lonelier the higher you climb, and why that's not a sign you're failing. About afformations versus affirmations — why your brain responds to a question completely differently than a statement. And about havening, which we had both forgotten about until we needed it.

We also fight briefly about what to name you. Potties was proposed. Potties was rejected. We're still working on it.

This one started as an exploratory conversation and turned into something real. We think there's something in it for you — whether you're in recovery, in a marriage that's hard right now, or just tired of feeling like you're the only one who doesn't have it together.

You're not. We promise.