The Dawn of My Eternal Spiritual Body in the Water.
more siddha-deha diya, Nitai-pashe rakhe giya, ei dehera kare sarva-nasha
ishat vikashi punah, dekhaya nija rupa-guna, citta hari laya Nitai-pasha
Sri maudeshwari Yamuna in Nitya Ekachakra dham is my life and soul. She awards me my siddha deha, my spiritual form when I go into deep meditation and take bath, enter into maudeshwari Yamuna. As I am entering the divine waters of maudeshwari Yamuna, my feet are turning spiritual. I can see as I am entering, gradually the water is rising from my feet to my knees, thighs, waist, my stomach, chest, my neck and eventually my face. This is really funny, I feel like I am transforming, there is a metamorphosis going on, Completely different person. I am feeling that as my neck is going inside the water, I feel my breath, my divine breath in the spiritual form and I feel my voice is coming, my voice in my spiritual form is coming.
I have a female dasi form in the Ekachakra’s Nityalila. Ankle bells have come on my feet, I feel, I want to immerse my head inside the water fully so that no part of my mundane body remains and only my spiritual form emerges. I want, I am moving my both hands like swimming inside. When I am inside the water and I am staying inside the water in that divine dip, I am not coming out. I am like playing with both my hands with maudeshwari Yamuna’s divine water, and I feel my body has become completely, completely spiritual, Completely, completely. Now I have goose bumps, my hairs standing on end all over the body even in this material world. Imagine the spiritual form. This is the power of maudeshwari Yamuna.
Any object in the Nityalila, when we touch that object, they are like Paras-mani or Chinta-mani. When we touch that object, we become gold. Gold means not a statue but our spiritual form. We become transcendental, spiritual just like them. That is why Ekachakra dhyan is the most munificent, most benevolent, most magnanimous, most all forgiving, most offense less, most liberal practice for Harinam ruci because instantly when we meditate on Ekachakra’s associates whether they are in Shanta-rasa, Dasya-rasa, Sakhya-rasa, Vatsalya-rasa or Madhurya-rasa. They have brought us our spiritual form. Go through the door which is open please. Go to Golok Vrindavan, we want to attain Vrindavan, Vraja of Radha Krishna.
We want to attain Navadvipa of Gaura-sundar but we go through the door which is always open that is Ekachakra. Ekachakra is the door into. Shrila Bhakti Siddhanta Saraswati Thakura Prabhupada said that in ‘Chaitanya Bhagavat’ commentary. He said, “Unless you enter into the Maha-audarya, through the Maha-audarya partition prakoshta of Goloka Vrindavan, you cannot enter the Madhurya prakoshta of Vraja lila of Radha-Krishna that is why it is said, “heno Nityananda bine bhai, radha-krishna paite nai”. This one line I keep on explaining whole my life but still I find new meanings for this. So, I am just offending the water in the Yamuna in my spiritual form. Now I have already got my spiritual form, I have already got it and I feel immersed in it.
Oh! I feel like crying, I won’t cry, I won’t cry, I won’t cry. This microphone won’t take my crying unfortunately. So, I can feel that my voice is coming from my spiritual form. I don’t know what’s happening. Yeah! I just want to remain inside the water. I remember even in this life when I was in Radha kund, I used to take bath on Bagula Ashtami time and off course Radha kunda and Vraja there are consideration of offenses but still because I was Nitai Bhakta, I could feel, I would tell our devotees let close our nose and dive into the water and let’s see who stays longer because I felt the tinkling, the kindling of my spiritual form inside the water but in Ekachakra now I can reside there manasikally, mentally forever, forever. I am still inside the water; all my head is inside.
I don’t know how I am able to control my breadth for so long, but my spiritual form is developing. It has already fully bloomed, developed. Wow! I wish it stays this way. Yeah! I can feel the voices of the other dasis. Wow! I mean the once you get spiritual ears only then you can hear your voices. I feel that my voice is also has become like that. Wow! Some may be criticise me for recording such intimate videos, but it is Ekachakra my dear brothers and sisters. Even if you ridicule me, criticise me as being Shajiya, Ekachakra Dham is Sahaja. I am not revealing, and I am not speaking about my form in Vraja Dham. Ekachakra is the most accessible. Prabhupada said those who chant even ‘Nitai Gaura Radhe Shyam’ which is not a bonafide mantra but still they are making rapid symptoms of love only because the Nitai is there.
So, Nitai is so liberal, Ekachakra is so liberal. Even if you think I am a Sahajiya still this is real love because that’s what Prabhupada said, “even Sahajiyas experience real love”. Sahaja, sahaja, “Ekachakra Dhyan Sahaja ati Sarala ati sahaja tahara phal vitati”. ‘Ekachakra boliya krandana kare Nitai darshana paye satva re’ Wow! If one cries in meditation of Ekachakra calling out Ekachakra’s name then he will get Nitai darshan very, very quickly in this very life. Not very life, in a few weeks or few months as our Dhyayaks are experiencing on their blogs exist. In a few weeks they have already entered Ekachakra. Nitya Ekachakra has become a more bigger reality than even this world, this material world.
‘krandana kare’ So, I am still in the water, I feel my spiritual form, I feel my spiritual body. I can feel every part of my spiritual body as I touch, I can feel my bangles jingling inside the water, my ankle bells, my ornaments on my body, my divine saree. In my clothes I can feel Wow! I just can nod a little bit outside the water, and I could see my form, I could see. Wow! Wow! Wow! This has got to be the most ultimate audio I have ever recorded. With Ekachakra everyday you exceed your limits. Oh! I am just slowly coming out of the water. Completely transformed to my spiritual form. Wow this recording itself is Dhyan you know, Ekachakra Dhyan. I would love if I can record 24/7. It is my practice. I can still give something to this world.
Wow! Wow! Wow! I am meditating on my form and there is some music going on in the background which I can’t stop unfortunately but it feels like a festival. I am playing now with the water of Yamuna in my spiritual form, I feel like crying. I am going over to the dasis entering the water and grasping their feet and crying, now I am crying holding the feet of the other dasis and thanking Maudeshwari Yamuna eternally. Narada muni also got his form when he was dunked into the Narada kunda by Vrinda devi and Brahma also got his form in Brahma kunda in Vrindavana, Shiva, everybody, and Ekachakra Yamuna is so, so, so, so merciful. The dasis are telling me welcome, welcome navadasi, you are a new dasi, welcome! welcome! I can smell now.
I can smell the fragrance of the pollen, the flowers in the Yamuna water, I can smell the fragrance of the other dasis, I can smell my own fragrance overwhelming. This is the beauty of Ekachakra and Nitai. Not only they give darshan, but they reveal their own form that’s Nitai’s and Krishnadas kaviraj as Kasturi manjari to Radha kunda and Ragunath das as Rati manjari and Jiva Goswami as Vilas manjari. So, Nitai, Ekachakra reveal the form they reveal, they reveal, they reveal. I am really scared if this audio will ever be captured, I am not sure but it’s transcendental, it’s transcendental. Slowly I am playing in the waters, in Yamuna. I feel like a very big burden has lifted over me. The burden of infinite, infinite lifetimes.
The burden and dream have ended, most miserable dream has ended and now my real life has started in the service of Sri Vasudha, Sri Jahnavi and Sri Nitai and Nitya Ekachakra due to the causeless mercy of Sri Maudeshwari Yamuna in Sri Ekachakra Dham. I offer my repeated dandavats, I am falling on the banks of the Yamuna in the very, very soft golden sand. I am rolling there, crying with tears. My tears are forming a pond and Wow! Wow! I am offering gratefulness to the Yamuna. I cannot thank her enough, I cannot thank Ekachakra enough. At the moment I realised my form there, I immediately, I can see my form assisting Ananga manjari in Radha kunda in Vraja.
“yatha yatha gaura-padaravinde vindeta bhaktim krta punya rasih tatha tathot sarpati hrdy-akasmat radha padambhoja sudhambhu-rasih”
You don’t even have to aspire for it. You will get it, your form in the vraja lila simply by Ekachakra Dhyan, one pointed Ekachakra Dhyan for Harinam Ruci. You can do this Dhyan even while chanting Harinam. You chant Harinam and you meditate on Ekachakra Dham. Dandavat Pranams to all the listeners! You have delivered my soul today!
