I really do not have any context of this episode but I feel like it’s worth posting, I have been questioning so many aspects of my personality and my life and to be honest I feel gated! This might just be my shortest episode yet but to me , it’s more about my identity, my attributes and my desires . Who really am I and what am I really doing with my life

Also this marks my first Self Jornal episodes I hope that you enjoy them as much as I will!

Kind Regards

Ruel

Hey , soo….I’m basically back , took a VERY long hiatus. Today’s episode is based off an earlier interaction with one of my work colleague . They made me question if I was being genuine about my gratitude or if I just basing it off my mental articulation. Throughout this episode, I narrated about my work experience at my main job as compared to my occasional job and the process that I went throughout to get employed , I surprisingly found out that my actions typically don’t reflect my mental subjections and that kinda paved the way of the episode’s name, that even though I’m internally grateful , my actions are more aligned with complaints and maybe that’s the reason why I had so many chances to upgrade to a better job or situation but the universe kept stopping and blocking me because that’s the lesson it wanted to teach me ! For My Actions To Match my Gratitude! Generally, living in a way that my actions consistently proves my thankfulness through deeds!

Hey, It’s Kulture.

I’ve never had an episode where I’ve tried so openly to articulate what I deeply feel. I didn’t even know that’s what I was going to do when I hit record, but it turned into something real — and honestly, I had a lot of fun recording it. In this episode, I talk about giving it your all in any type of relationship, testing friendships by noticing who’s genuinely proud of your achievements, and looking at everything through a five-year timeline to figure out what truly matters. These are ideologies I’ve recently started living by, and they’ve brought me a lot more peace. Hopefully, they’ll give you something to reflect on too.

In this episode, I reflect on love in all its forms—romantic, platonic, and everything in between—and how human misbehavior has corroded its core. This is not a story about heartbreak alone. It’s about the slow unraveling of friendships, the betrayal of emotional intimacy, the ghosting of care, and the false comfort of surface-level connections.

I call it my loving requiem,a symbolic farewell to the kind of love that demanded too much and gave too little. Through soft monologues and raw introspection, I open the emotional body of love and examine the wounds left behind.This is not bitterness. This is a release. A cleansing. A decision to choose love with more intention, and to grieve the ways it’s been misused.

In this episode, I’m talking about something that’s been sitting heavy on my heart — the way we start shaping our personalities based on how people have treated us. From past relationships to friendships, I’ve seen how pain tries to rewrite who I am. I open up about my ex, my platonic relationships, and how I’ve learned to stop confusing survival mode with identity. This episode is your reminder that you are not your trauma, your triggers, or the way others failed to love you. You’re allowed to reclaim your softness, your joy, and the version of you that never needed to be hardened just to be safe

I’ve generally composed my first episode as a yap session dedicated to what others say or do to you is more often a reflection of them—not a definition of you and and it sometimes pains me how much we personally take their words—how we let their projections settle into our skin like truth. This episode is a soft space, a little truth corner, where we remind ourselves that not everything sent our way deserves to be received. Sometimes, their words are just mirrors of their own unhealed wounds. Yeah I hope yall enjoy it as indirect as it is as possible.

Bye