The new normal begins, ground zero. Wrestling with shame and reflecting on my behavior. Heading back to Ohio to stay with Dad for a bit.

Divorce does something to your mind and heart, it breaks them both. You walk around confused and nostalgic, missing what was, even if it wasn't serving you or it was a toxic situation. You miss your children, the stability, the rhythm, the safeness and comfort. Finding love again is the last thing on your mind. You want to repair what is shattered and broken. Then suddenly someone new enters your life and you get a glimmer of hope that love is possible, and your heartbreak may eventually be restored with a soul satisfying partner that is truly a best friend.

This podcast, at least the first season, will be about my divorce. I was married for 20 years, with my person for 22 years, whom I met in high school many moons ago. Then, abruptly, things fell apart, I was homeless, in rehab, learning to live alone for the first time in my life, and I was broke financially, and broken-hearted. I was alone, erased, replaced, and discarded. It hurt. I'm ok now, but I wanted to document this process because it seems like marriage, for the most part, is not working anymore for a lot of people. I'd like to know why. This will be a warts and all type of examination. Authentic and raw. It's seems to be the only way I can get through the days anymore. I hope this helps someone and maybe alleviates the pain and confusion of losing your person.