Will I be able to do this?!

Today I talk about taking a break from service, wanting to get into product and noticing the limits I still have while exploring what is possible. I'm leaning towards writing articles, product recommendations and working on my cookbook. 

Today's episode is about a breakthrough I'm having. I am noticing that the "break" I'm trying to take at the end of the day involving weed, sometimes alcohol, YouTube videos and snacks is really just setting me up for chaos the next day. I don't feel great, the house is a mess and I just start the cycle all over again to want another "break" again. Instead of denouncing this as just bad, I try to look at what it's giving me. The insight I found is that it is protecting me from making progress, or having the time and space to make progress on the big questions like who I am, what my purpose is and how I want to spend my life. 

This morning I attended another day of Weaving Well Through Illness, a series put on by my teacher Quynn Red Mountain for a small group of us that are living with different, often chronic, health conditions. In today's circle we talked about grief and resentment as well as loss, disappointment and sadness associated with our experiences. I felt inspired to share with you a time where I experienced all of this as a way to help me continue to grieve and process through these challenging emotions. 

If you'd like to learn more about Web of Life Animist Church and Quynn Red Mountain's ministry you can visit weboflifeanimists.com.  

Today's episode is mostly an overview of where I am at, my current goals and mindset and well as a bit of backstory on how I got here. A longer episode than usual, I just really wanted to voice some of the changes I am experiencing in order to feel a bit more grounded in my decisions. 

Today I had the chance to try hypnotherapy for the first time. My facilitator was my new friend Kyle Ross and he led me through a deep dive into my subconscious where I relearned old lessons from a new perspective. Our goal was to explore what is holding me back from being my full self, speaking my mind and being the leader I truly want to be. In all that I also got the strong truth that my inner authentic self REALLY REALLY wants to spend more time outside doing magic. According to my 4 year old self magic in the woods is the "best thing ever" and as a free and well resourced adult I should be doing it all the time. This fits very nicely into me being given the opportunity to lead the Greater Seattle Witches Group just yesterday. I think my goals to be a community leader and a magical person are coming together in ways I don't think I could have possibly imagined, but totally love. Happy full moon everyone, magic is in the air!

To connect with Kyle for Hypnotherapy and NLP sessions visit www.yourownuniverse.co.uk

10 years ago my body shut down for the first time. 4 years later it would shut down again leaving me disabled, but this time I really had no idea what was going on or what to do about it. I thought I could just keep pushing through. This is that story.

TW - I talk a bit about mental illness and disordered eating in this episode.

Just a down day.

Hello Humans! This episode is kind of all over the place, but it helped me process some of what I am thinking on this new moon. I'm kind of in transition between getting really excited about new ventures and connections while also being nervous about what will happen with old connections, mainly my family. I just want to stay motivated and feel good but there is still plenty of shadow to tend. 

Hello Humans! Rebecca here again. I am working on a "Starting Shadow Work" 4-week course and part of the curriculum will be finding a journaling option that works best for you. I haven't recorded an episode of Exposing Isolation for many months, but I always found them cathartic and would encourage others to give diary podcasting a try too if they are so inclined. I am going to try and do these more often again for my own mental health and to let my audience get to know me a little better. Thank you for listening. 

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