Kukangaki ukuba uNkulunkulu angithethelele angibuyisele kuye futhi? NginguMkhrestu, kodwa uhambo lwami neNkosi lungugqamincishi. Kukaningi ngiyidela iNkosi, okuthi ngingahuhluzeka phansi ngobuso bese ngibona iphutha lesinqumo sami. Kuyinhlalayenza lokhu empilweni yami. Ekuqaleni angicabanganga kabanzi ngakho, kodwa manje sekuyangikhathaza: ngakube sengiseqile isikali sentethelelo ekalelwe mina? Ngabe sengimqede ukubekezela uNkulunkulu? Ngakube yinto le okumele ngikhathazeke ngayo?

Ngingabhekana kanjani nobuhlungu be divosi ngicabe indlela entsha yezingane zami name siqu? Ngiyavuma ukuthi ngakhetha kabi. Esibi kunazo zonke ukuthi ngaqhela emndenini wami ngesikhathi kushuba emshadweni wami sengehlulwa ukubhekana nakho.Ngibona manje ukuthi ukuqhela kwami akulethanga kimi kuphela ubuhlungu, kodwa nasezinganeni zami. Osekwenzekile kwenzekile, futhi akukho osekungaguqula ubuhlungu engabudala.Ngizizwa nginecala elikhulu! Ngiphendukele kukuphi manje?

Njengomuntu osohambweni lokusinda kwi addiction ,ngingamthola kanjani ozohamba nami kumagxathi anzima okuqala ohambweni lokulapheka? Ninazo iziluleko ekukhetheni umsizi othembekile nokuthi lobobudlelwane bubukeke kanjani ? Ngothokoza kakhulu kweningakuphakamisa ngalesimo.

Kungani kumele ukuba ‘ngithobele’ uhulumeni engikholwa uhamba lugugube? Ngiyalithanda izwe lakithi futhi ngithanda ukuzibandakanya nombusazwe wezwe wakithi, kodwa ngiyadideka okushiwo yibhayibheli ngalesihloko.Kodwa kwenzeka kanjani ukuthi uPhawuli atshele aMaKhrestu ukuba athobele [Kwabase Roma 13 : 1-7] nxashana kusicacele kahle ukuthi ohulumeni bomhlaba bonakele abanabulungiswa? UmKhrestu enze njani uma ebona ukuthi uhulumeni wakhe awunabuNkulunkulu?

Ngakube ucansi emshadweni luyanelisa ngempela? Ngisemshadweni onzima, isilonda esikhona phakathi kukankosikazi wami name- wudaba lwenkonzo. Ngizizwa ngincintshiwe. Kwesinye iskhathi ngize ngibe nezilingo zokufisa izidingo zami zigcwaliseke ngaphandle. Ngifunde umbhalo othi abantu abasemshadweni yibo abaneliseke kakhulu ngenkonzo yekamero emhlabeni –akwenzeki nakoyedwa ukweneliseka kothandana nabantu abaningi. Ngithola kunzima kimi ukukholwa yilokho! Angifuni ukungethembeki kumkami, nokho futhi angeke ngiyiphikise imizwa yami, kumbe ngivalele imizwa yami yenkonzo.

muphi umehluko phakathi kwe OCD ne OCPD ? Ngididwa yilamagama, okwenza kube nzima ukuthola usizo lokusiza uwakwami, osesimweni [ngokubona kwami] okhombisa ukuba sehabeni ukwenza izinto ngengqondo yakhe.Ningangipha umehluko?

Ikhona indlela enginganqoba ngayo umzabalazo wami weminyaka ngokuhuhekela ebulilini bunye nobami? Sengizamile ukulwa,kodwa kubukeka kwehlulekeka ngigcina ngenze ngokuzenzakaleka ngokwalemizwa. Ngenzenjani?

imuphi umehluko phakathi kwe OCD ne OCPD ? Ngididwa yilamagama ,okwenza kube nzima ukuthola usizo lokusiza uwakwami , osesimweni [ngokubona kwami] okhombisa ukuba sehabeni ukwenza izinto ngengqondo yakhe.Ningangipha umehluko?

Njengomzali ngingabhekana kanjani nengane yami ,ngezikhathi la khona kunobududu bobuqhuqhu bezibhamu,izimbubhane zemvelo, nezinye izimo ezihlasimulisayo ezingokuthatheka kwempilo ?Ngabe kumele ngenze okuseqophelweni ukubasitha kulololwazi-okuyinto engelula neze ngokwezindaba ezingena zilekanyana kwezokusakaza kulezinsuku? Kumbe ngizame ukukhulama nabo ngakho ?

Kanti ibhayibheli alibuki yini umshado njengeqophelo eliphezulu lesibili ? Njengosemdala engashadile,angizwa neze kahle uma ngibona amakholwa egcizelela kangaka ubumqoka bomshado.Utadisho lwami lomlando lungiholela ekukholweni ukuthi ukuba wedwa kwakuvelele phambilini kunamanje.Izingcindezelo zokubuka kwesiko lamanje lisivala amehlo ukugqqama kwesitatimende sikaPhawuli : “Ngifisa sengathi bonke abantu benganjengami” [ 1KwabaseKhorinte 7: 7] .Ngikholwa ngumunxa lo okumele siwuthathe serious.NgokukaPhawuli ukungashadi kuyiqophelo eledlula wonke .Niyavuma?