What do you do when the man who gave you life also gave you your first wound?

In this episode of Faith AF, Sashauni Aaeliyae shares a raw, unfiltered reflection on the deep ache of father wounds—and how they shape the way we see men, trust God, and define love. From settling for affection that looked like attention, to searching for God in broken relationships, she unpacks the silent grief of growing up without a present, protective father—and the journey of letting God reparent the parts abandonment left behind.

This isn’t just about missing a dad. It’s about rebuilding a foundation you never got. It’s about naming the pain, unlearning survival, and receiving the love you didn’t know how to ask for.

If you’ve ever tried to earn love just to feel safe, if you’ve called God Father but still kept your distance—this one’s for you.

🎧 Listen now on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or Amazon Music. And grab the Soul Notes Season 2 Companion Guide on Gumroad for deeper healing.

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They hurt me.

But I refused to become them.

This episode is for anyone who’s ever had to unlearn the armor they picked up in survival. When softness feels unsafe, control feels like protection, and power feels like the only antidote to pain—how do you heal without hardening?

We’re talking about what it means to walk away from the wounds that shaped you without letting them define you. Not to be the bigger person—but the realer one. The one who chooses healing over hiding. Peace over performance. Wholeness over retaliation.

Let’s talk cycles. Let’s talk softness. Let’s talk spiritual strength.

Because what hurt you doesn’t get to have the final word—unless you let it.

💿 Listen now on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, or Amazon Music.

📓 Grab the Soul Notes Companion Guide on Gumroad to reflect deeper.

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What happens when love wasn’t absent… just insufficient?

This episode of Faith AF is for the ones who were told, “They did their best”—but still felt the sting of what was missing. For the ones learning how to hold grief and grace in the same breath. For the ones trying to forgive people who didn’t abandon them—but still left them aching.

We’re unpacking what it means to release resentment without rewriting reality. To name the pain that came from people who were present—but not protective. Who offered love that was real, but not restorative.

If you’ve ever felt guilty for feeling hurt by someone who meant well, or struggled to heal without hardening—this episode will meet you where it still aches.

This isn’t about blaming. It’s about becoming.

Because healing doesn’t always start with hate.

Sometimes it starts with the quiet truth:

What they gave just wasn’t enough.

Let’s talk about it.

Are you falling for someone… or just falling into a cycle?

This episode of Faith AF is for the ones who prayed for a sign—and now don’t know if it’s confirmation or confusion. For the ones who can’t tell if the connection is divine or just familiar. And for the ones who’ve mistaken chemistry for clarity, or soul ties for purpose.

We’re getting honest about lust that hides as longing, patterns that wear halos, and trauma that calls itself love. Because sometimes it’s not God—it’s just our wounds, our hormones, and our hopes having a conversation.

If you’ve ever caught yourself calling fear faith, or staying in something chaotic because “it feels deep”—this episode is for you.

Let’s talk projection, emotional confusion, and the kind of discernment that saves your peace before the heartbreak.

Season 2 is here—and we’re not just getting summer ready, we’re getting soul ready.

In this episode, we’re reclaiming the fullness of who God made us to be: mind, body, and spirit. Because somewhere along the way, many of us were taught that our minds were too much, our bodies were too messy, and our spirits were the only part worth bringing to God. But He didn’t create us in fragments. He created us in His image—a sacred trinity within a single temple.

Let’s talk about what happens when we silence one part of ourselves in the name of faith, and what it looks like to come back into holy alignment. Because healing doesn’t just happen in your spirit—it starts in your thoughts, your flesh, your breath, your being.

And if you haven’t grabbed the Season 2 companion guide, you’re not too late. Just search Faith AF Podcast on Gumroad to download Soul Notes: Season 2 Faith AF Companion Guide and go deeper each week.

In the Faith Always First Season 1 finale, we closes out the season with a vulnerable, honest, and necessary conversation: Why does religion—something meant to unite us in love—so often become the very thing that divides us?

From family fallout to political polarization, doctrinal disagreements to denominational splits, Sashauni explores how faith has been both a lifeline and a weapon. She unpacks why religion sometimes builds walls instead of bridges and challenges us to imagine a world where people of different beliefs can coexist with compassion and conviction.

This episode reflects on:

• ​The real reasons religion divides families, communities, and nations.
• ​Whether recognizing another faith compromises your own.
• ​The cost of religious control vs. the call to radical love.
• ​How we can embody Christ’s teachings with humility and grace.
• ​And what this means as we wrap an unfiltered, faith-filled Season 1.

This final episode isn’t just a reflection—it’s a challenge: to lead with love, listen deeply, and rebuild a faith culture that honors God by honoring people.

Whether you’ve been here since day one or just pressed play, this is one episode you don’t want to miss.

Is homosexuality a sin? It’s a question that has divided churches, shaped cultural narratives, and left many LGBTQ individuals feeling like they must choose between their faith and their identity. But are we interpreting scripture correctly, or have cultural biases shaped our understanding?

In this continuation of our last episode, we’re is diving deeper into the scriptures most often cited in this debate—Leviticus, Romans, Corinthians, and more—to ask:

• What do these verses actually say in their historical and linguistic context?

• Are we applying them consistently, or have we elevated certain sins over others?

• And most importantly, how do we move forward with both truth and love?

This isn’t about easy answers—it’s about honest questions. Let’s wrestle with the text, challenge the assumptions, and make space for real conversations that lead to deeper faith.

Join the discussion using #FaithAlwaysFirst.

For centuries, the church has shaped how we think about sex, desire, and morality—but has it done so through wisdom and grace, or fear and shame? And nowhere is this more evident than in the way Christianity has historically treated the LGBTQ+ community.

In this episode of Faith AF, we’re unpacking the deep, often painful relationship between faith, sexuality, and identity. Why has the church elevated sexual struggles above other sins? Are we interpreting scripture correctly, or have cultural biases shaped our understanding? Most importantly, how can we move beyond shame and into a deeper, more honest relationship with God?

It’s time to ask the hard questions. Let’s challenge the narratives, confront the stigma, and create space for real conversations—rooted in love, truth, and fearless faith.

Join the discussion using #FaithAF

In today’s world, women’s sexuality is more openly embraced than ever—but is this progress, or are we reacting to deeper wounds? More women are approaching sex without attachment, mirroring how men have traditionally been expected to engage with it. But is this truly empowerment, or are we shielding ourselves from hurt?

In this episode of Faith AF, we’re diving into the shifting dynamics of sex, love, and relationships. Are we too afraid to commit? Have we prioritized pleasure over emotional connection? And most importantly—can we rebuild a foundation of love, honor, and respect in our relationships?

Join the conversation and share your thoughts using #NoStringsAttached. Let’s get fearless, fun, and faith-first as we unpack the truth about love, sex, and the state of modern relationships.

For generations, religion has dictated the terms of sexuality—especially for women. Be pure. Stay untouched. Silence your desires. But what happens when those teachings leave us unprepared for intimacy? What happens when shame overshadows pleasure?

In this episode of Faith AF, I’m breaking the silence. From growing up in purity culture to navigating marriage, divorce, and my own ‘vagina awakening,’ I’ll unpack how religious conditioning shaped my views on sex, desire, and self-worth—and how I began to reclaim my body and my pleasure.

We’ll tackle:

🔥 The double standards that let men explore while forcing women to repress

🔥 The deep-seated shame that keeps so many of us disconnected from our own bodies

🔥 The question no one dares to ask: Can faith and sexuality actually coexist?

It’s time to challenge the narratives, confront the shame, and redefine what it means to be both sacred and sensual.

Join the conversation and share your thoughts using #SacredAndSensual.

Are you ready to break free? Let’s get into it.