Make next 18 months beautiful living in London to take a call. Explore a few inner work groups, and see which ones stick/deepen. Naturally. Follow felt sense. Open to dating. This is the new reality.

Decisions on path: leaving mindfulness, following heart. Soulmaking, Dao, Ways of looking, and some ridhwan

Trust is prerequisite to connection. You cannot trust bureaucracies. At all. You have to understand and play with them. They are systems, so you don’t need to feel empathy to them, they don’t feel any empathy to you.

Your body tells you when the situation is whole. It seeks to reduce uncertainty that comes as a pinch in ego if you don’t keep a spacious mind; and if you operate from awareness - you can make better decisions. Reality, and great teachers reflect reality so you can see your personal distorting plays on it

A gift from the wood element - can we receive it fully

Next 15 years: 1 good year. So much for ego structure. The existential angst has started unfolding into mystic openness, the anger beginning to transform into mastery via play. And now I am also finding connecting, and devoting to things naturally transform panic into care.

Harmonising the 3 streams. Deepening across fear/awe via curiosity. Practicing more on Anger/Mastery via play. Cleaning up/freely flowing the care/panic via connecting. Once we allow these 3 to flow in flywheel, we introduce Eros to charge the harmonisation and have the things going!

Practicing with ‘Open to Emergence’. Following my unfolding. Rather than freedom of accumulating enough money to avoid working and consume. I like to create, AI consumption is not exciting anyway.

Living from should - is living from super ego. Living from needs (externally seeking safety, love, belonging) - is living from ego. Eventually we live from image/soul, and eventually spontaneously arising source

We need to have mastery across world of forms for sustenance and deepening of practice. Mastering residing stillness; and then transitioning, allows a whole integration. I feel comfortable with the overall map of inner work, now it’s time to practice. And deepen. Cultivate, harmonise, integrate.