Field Notes from The Proving

After completing two marathons in 2025 and setting a new personal record of 3:27 at the Marine Corps Marathon, I had every reason to celebrate. I had accomplished my goals, transformed my life, and proven to myself what I was capable of.

But November brought an unexpected challenge.

A painful knee injury left me unable to run, questioning my body, my confidence, and the very obsession that had carried me to the finish line.

One year earlier, I was searching for change. Now, I was living inside that change, confronting the cost of my own ambition.

In Episode 43, I explore the fine line between discipline and obsession, the battles we willingly choose, and the powerful realization that asking for help isn't weakness. It's growth.

Because becoming someone better doesn't mean abandoning who you were. Sometimes it means learning how to carry those same pieces differently.

The journey changes you. But what you learn about yourself along the way is what makes you THE PROVEN.

ONLY THE PROVEN.

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What happens when you’ve done everything you can—and you still don’t know if your body will make it to the finish?

After months of training, injuries, physical therapy, missed long runs, and a knee that refused to cooperate, Chris arrived at the 2025 Marine Corps Marathon carrying more doubt than confidence.

The goal had changed.

Forget the perfect race.

Forget the perfect time.

Just finish.

From a freezing 5 A.M. walk to the starting line, to crying during the National Anthem, running through the deeply emotional Blue Mile, and seeing his husband Louis and best friend Denise chasing him around Washington, D.C. to cheer him on, the race became about something much bigger than running.

Then, at mile 20, the knee started throbbing.

Six miles remained.

And Chris had a choice.

He kept going.

He finished in 3:27—shaving 14 minutes off his previous 3:41 marathon—and still crossed the finish line wondering what might have been possible with a healthy knee.

Because sometimes success doesn't feel exactly the way you imagined it would.

Sometimes you're proud and disappointed.

Grateful and hungry.

Celebrating how far you've come while still wondering how much further you could have gone.

This episode is about learning to accept the race you have instead of mourning the race you wanted.

Whether you're fighting through injury, addiction, grief, failure, uncertainty, a career setback, a broken relationship, or simply a season of life that hasn't gone according to plan, the question eventually becomes the same:

Will you keep going anyway?

You don't need perfect circumstances.

You don't need certainty.

Sometimes you don't even need confidence.

You just need to take the next step.

The work continues.

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There comes a point in every difficult season where you've done everything you know how to do—and you still don't know if it's enough.

Going into October, the Marine Corps Marathon was only weeks away. The training was done. The fitness was there. But after months of injury, uncertainty, physical therapy, and constantly questioning my own body, something much harder had started to disappear: trust in myself.

One 20-mile run made me feel invincible.

One bad run a week later made me question everything.

That's helplessness.

And it isn't unique to running.

It's the place people find themselves in during recovery, after heartbreak, after service, after loss, after failure, or during any season where effort can no longer guarantee the outcome.

This episode isn't about whether my knee was ready for 26.2 miles.

It's about what happens when certainty disappears—and you have to move anyway.

Because reconstruction doesn't begin when confidence returns.

Reconstruction begins when confidence is gone, and you move anyway.

The work continues.

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By the end of September, my body was capable of running 20 miles. Twenty-two miles. Maybe even the full 26.2.

But injury does something more dangerous than cause pain.

It creates doubt.

You start thinking injured. Moving injured. Changing your stride, your breathing, your technique—making tiny adjustments to protect yourself until those tiny adjustments begin changing everything.

In Episode 40 of Field Notes from The Proving, I talk about what it feels like to be physically capable but mentally unsure. To feel helpless only weeks away from the biggest goal of your year. And to keep going anyway.

Because this isn't really an episode about running.

It's about what happens when something in your life makes you question whether you're capable anymore—and the role grit, community, asking for help, and perseverance play when confidence disappears.

Sometimes you don't need to know how the story ends.

You just need enough belief to take the next step.

Because you never know when you're one second away from the answer you needed.

The work continues.

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I was one month away from the Marine Corps Marathon.

The fitness was there. The work was almost done. I should have been standing at the top of the mountain feeling unstoppable.

Instead, I felt like I was about to fall off.

September was 90 miles of fear, pain, and doubt. A 17-mile run. A 19-mile run. A brutal 22-miler where my knee started giving out underneath me.

For my entire life, I had one answer whenever something got difficult:

Work harder.

But what happens when working harder is the thing breaking you?

Episode 39 of Field Notes from The Proving is about reaching the mountaintop, seeing the flag right in front of you, and wondering if your body is going to give out before you can capture it.

This is The Breaking Point.

The work continues.

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After Disney, Mystic, Loudoun County, and a 1:32 breakthrough at Napa, confidence wasn’t building anymore. It was exploding.

Running had become more than something I did. It was becoming proof of who I could be.

With the Marine Corps Marathon now on the calendar, August became about building again: more miles, longer runs, physical therapy, recovery, speed, and an obsession with finding the next version of myself.

But underneath all that progress, something else was happening.

My knee hurt. My hamstring hurt. My calf hurt. My Achilles hurt. My heel hurt. Runs were getting cut short. My body was sending signals I wasn’t ready to hear.

Because every lesson I had learned so far told me the same thing:

Work harder, and you'll get better.

For years, I thought I was running toward goals.

I was beginning to realize I was actually running toward myself.

The good. The bad. And sometimes the ugly.

This is The New Obsession.

The work continues.

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Months of physical therapy. A knee that had nearly derailed everything. A brutal race through the hills of Loudoun County. And one goal I couldn't stop thinking about:

1:30–1:35.

Napa to Sonoma was supposed to be the test.

But Napa meant so much more than a race.

It's where I got engaged. It's one of my husband and my favorite places in the world. And this time, we got to share it with friends who had never experienced it before—wineries, incredible meals, ridiculous laughs, and memories we'll have forever.

Then came race morning.

13.1 miles through the fog, vineyards, and relentless rolling hills of wine country.

I crossed the finish line in 1:31:54 — 35th overall.

My final full mile: 6:18.

After everything that happened with my knee, every PT session, every ice session, every extra mile, every doubt and every fucking hill...

it paid off.

I looked at that clock and had one thought:

I'm in the club.

This is Field Notes from The Proving.

The work continues.

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If May was the comeback, June was the warrior.

After Loudoun County, I became obsessed with one thing: getting ready for Napa. More miles. More speed. More PT. Better recovery. Better shoes. Better nutrition. Better data. Whatever it took.

But the harder I pushed, the more my knee started fighting back.

Then, on June 28th, everything changed.

On a random training run through my neighborhood, I ran 13.14 miles in 1:33:50—breaking my 5K, 5-mile, 10K, 10-mile, and half-marathon PRs in a single run.

No race. No crowd. No medal.

Just proof.

For months, I had been trying to become the runner I was before the injury.

That morning, I realized I had become someone better.

May was the comeback.

June was the warrior.

July would be the proof.

The competitor had arrived.

And the work continues.

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I thought I had running figured out.

Shamrock proved I could run a marathon. Disney proved I could run through the fear of injury. Mystic proved I could still race a half.

Then I showed up in Virginia wine country with a little too much confidence.

The Loudoun County Half Marathon wasn't asking whether I could run 13.1 miles. It was asking whether I could survive 13.1 miles of relentless rolling hills.

Every downhill became an uphill on the way back. By mile 11, my legs were shot. For the first time in a race, I didn't look at the runners ahead of me and think, "I want to beat them."

I thought, "I want to BE them so I can be done with this."

I finished in 1:43:11 — and learned something much more important than what was on the clock.

Confidence is earned.

But the second confidence becomes arrogance, life has a funny way of putting a hill in front of you.

This is Field Notes from The Proving.

The work continues.

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Denise was nervous. I was cool as a cucumber.

Mystic was her first-ever race—and the first time I got to watch someone I love step into the world of running that had completely changed my life.

She took on the 10K. I took on the half. We started together, eventually went our separate ways, and chased two completely different finish lines.

For me, 1:40:11 wasn't exactly the time I wanted.

But somehow, that didn't matter nearly as much as I thought it would.

Because this race wasn't really about my time.

It was about friendship, sharing the journey, and realizing that The Proving was starting to become bigger than just me.

The work continues.

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