This is the audio archive of a documentary practice built around the question: when do you feel most like yourself?

Every episode is one of two things:

A Spoken Record — where founder and documentary photographer Lindsey Lerner sits with someone for up to three hours, then tells their story in her own voice. Not an interview. Not a transcript. A distillation — the work beneath the work, documented. Every Spoken Record ends with a three-step practice you can carry into your own life.

Or a Field Dispatch — observations from inside the practice. Patterns surfacing across hundreds of hours of conversation with people doing remarkable work in rooms nobody else was watching.

Every Spoken Record lives in full on Substack as a complete Field Note — portrait, audio, and a short piece of writing to put you in the right headspace before you listen.

The world keeps what you made. Field Notes keeps who you are.

Start with the origin episode. Then go wherever you're drawn.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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Tawny didn’t chase virality or water down her voice. She built a body of work — with clarity, integrity, and sticky notes on every surface.

If you’re building slow right now — this one’s for you.

If you’re unlearning urgency.If you’re trying to find your way back to something that used to feel easy.This story is a permission slip to take your time.

The internet rewards speed.But most of the people I admire build slowly.

Their clarity didn’t come from going viral.It came from coming back to the same ritual, the same practice, the same voice, until it had nowhere left to hide.

Tawny Lara has been doing that for years.

And not just on the page.

She’s built a life that holds the work:A meditation cushion beside a punching bag.A cat named Meg White. A dog named Stevie Nicks. A beverage brand with her handwriting on every bottle.

There’s nothing performative about it.Just quiet devotion.And a deep belief in what unfolds when you stop trying to rush your own voice.

This Field Note isn’t about the big reveal.It’s about what’s possible when you keep showing up, even when no one’s watching.

And a reminder:

The voice is already in you.The work is learning to trust it.

✍️ This is Field Notes from the Work (and the Wild).Real people. Real practice. The work before the work is seen.

If this story made something in you exhale, consider subscribing or buying me a coffee to support the next one.

See you next Friday. Tawny has a Book Proposal Writing Boot Camp starting in a few weeks!

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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What a cracked temple floor and 920+ days of stillness reveal the intelligence we carry in our bones.

The most powerful shifts don’t announce themselves. They arrive in the space you didn’t rush to fill.

Karl doesn’t fill the room with answers.He lowers the volume — until you can hear what’s already there.

In this week’s Field Note, we sit with a former actor, triathlete, and math major turned coach, whose real power doesn’t come from performance, it comes from presence.

We talk about devotion as discipline, why fear is a flashlight, and what the Oracle of Delphi has to do with coaching in 2025.

Because real wisdom doesn’t always speak in sentences.Sometimes it hums beneath language.Sometimes it slips through silence.

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See you next Friday in the next Field Note!

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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Caroline Dell spent her career making other people’s visions work — until she realized the thing worth building was the one that honored how people actually connect.

What if remembering is the real work?

Maybe you’ve been trying to keep up.Grow the list.Stay in touch.Be the person who always follows through.

Caroline Dell knows how hard that is — because she’s been the one holding everything together for years.

First at LOLA. Then at Chief. Always an operator. Always the glue.

When her time at Chief came to a close, it wasn’t a rupture — it was a turning point.A chance to take everything she’d learned, and build something of her own.

She started building something new — not to scale relationships, but to honor them.

If you’ve ever forgotten to follow up…If you’ve ever wanted to show up better for the people you care about…

This one’s for you.

Fuzzy slippers under her desk. A cap table made of women. A product that feels like a perfectly-timed text from someone who just gets it.

The work that shapes us most is often the work no one else sees.

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You can learn more about Goodword and sign up here!

See you in the next Field Note.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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After nine startups, a brain injury, and a cross-country ride, Chris Fischer is learning what it really takes to stay connected — for the long haul.

You can build something that scales and still lose the thread.

Chris Fischer knows. He’s led product and engineering at nine startups, helped take companies public, and raised millions. He’s built teams that moved fast, shipped fast, and sometimes broke apart just as fast.

What stuck with him wasn’t the exits. It was the people who disappeared quietly along the way.

“Some of the best people I’ve worked with didn’t disappear. I just forgot to stay in touch.”

In this week’s Field Note, we sat down in his Brooklyn office — exposed brick, bike leaning in the corner — and talked about what it means to build infrastructure for something softer, slower. Something that doesn’t scale on its own: care.

We talked about the team members he lost track of. The cross-country ride that rewired his relationship with endurance. The brain injury that nearly knocked him out of tech for good. And why he’s now building Goodword — not as a networking app, but as a way to remember.

This one’s for anyone who’s ever said “I meant to reach out…” and then let it pass.

The people you didn’t mean to lose.The ones who shaped the path.The thread you still want to hold.

This is Chris’s story.

If someone came to mind while reading this, reach out.No big moment, just the thread — picked back up.

Head over to Goodword to sign up as an early user.

And if this Field Note moved something in you, you can buy me a coffee or become a paid subscriber to support more stories like this.

See you next Friday!

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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On designing what doesn’t exist by trusting what already does.

Most of us were taught to prove our value by matching the room. To smooth the edges. To sound like we belong.

But some people don’t just belong. They see what’s broken and start building something better.

This week’s Field Note is about what happens when you stop trying to fit the pattern and start trusting the one only you can see.

Devo Harris sees the system underneath the surface.

He notices the friction before it slows you down.Spots the pattern before it’s named.Moves toward the future like it’s already here.

We talk about:– Seeing through the structure, not just surviving it– Holding onto your perspective when others tell you to change it– Building what doesn’t exist yet, without waiting for approval

Devo has lived all over the world.He speaks multiple languages.He teaches at Harvard.And he does it all with precision, clarity, and calm.

This is a story about design, direction, and discipline.

It’s about knowing what’s yours and building it on purpose.

Thanks for pausing here with me.

If this story stayed with you, I hope you ask:What are you already building that no one else can see yet?

You can subscribe to get the next Field Note delivered to you.☕ Or buy me a coffee to support stories like this.💬 And if it moved you, pass it on. That’s how we build what lasts.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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On designing for connection, protecting your energy, and leading without losing yourself.

Taylor spent her life designing space for others to feel seen—until she realized the most radical thing she could do was protect her own.

She’s not loud about it.She doesn’t need to be.

She’s created systems that make people feel held and now she’s learning to hold herself with the same care.

Not by stepping back, by rooting in.

This is a story about rhythm.About boundaries that make space for presence.And the quiet kind of leadership that leaves a lasting mark.

If something in this story landed —take a moment today to protect your own rhythm.Even just a pocket of time.Even just one deep breath before you say yes.

And if you’re someone who holds space for others…I hope this helped you feel seen, too.

Send it to a friend who gets it.Or to someone who might need to.

You can subscribe to get the next Field Note delivered right to you.☕ Or buy me a coffee to support stories like this.💬 And if it resonated, pass it on.

I’m setting out on a year long Field Note adventure, The Field Year. If you want to support bringing this to life, make it happen here.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

PS: Subscribe to Field Notes for documentary conversations, portraits, Spoken Records, and reflections on invisible labor, identity, creativity, burnout, belonging, and becoming.

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Scaling the work without shrinking the truth with artist Bobby Hill

The instructions were simple: Keep going.But simple doesn’t mean easy.

For decades, Bobby Hill showed up to the work.Day after day, print after print.Hand-to-hand on sidewalks. Drops across the boroughs.Painting in the quiet hours, raising three kids, building something no one handed him.

From the rhythm of graffiti trains to the stillness of 3 a.m. painting sessions,Bobby’s work doesn’t just reflect where he’s been. It carries what he wants to leave behind.

This Field Note is a portrait of scale — earned through repetition.Of legacy — built through presence.Of devotion — to color, to craft, to the next generation.

In this week’s Field Note, we step into the studio with Bobby Hill — a Harlem-born artist who’s spent a lifetime learning how to listen to what the canvas is really trying to say.

Thank you for listening.

If this story moved something in you, I hope you take a moment to ask:What kind of rhythm have you been holding — quietly, consistently — without applause?

That’s the kind of presence Bobby reminds me to honor.The kind built brick by brick, print by print, over a lifetime of showing up.

Field Notes is now part of something bigger.This year, I’m taking it on the road — capturing the unseen stories behind how we work, create, and carry each other.I am calling it the Field Year, and if you want to support that work…

You can do that here on GoFundMe.

Subscribe to get the next Field Note delivered right to you 📬And if it resonated, pass it on. That’s how we keep the real ones visible 💬

With gratitude,

Lindsey

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From bookshops to blank pages, Nikita Khandwala is making space for the lessons that arrive in every moment.

Some people chase their voice.Nikita makes space for hers.

This week’s Field Note is about what happens in the pause…..the inhale before the exhale,the silence before the words,the lesson that shows up in places you don’t expect.

It’s about validation, friendship, language, and the wild practice of letting life itself be the teacher.

Thank you for listening.If this story stirred something in you, I hope you take a moment to ask:Where in your life do you need to make space, so your truest voice can step forward?

That’s the kind of presence Nikita reminds me to honor.

Subscribe to get the next Field Note delivered right to you 📬And if it resonated, pass it on.

Field Notes is now part of something bigger.This year, I’m taking it on the road — capturing the unseen stories behind how we work, create, and carry each other.I am calling it the Field Year, and if you want to support that work…

You can do that here on GoFundMe.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

PS: Subscribe to Field Notes for documentary conversations, portraits, Spoken Records, and reflections on invisible labor, identity, creativity, burnout, belonging, and becoming.

PPS: Upgrade to Friends of Field Notes for access to The Dispatch, weekly prompts in the chat, and the digital Field Note Journal to help you document your own process in real time.

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Elliot Aronow on invisible seasons, artifacts, and discovering the gravity of his own work.

We all hit stretches where nothing seems to move.Where the work won’t come, the progress stalls, and even getting through the day feels impossible.

Elliot Aronow calls these invisible seasons.Years where he couldn’t make anything. Nights when he thought he might not make it through.

From the outside, he looked like a “very small big deal”— orbiting The Strokes, LCD Soundsystem, and the big fashion magazines. Free dinners, free sneakers, backstage passes. But beneath it all, he was unraveling.

What changed wasn’t more hustle or another reinvention. It was the realization that invisible seasons aren’t failures. They’re compost.

This is a story about collapse, artifacts, and the quiet work of seeing yourself before anyone else can.

Elliot reminded me that invisible seasons aren’t wasted time.They’re the slow work of gravity pulling us back to ourselves.

If Elliot’s story spoke to you, I’d love for you to share it with someone else who might need it.

Stop fixing. Start flowing.

Elliot’s story is part of the The Field Year — a year-long archive of stories, portraits, and gatherings that make the unseen seen. If you want to help bring it to life, you can support the GoFundMe here.

With gratitude,

Lindsey

PS: Subscribe to Field Notes for documentary conversations, portraits, Spoken Records, and reflections on invisible labor, identity, creativity, burnout, belonging, and becoming.

PPS: Upgrade to Friends of Field Notes for access to The Dispatch, weekly prompts in the chat, and the digital Field Note Journal to help you document your own process in real time.

Founding Members can participate in their own Field Note experience. NYC-based. Travel not included. Reply to this email with questions.