finding wilder

inspired by my poem, without you on my lips:

It was in a deep exhale where she could sometimes let go a little more

Always, a little more

It was in the expansion of her belly breath where she felt his love dance inside of her

And it was when she breathed out that she knew she had to watch him dance out of her, fluidly with the release of air moving through pursed pink lips

He couldn’t stay living inside of her forever

Not in a way that made her feel hostage

He didn’t pay rent

To stay dormant in her bones

And she knew he’d stay forever

Hiding in there

In the light of her soul

Without reimbursing her for the love she showered over him, time and time again

She needed a refund on the time spent lusting over his co-dependent wounds

Making her feel needed

Allowing her to feel special

Over and over again

She’d put up a notice

Two weeks she’d said

And you’re out

Pay up

Or you’re out

Put your lips on mine

Show me that I am not a fool

Or you’re out

Place your hands on my face and tell me it’s always been me

Or you’re out

Place your heart atop mine

In a pureness of knowing

That this has not always been a lie

Just tell me you’re afraid

And let the sun warm the places inside of me that have cooled over time

Protecting me from the power that moves through my bones when I’m with you

Let me go

Set me free

With your body

Here

Or

Leave

Take me

Or leave me

Dance with me

Or let me dance on my own

Pay me the rent for the space you’ve taken up inside my bones for far too long

I am no longer interested in protecting your heart with mine

Defending your scarcity with my strength

I am no longer the shelter for your story

I am no longer the breath that holds you deep inside my belly

I am now the exhale that sets you free

And finally lets me breathe, without you on my lips

.

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finding wilder is a safe space to feel intuitively, listen compassionately and live joyfully in the here and now while consciously connecting to the world with open eyes, ears and hearts. we were born to live in love--to connect beyond our differences, and remember we are one.

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Inspired by my spot in the sun on a chilly may morning with a hot cup of coffee, and a personal poem called Do the Scary Thing:

Do the scary thing.

Take the leap.

Leave the job that feels restrictive and hard.

Sign up for the class.

Commit to the relationship.

Book the ticket.

Nothing is forever.

Nothing has to be forever.

You choose.

The money, it will always come back to you.

The unaligned relationship…you will learn from it what you need in the time that it is in your life, and then, you will find the strength to walk away and know that what comes next is for the highest good of all.

The job…you’ll get another one, or maybe you will start your own business.

Your dream job may fall into your lap.

Stop forcing forcing forcing.

Start being, allowing allowing allowing.

In presence we trust.

In trust we evolve.

Through evolution we expand.

Through expansion our dreams become reality, because the only thing holding us back from our dreams becoming REALITY was the fear that held us hostage, unable to live in the here and now.

And when we choose the here and now, when we choose PRESENCE we fall effortlessly into trust, and we evolve and we expand and through each moment of expansion our hearts become big wide open and limitless containers of love and forever guidance in the hear and now, a perfect system of renegading our way through a world that has taught us to be stagnant and stuck.

We were not meant to be stagnant and stuck.

We were meant to flow over the brims of glasses.

We were meant to sway back and forth, jump up and down, and not wrestle with the flow of life, rather we were meant to BE the flow of life.

We are life.

We are one.

We are love.

And in the here and now we know that nothing is forever, and so we trust ourselves to DO THE SCARY THING.

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It's been a long time coming, 

here's what finding wilder means to me :)

I am so grateful you are here and joining me on this new adventure.

find more poetry, writing, info on wedding and elopement photography and how to work with Micayla Jean in a 1:1 spiritual mentorship at www.micaylajean.com

thanks for being here! have the best dang day.