We start by talking about what it's like to deal with negativity after content goes viral, then get into a vulnerable conversation about not saying "I love you" to your partner and what that actually means.

There's a quick political update on Australia before we dive into gnosticism, schooling under capitalism, and then spend most of the episode unpacking relationships. We go through our red flags, our green flags, whether we believe in second chances, and what the most and least important traits in a partner actually are.

We also talk about our superpowers, the things we bring to relationships and friendships that make us who we are. It's honest, reflective, and the kind of conversation that makes you think about your own patterns and what you're actually looking for.

🎙️ Fingers Crossed is a mental health and life podcast hosted by Erica and Megan.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

03:30 dealing with negativity online

07:21 not saying i love you to partner

16:49 political update on australia

26:32 gnosticism intro

29:51 schooling under capitalism

32:53 our red flags

44:43 our green flags

47:47 second chances

54:51 most important trait in a partner

59:12 least important trait in a partner

01:00:55 our superpowers

01:10:53 outro

Erica kicks off the episode with some genuinely good luck stories because her fortune has finally turned around. Then we pivot into a big, honest conversation about intimacy and desire that was sparked by Anwar White's recent viral video on "catching print."

We talk about how sexuality has been shaped in the West, the complete failure of sex education to teach us anything meaningful, and the spiritual element of intimacy that no one talks about. We discuss building real connection, women with high libidos, demisexuality and how it shows up differently for everyone, and the ways neurodivergence and trauma intersect with desire.

It's about getting in touch with your sexuality, understanding what you actually want, and unlearning all the stuff that's kept you disconnected from yourself. We wrap up with a quick chat about extroversion vs introversion and why socialising matters.

Funny that we played golf in the morning and ended up having one of our most important conversations about intimacy by the afternoon.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

02:26 erica's good luck stories

12:24 hormones and pcos

15:55 anwar white and catching print

20:37 intimacy in the west

23:07 what sex education missed

30:58 sacred intimacy and spirituality

34:42 the importance of connection

37:28 women with high libidos

39:07 demisexuality

44:01 getting in touch with your desire

47:25 erica future sociologist?

49:44 extroversion/introversion and socialising

56:33 outro

BTS is officially back after nearly four years, and we're breaking down their new album Arirang and the new Swim music video starring Lili Reinhart. Erica’s a longtime fan and Meg might be a new convert (potentially).

Then we shift gears into something much more personal as Meg opens up about her recent therapy session where she unpacked how she constantly compares herself to others, her thoughts on changing career paths and life direction, and a realisation that's been sitting with her for years: she's always felt bad for trying. We get into internalised tall poppy syndrome, the fear of standing out or aiming too high, and what it actually takes to push past that.

We also touch on enneagram types, marketing thoughts, a potential back scratch business idea, and why being ambitious feels so uncomfortable sometimes.

A mix of pop culture excitement and deeply vulnerable self reflection.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

00:49 BTS new album

08:20 meg always comparing herself to others

22:03 enneagram chat

24:04 marketing thoughts

26:15 meg always felt bad for trying

33:13 meg’s life direction

36:57 back scratch business

43:25 xerf in australia

44:31 outro

Erica's been really emotional lately. She went to Linkin Park and we talk about some of the best concerts we've ever been to, the ones that stay with you. Then things get heavier: Erica's missing her ex and seriously considering reaching out.

Meg cried, which almost never happens, and opens up about the impact men have had on her and why emotions feel so hard to access sometimes. We also touch on jealousy between friends and what that actually reveals about us.

Erica had a big fight with her mum. Her mum was abusive when she was young, and while they've worked hard to stabilize their relationship, sometimes things still go off the rails. It's an honest conversation about what it's like to navigate trauma with someone who is traumatized themselves and yet traumatized you. How do you repair something that broken? And is it even possible?

A vulnerable, messy, real episode about emotions, relationships, and the complicated people we can't quite let go of.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

01:20 linkin park and concerts discussion

11:53 jealousy between friends

24:54 erica misses pentacles

34:34 meg cried!

42:52 erica had a fight with her mum

49:39 outro

We're talking about the state of the world as tensions escalate and the possibility of World War 3 feels less abstract than it used to. We put on our tin foil hats to discuss some conspiracy theories around what's actually happening, then pivot to Erica finally watching Interstellar and what it made her feel about time, space, and existence.

The conversation gets heavier as we talk openly about mortality. Meg reflects on not feeling particularly attached to life, while Erica realizes how much she wants to stay. It's an honest, vulnerable discussion about what it means to want to live or not, and why those feelings exist.

We also get into the practicalities of our futures: Erica's indoor job will likely be automated, Meg's outdoor job is destroying her hands with carpal tunnel and tendonitis, so what do we actually do next? We explore alternative career paths, capitalism's role in all of this, and what happens when the work we do stops being sustainable.

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chapters:

00:00 intro 

03:21 the state of the world

16:07 tin foil hat time

21:00 thoughts on interstellar

24:08 back to the state of the world

28:28 meg brief tangent

29:01 processing trauma

31:28 meg remission thoughts

33:44 meg capitalism rant

34:58 thoughts on mortality

42:49 thoughts on changing careers

54:15 outro

Erica wraps up her recent gig before diving into how she spent her birthday: four back to back healing appointments. She saw a shaman to work on her MCAS (mast cell activation syndrome), visited a myofascial specialist for nervous system healing that also impacts mast cells, got a skin tightening treatment and had honest conversations about cosmetic surgery options. We get into what she's genuinely wishing for in the year ahead.

Megan has been doing some serious self reflection lately and opens up about the underlying negative beliefs she's been carrying, where they came from, and what it actually looks like to try to heal them. It's vulnerable, honest and the kind of conversation that makes you question what stories you've been telling yourself.

We also touch on technofeudalism, some positive feedback from a friend/fan and why alternative healing methods keep pulling us in.

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chapters:

00:00 intro (erica’s gig review)

04:33 good feedback

09:31 erica visits shaman 

20:48 skin chat including plastic surgery

28:34 myofascial specialist

37:05 erica birthday wishes

42:26 technofeudalism chat

45:00 meg underlying negative beliefs

57:33 meg healing thoughts

01:05:09 outro

It's Erica's birthday so we're doing something a little different: a full episode dedicated to birthdays, memories and what actually matters as we get older.

We start with our happiest birthday memories before Erica opens up about being bullied at school and how her mum intervened when the school refused to help. We talk about our favourite presents over the years, our relationship with celebrations and recap our 30th birthdays.

There's a detour into teenage birthdays, why birthday songs are universally awkward and our very strong opinions on massages. Megan reflects on her birthday in 2020 during lockdown, and we both share what we're genuinely wishing for this year, not just materially but for ourselves and our lives.

A nostalgic, honest conversation about growing up and what birthdays mean when you're not a kid anymore.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

05:13 happiest birthday memories

09:16 bea interlude

10:01 erica bullied at school

11:46 favourite presents

16:31 on celebrating birthdays

20:21 our 30th birthdays

24:27 teenage birthdays

26:12 birthday songs

29:37 thoughts on massages

33:11 meg’s birthday in 2020

35:48 wishes for this year

43:23 outro

In this episode of Fingers Crossed, Erica shares her decision to step back from traditional talk therapy and explore alternative healing methods, including somatic techniques, Qigong and meditating with the Gateway Tapes, the CIA-declassified audio program that's taken over the internet. We get into what that experience has actually been like and whether it's worth the hype. Also touch on using it for manifestation purposes.

Megan opens up about who she was as a child and reflects on the pivotal decisions, both made for her and by her, that shaped the person she is today. It's a conversation about identity, self-awareness, and how much of who we are was always already written.

We also dive into education systems: Steiner vs public vs private schooling, what Australia does differently, and how systems around the world compare. Plus, Too Good To Go, the app that's changing how we think about food waste, and a chat about Clavicular and some of his very interesting life and health choices.

A wide-ranging, honest episode about healing, growing up, and the paths we didn't know we were on.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

01:06 too good to go

10:40 erica quitting therapy

14:40 gateway tapes 

23:30 qigong 

25:08 meg childhood reflections

28:44 meg’s pivotal life choices and education systems

44:43 meg now

49:50 clavicular discussion

59:33 outro

in this episode, we take a moment to do some honest stocktaking of our lives and our plans for 2026. we also touch on human design and talk about when the wrong people have kids.

to balance out the seriousness, we also revisit some of our funniest and most embarrassing childhood stories, because self-reflection can only go so far before it needs to be interrupted by chaos.

this one is part intention-setting, part emotional reset, and part laughing at the people we used to be.

if you’re thinking about what you want more (or less) of this year, or you just need a lighter episode with a bit of perspective, this one’s for you.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

00:34 reflecting on where we’re at for 2026

20:05 human design

26:13 when the wrong people have kids

36:00 embarrassing childhood stories 

01:03:23 outro

this episode covers heavy and confronting themes.

content warning: this episode discusses sexual assault, grooming, coercion and abuse of power.

in this episode, erica shares two deeply personal experiences involving older men abusing their power, and the lasting impact those experiences have had. meg also opens up about an experience of coercion involving a close female friend, and what it taught her about trust, boundaries and safety.

this is not a societal analysis or a theoretical discussion. it is a personal conversation about lived experience, the confusion that often follows, and the ways harm can be minimised or misunderstood when it comes from people we know.

we talk honestly about how these experiences stay with you, how they change the way you move through the world, and what it means to name harm without dressing it up or explaining it away.

viewer/listener discretion is advised.

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chapters:

00:00 intro

00:38 cw

03:54 erica story 1

20:58 erica story 2

41:06 meg story

48:50 outro