For A Pessimist I’m Pretty Optimistic

episode twenty one is all about the feeling of being in a funk. are we stuck in a rut? is it so bad that it'll feel permanent? in all honesty, whatever funk it may be, depression, a burnout, or the lowest of moods, it isn't permanent. in the mean time, what we all truly can do is self care, and find warmth in the littlest things that life hands us.

featuring the third segment on this podcast, comes the reading of my journals i've written through the years. the third journal i've written on my blog is about individualism; or in my very own definition, the embarking of our very own journey.

anger. it's this feeling that comes on so quickly and so unexpectedly that we end up just having to deal with it. there's healthy ways, and there are unhealthy ways to cope with anger. when it usually doesn't have a reason, it's gotta be something deeper, and it's usually pented up agression we find ourselves dealing with later on down the road. importantly, there are ways to make such a sudden feeling subside, and luckily writing and transmuting an unknown anger or frustration into a book can be quite therapeutic. other things like music, or humor can be that temporary fix if a creative block manages to happen.

we've all been there, where we feel deeply about a person and find that risks and the feelings that wash over us is worth fighting for. in episode eighteen, it's all love. these are some words of advice from someone who might not know much about it, but surely know that the feeling is something to be patient with, and to nurture as time goes by. love comes in all forms. accept it every step of the way.

after experiencing life through a different perspective, i take this time to reflect about self care and the times where i had mistaken self care for over-indulging to reaching a state of pure nirvana. perhaps both can only be so similar. conclusion being, life is all about this learning process that things aren't always what they seem; and perhaps self care is far more important than lingering at the deep end of consciousness; it’s appreciating the little things too.

delving into my astrological chart, i resonate and read along through the way the planets, my moon, and my sun play into how i'm perceived and how i express. it's so spicy.

in this episode, i chat quickly about the excitement about reopening a book i wrote when i was literally only twelve years old. nine years later, at twenty one, i've been inspired to write a second book, uncovering some themes and bits of the first book called 'she's the man,' that i felt deserved to be written about in the sequel to this series. yes, the series is inspired by the movie 'she's the man,' but like they say, inspiration begins somewhere, and that was the very spur of this series.

friendships are tough, but i've never really found a time my inner circle stayed the same. here's some wholesome stories, advice to remain close with the ones you feel right about, and to distance from the ones that don't quite strike as right.

intuition is your soul's truest instinct to follow decision making that doesn't necessarily need conscious reasoning or debate, it's the trust in what's already within you, and one with you. by intuitively thinking we do not only resonate deeply with others around us, but with the earth that we walk our path on as well.

'if i can't have love i want power' follows the story of queen Lila and the nightmares that follows within royal reign. so i'm gonna delve into some key themes and theories i have on this film by halsey, and the empowerment this brings for women along with an essence of femininity.