femmyst | awareness pt 3 | Personal Business Handle it→ you're going to require boundaries, Buttercup not the restrictive kind. the self-care kind. starting internally. how long you ruminate. how you talk to yourself. how you feel about what you find.→ the double layer judging the judgment. shaming the shame. watching yourself recoil and then recoiling about the recoiling. that second layer is the one to notice and interrupt.→ this is your personal business no one else's jurisdiction. no one else's rules apply. though some of the rules already running were someone else's to begin with. they just got buried deep before you had a chance to reevaluate them.→ are these rules up for renewal some you have naturally dissolved by walking through experience. some you have not touched with a ten foot pole because they are connected to something emotionally raw. you are starting to feel their limitation now. that is why you are here.→ how you treat yourself about what you find is also a program the treatment of yourself in those moments, your weak spots, your regrets, your struggle. that is also something to witness. as neutrally as you can. maybe even with some compassion.→ how did you come to agree with these rules not how did you let this happen. how did this perfect combination of things create a program that now runs on autopilot. what factors built this framework. who benefits from it. what are you avoiding by keeping it.→ I did it to survive when you really sit with the question, that is often what surfaces. I didn't think I had another option. that is where self-compassion comes in without being asked. you just keep zooming out the aperture and seeing more.→ deeper than identity maxing everyday ordinary moments start to feel divine. reverence becomes more abundant. gratitude becomes more default. it is the deepest relationship you get to have with yourself being revealed. what started as habits becomes a full relationship.→ self-trust built self-judgment is not on the menu anymore. when something painful arrives you do not throw the whole thing out. the bandwidth is there. you feel held. this is your personal business. and you have done the work of it.for a specific few: • ⧼the one who has been adding a second layer of shame on top of the first one for years, 14:16 is specifically for you⧽────────0:00 - part three, personal business, know yourself without judging yourself 0:23 - you're going to require boundaries, Buttercup 1:09 - boundaries as self-care, starting internally 1:55 - the double layer: judging the judgment, shaming the shame 3:05 - we all judge, it becomes less and less useful over time 4:14 - this is your personal business, within your jurisdiction 5:01 - the rules you inherited, are they up for renewal 6:10 - some haven't been touched with a ten foot pole 7:20 - take stock of what's running, how to stay neutral while untangling 8:17 - how you treat yourself about what you find is also a program 9:39 - how did you come to agree with these rules 10:48 - what factors created this framework, the loop, the side benefits 11:57 - what are you avoiding, what pain, what are you not doing 13:07 - themes will develop and morph, keep zooming out the aperture 14:16 - I did it to survive, I didn't think I had another option 15:26 - everyday ordinary moments start to feel divine 16:24 - it's so much deeper than identity maxing 17:22 - the epiphanies, releasing and forgiving, putting the heavy bag down 18:08 - what started as habits became a full relationship with yourself 18:54 - self-trust built, self-judgment not on the menu──────── femmyst | everyday alchemy

femmyst | awareness pt 2 | Mirror Ball → the mirror has layers not just what you see at first glance. how you see others. how you see yourself through their eyes. what you assume their judgments to be. three ply. the more you sit with it in a relaxed state the more levels open.→ how you see others reveals your architecture the way you judge them, the way you read their motivations. that is pointing to the lens you are wearing. it is demonstrating how you see generally.→ assumptions are your architecture they are a direct readout of your programming. fragmented, projected, overlaid with the weather inside you on any given day. in everyday situations, a lot of what you are assuming says more about you than the situation itself.→ what is yours, what is theirs their projection is also informed by their programming, their family of origin, how they have been socially coded. once you see the layers there is compassion for the confusion all around. you can see it without adopting it.→ you are the epicentre the drop in the water. the ripple effect. your energy is going out and coming back. road rage in the morning. joy at the checkout. you are always in the mirror.→ the slut shaming example the person projecting assumes the shame is universal. when it is not. that assumption reveals their relationship to body, autonomy, sexuality. the mirror is showing them. not the person they are pointing at.→ empaths and the coffee analogy what is mine versus what is theirs. am I anxious or am I absorbing someone else's anxiety. similar to drinking coffee late and then looking for something external to feel anxious about. learning to tell the difference is the discernment work.→ self-validation you stop needing the external reflection as frequently. you start to read the mirror yourself. not a plastic bag floating in the wind waiting for someone to tell you who you are.for a specific few: • ⧼the one who has been taking other people's projections as truth, this episode is the untangle⧽────────0:00 - hello lover, part two, the mirror ball 0:45 - the three layers of mirror work 1:53 - how you see others reveals your inner architecture 3:12 - how you see yourself through others' eyes 4:31 - juggling the layers, assumptions and projections 5:39 - discernment: what is yours, what is theirs 6:46 - releasing resentment once you see the layers 7:54 - compassion for the confusion all around 9:02 - the deeper layers: generational and social programming 10:10 - small town vs big picture thinking, environment shapes architecture 11:06 - the cold and withholding example 12:03 - you are the epicentre, the drop in water, the ripple effect 12:48 - your assumptions are your architecture 13:56 - the slut shaming example: projection and assumed universal shame 15:04 - our assumptions reveal how we have reasoned the world 16:00 - reflection is fundamental, discernment in a relaxed state 16:45 - empaths: recognising what is mine versus what is theirs 17:19 - coffee and anxiety: am I feeling this or absorbing it 17:53 - self-validation, needing external reflection less 18:16 - seeing yourself through your children's eyes 18:38 - navigating projections in relationships, a maturation skill──────────────── femmyst | everyday alchemy

Awareness| Pt 1 | How you see yourself.════════════════════════════

→ observing before analyzingobserving first. it allows what has been tightening to relax and show itself. analyzing too soon closes the space before you have seen what is actually there.→ what does it feel like to watch yourselfnot what you find. the quality of the watching. is the awareness agitated with what it sees or open to it. do you say I or you when you talk to yourself. just notice.→ the traffic examplewhite knuckles. clenched jaw. gridlock. fused with the experience. then you pop out a layer and you are the awareness of it rather than just inside it. then out one more. from there you can see both.→ the three orbsthe experience. the awareness of the experience. the awareness of the awareness. each layer gives more room. you stop falling for the story and start watching it play out.→ you are not the experienceand you are not the pattern that reacts to it. that is just a pattern. one you can change now that you can see it.→ judgment is datacatch the judgment while watching. words, fragments, a parent's voice, a feeling state. all of it is information about what is running. no evaluation needed yet.→ feet on the groundkeep present reality in view while exploring the inner architecture. the gap between what you are building inside and what is happening outside needs to stay small enough to function.→ allowing, accepting, loving, trustingthe four qualities of the witness. repatterning how it feels to be in your own body. neutral to warm. something you can slide into fully.→ the loving grandparentthat calm steady fortifying presence. that is what you are growing inside yourself. one second at a time. like a plank. it only deepens.for a specific few:• ....is an understatement ⧼the one who fuses with every experience and doesn't know there is a layer beyond it noticing it is realizing you are witnessing from the layer beyond it⧽────────0:00 - Awareness pt1, this episode0:31 - observing before analyzing, why that order matters1:25 - what does it feel like to watch yourself being you2:07 - I vs you: how you relate to yourself internally2:39 - is the awareness agitated or delighting in what it sees3:11 - the traffic example begins4:26 - popping out of the experience, the first layer6:12 - the three orbs, expanding into a more breathable field7:27 - you are not the experience, you are not the pattern7:59 - personal example: coming into the body, hot and cold bath9:13 - do you hear it in words or a feeling state10:07 - the act of watching separates you from what you're finding11:00 - judgment is data, feet on the ground11:53 - awareness in balance, not floating into abstraction12:46 - allowing, accepting, loving, trusting13:50 - repatterning how it feels to be in your own body14:43 - the brain matching current fear to past experience15:37 - the loving grandparent, that steady fortifying presence16:30 - practicing one second at a time, like a plank────────

Femmyst | Everyday Alchemy══════════════════════════════════EPISODE 3 | orientation | what are you?══════════════════════════════════→ form, function, conceptthree things running in tandem. your form, what the body does and what it tells you. your function, how you are functioning and toward what. your concept, how you see yourself and who you feel yourself to be. all three braided. you can start at any one of them. but you have to eventually see all three.→ not who, whatwho is flexible. who is context-dependent. what you are is the parameters, the architecture, what data sets you are working with. when you know what you are, the who starts to file in.→ what's already runninga chain of command is already executing. what gets your attention. what you respond to. what you orient your day toward. neuroschemas: what did you write, what did you inherit, what did you absorb just by watching. most running in the background. autopilot is elegant when it is working for you. worth looking at when it is leaking, limiting, or draining.→ the elegance of autopilotwanting to delete everything and decide from scratch is decision fatigue. there is elegance in cruise control. the goal is not to eliminate it. it is to know what is on it.→ awareness of awarenessawareness is steering. the maestro conducting the inner symphony. is the maestro irritated with what it has to work with. watching yourself watch yourself. the trap is double judgment: shame about what you are seeing and shame for feeling the shame.→ child with shaky handcomfortability, not perfection. not corporate restructuring. you observe, you sit there. all parts engaging from kindness. anything that is not there yet just has not learned that yet.→ what this is actually foronce you know the what, you can start to see what is possible to build. before that, possibilities feel vague and ambient. your internal systems are within you. in your jurisdiction. you are at the wheel.→ relationship firstif the internal relationship is crappy, start by accepting it is crappy. that is self-leadership. Diana Ross: it is my house and I live here. rearrange the furniture. somebody else's limiting beliefs do not belong here. they just got programmed in without you realizing.→ relationship first, inventory secondunified with yourself first. then inventory. then design and shift. looking at yourself without the relationship established first feels like yet another extractionary practice. in the right order it feels like structure and nourishment.→ congratulationsif you have this level of awareness, you have expanded enough capacity to see it. your system is not going to open your aperture and flood you with everything at once. you have enough room to see it, get through it, and create with it. new level, not new territory. it keeps going. that is the design.for a specific few:• ....is an understatement ⧼the one who has been taking inventory without the relationship, this episode is the reorder⧽────────

Femmyst | Everyday AlchemyEPISODE 2 | orientation | how I think→ before we go anywherethis episode is a sample of what I'm serving, how I have understand, make sense of and function with my intuition, internal guidance and how I chose to live. I want to give you an idea of how I think so that you can decide whether this is your road trip.→ intuition is not what most people think it isit is not a feeling. it is not just a gut reaction. it is a different category of knowing entirely. deeper than thinking and feeling. steadier than emotion. it arrives before the logic and it is unmistakeable once you know what you are listening for. and once you develop that relationship, you cannot unknow it.→ the shadow of intuitionthe same language of awareness can be borrowed by avoidance. consciously, semi-consciously, or without realising at all. it is what happens when you use intuition to skip steps, bypass what you are meant to be looking at, or justify a choice that keeps you in the loop longer than you need to be. you want to see this edge. not to be hard on yourself. because you want the loops to end.→ what it looks like in real life | the boundary epiphanya video triggers something about boundaries. a childhood pattern surfaces around honesty, oversharing, transparency as protection. life serves up the matching example. a conversation. someone says, my business is my business, and means it with ease. intuition takes the lead. the mind follows as the stenographer. and then: oh. I didn't even realise that was running. Tetris. things filing in. releasing without gripping. stacking and dissolving. that is the everyday alchemy.→ first through witnessingyou are not here to fix yourself. you are here to know yourself. knowing yourself and supporting yourself is at the centre of all of this. what is emergent and what is regulating will both show up. both are information. you come in neutral. you come in kind. the observer without judgment is the whole practice. you do not go in guns blazing. you sit down. you take stock. you stay open to what is actually here.→ the shadowshadow is not only what is shady. shadow is also what is unknown. what is yet to surface. what has been working underneath that you have not seen yet. you will meet it. the question is how you meet it when it arrives.→ this is not a lessonit is a permission slip. to go in and check it out. to know that you are here, you are present, and you are going to keep being here. learning to steer more. learning to co-create. because we are not in control of all of it. and at some point that has to be okay too.for a specific few:• ....is an understatement ⧼the one who has been using the language of knowing to avoid what they already know they need to look at, this episode poked at it for you to see it. ────────

EPISODE 1 | soft landing════════════════════════════════════════→ if you found thisthis channel does not cast a wide net. it finds who it finds. if something brought you here during a time when you feel like you are wandering, outgrowing something, or quietly becoming someone you do not yet fully recognise, that is not accidental. this space was built for exactly that threshold. the person who is mid-metamorphosis and did not realise they were transforming. the one who is realising who they thought they were is just the surface. the one who is in it.→ what everyday alchemy actually isalchemy here is not a spiritual concept separated from real life. it is the process of metabolising what is hard, what has changed under your feet, what feels like it should have broken you and did not. it is not positivity. it is motion. it is the decision to keep spinning what is here rather than waiting for better conditions to arrive first. and it is something you are already doing, mostly without realising it.→ the age of discernmentas information accelerates, as AI generates more of what passes for insight, as abstraction compounds on top of abstraction, your internal filtration system becomes non-negotiable. you are going to need two sets of eyes. the external ones you already use, and the internal ones that know the difference between what is true for you and what is simply loud.→ what this channel islife notes. musings. revelations still being chewed on. things metabolised in real time. this is not a course. nothing here is prescriptive. it is one person feeling into the airwaves and reporting back, and sharing what she is seeing in herself and in others as it moves through.→ why replies are limited herethe energy that would go into the comment section goes into creating instead. this is a giving channel by design. everything written is read and received. silence is not indifference. it is the container holding.→ the main messagewe can create better when we know ourselves better. to participate more fully and deeply in your own life, you need to know yourself, or you will keep coming up against the same lessons. that is the whole channel. everything else is the work of getting there.╼☩╾for a specific few:• ....is an understatement ⧼the version of you that got comfortable outgrowing quietly, this is permission to stop making it small⧽────────00:00 - Introduction to Everyday Alchemy 00:46 - Navigating Uncharted Territory and Self-Awareness 01:25 - The Importance of Discernment in an AI Era 02:34 - Who This Space is For: The Self-Leading Creator 03:35 - A Container for Musings and Revelations 04:18 - Knowing Yourself to Create Better 05:15 - Understanding Energetic Metabolism 06:10 - Navigating the Unknown Without a Map06:41 - This is a Giving Channel: Why I Won't Be in the Comments 07:25 - You Are Capable of Enjoying the Unknown 08:00 - Building a Relationship with Yourself 08:52 - Noticing the Patterns of Transformation────────

Thank you for taking the time to listen to the episodes, to follow along with my diary of transformation, my own "hero's journey" to distill the gold and learn deeper truth. In charting my own territory and the archetypal experiences of human adaptation and evolution, spiritual and practical, I have come to know myself and accept myself beyond what I thought possible. I feel grateful for those of you who have listened, thank you for your patience and feedback.

Life's good, can confirm.

Ashlee

Of course you are, you are the creator, the designer, the architect, the experiencer, the lover, the human, the Alpha the Omega, the drop, the ocean, the living aspect of the human being archetype.

Love you

The good news is we get more practice, we are always progressing and we ARE making progress.

xx Ash