Not Responding
A sermon preached by
Rev. Ginger Gaines-Cirelli at Foundry UMC April 3, 2015, Good Friday.
Text: Mark 15:33-39
----------------Silence---------------------------
Into silence, the uncomfortable
silence, the panicked silence, the despairing silence—in the space of
nothingness, the emptiness, the shifting and shuffling and tittering and
jeering all around only raising our anxiety and growing despair—into silence we
want a word.
At the bedside of a dying mother,
son, sister, father, daughter, brother, partner, spouse…in our anguish we cry
out to God—we want a word.
In the face of cancer, abuse, AIDS,
addiction—as we watch bodies break and bleed and drain of life—we cry out to
God…we want a word.
When we find ourselves shrouded by the
darkness of depression, having lost even the will to live, when we wake each
and every day to chronic pain, when we feel deep in our bones our own
helplessness and hopelessness about our lives or the lives of our loved ones or
about the life of the world…we cry out to God—we want a word.
What word do we want? Maybe we want the magic word, the healing
word, the word that will reverse or erase what has happened or what is
happening. Maybe we want the word of
comfort—“There, there…everything will be alright.”…Maybe we want any word—any
sign—that we are not alone, that we are not abandoned.
And yet, so often, no word
comes. The only message we receive: “Not
Responding.” What we need is not appearing…
In that space of suffering and helplessness, our prayers and cries to
God are met with silence. No word
comes. And the silence feels so deep, so
dark, so final, that the absence seems to swallow us whole. In that moment when our “mouth is dried up…
and [our] tongue sticks to [our] jaws” (Ps. 22:15)… Do we still cry out to God? What do we say then?
“In a hospital somewhere an older
deacon went to visit a dying woman for whom the doctors could do nothing more,
and squeezing her hand he saw her starting to say something. Too feeble to speak it out but with great
effort she moved her lips and he, in order to make it easier for her, leaned
over to get his ear above her mouth. And
he felt her breathe upon his cheek the words, ‘The Lord is my shepherd, I shall
not want…’ And then she stopped. But the deacon gave words to her emotion and
continued aloud what he knew she was unable to speak, ‘He maketh me to lie down
in green pastures. He leadeth me beside
still waters…’ And on to the end when
upon finishing he knew she had breathed her last.”
As Jesus hung on the cross,
betrayed, denied, abandoned—his body broken and bleeding—he cries out to
God…and for the first time in his life, his cry is met with silence, with
absence, with nothing. What does he say
then?
Some who stood there at the foot of
the cross thought he cried for help from Elijah. But the words that Jesus spoke were not his
own…they were the words of the Psalmist—Psalm 22 as we number them. With his dying breath, he called upon these
words of lament and, if we were to place our ear near his mouth and speak the
words he never got to finish, we would find ourselves saying:
O my God, I cry
by day, but you do not answer; and by night, but find no rest.
Yet you are holy,
enthroned on the praises of Israel.
In you