Trigger Warning: Paranormal activity, drug use (weed, psychedelics), addiction, suicide, assault, church trauma, abuse. Please be aware there are topics discussed in this episode that are not suitable for the developing minds (children). Listener discretion advised.

Guys... it's been a WILD few months, to say the least.

I never, I mean NEVER, thought I'd be making this episode.

As someone with years of religious trauma and frustration with the western church, I actively left the faith with zero intention of coming back.

I knew I had a real relationship with the 'divine' and deeply desired that connection but was done with organized religion. After deconstructing my beliefs about Christianity, my curiosity lead me into a life of seeking truth and enlightenment via other avenues. I dove headfirst into eastern beliefs, spirituality, new age practices, and the occult. I was addicted to marijuana, obsessed with tarot, began getting trained in reiki in order to incorporate it in my business when everything flipped upside down..

This is my story.

I will never have enough words to thank God for what He did for me. He saved me from so much darkness and is transforming my heart.

Glory to God, forever and ever. My life is Yours.

“For God so [greatly] loved and dearly prized the world, that He [even] gave His [One and] [a]only begotten Son, so that whoever believes and trusts in Him [as Savior] shall not perish, but have eternal life." John 3:16 AMP

"But now, this is what the Lord says—

he who created you, Jacob,

he who formed you, Israel:

"Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;

I have summoned you by name; you are mine.

When you pass through the waters,

I will be with you;

and when you pass through the rivers,

they will not sweep over you.

When you walk through the fire,

you will not be burned;

the flames will not set you ablaze.

For I am the Lord your God,

the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;..

Since you are precious and honored in my sight,

and because I love you,

I will give people in exchange for you,

nations in exchange for your life.

Do not be afraid, for I am with you;

I will bring your children from the east

and gather you from the west.

I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’

and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’

Bring my sons from afar

and my daughters from the ends of the earth—

everyone who is called by my name,

whom I created for my glory,

whom I formed and made.”

Lead out those who have eyes but are blind,

who have ears but are deaf.

All the nations gather together

and the peoples assemble.

Which of their gods foretold this

and proclaimed to us the former things?

Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right,

so that others may hear and say, “It is true.”

“You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord,

“and my servant whom I have chosen,

so that you may know and believe me

and understand that I am he.

Before me no god was formed,

nor will there be one after me.

I, even I, am the Lord,

and apart from me there is no savior.

I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—

I, and not some foreign god among you.

You are my witnesses,” declares the Lord, “that I am God.

Yes, and from ancient days I am he.

No one can deliver out of my hand.

When I act, who can reverse it?”

Isaiah 43:1-13

Let's Connect!

Instagram: @Laceydeancoaching

Email: [email protected]

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Trigger Warning: Abuse, manipulation, gaslighting, narcissistic abuse.

Please know you are not alone, and there are resources available to help you along your journey of reclaiming yourself and navigating life after abuse. Please contact The National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1 (800) -799-7233 for more in depth resources and support.

The chaotic roller coaster ride of emotions, unstable foundations, walking on eggshells to avoid world war 3, never feeling safe, yet feeling tied to them still.. The 'hidden' subtle nature of abuse doesn't ever feel subtle, and today we're going to bring it to light.

Toxic (unhealthy) relationships are something we will all face over the course of our lives, in some form of another. Whether it's within a family structure, intimate relationships, the workplace, psychological manipulation and abuse robs us of our relationship to our authentic self, true presence, and the divine connection of our intuition.

In today's solo episode, I share my story about unhealthy relationships stemming from childhood and leading me into various other abusive patterns throughout my life. Please know that you are not alone, this isn't your fault, and your liberation and healing is completely possible. I am a living testament that a vibrant, fulfilling life after exists for YOU not matter what you've experienced.

I want nothing more than to see you step into your power. I promise you, there's hope.

Sending you so much love, today and always.

If this podcast resonated with you, please share it and consider rating it a five star written review. This helps get the message out to more ears who might need to hear it.

Let's connect!

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Email: [email protected] (one-on-one and group coaching opportunities available)

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Get in the Mud Family, It's SO good to be back!

Buckle up, we're challenging narratives.

I am beyond excited to share this episode with you. I had the pleasure of connecting with El Divine Niño, an Artist, Poet, Guide & Actor, and Podcaster who's passion is the human condition. In this conversation, we dive into the concept of narratives, the stories we tell ourselves (and others), and how they are keeping us stuck. If you are struggling, feeling disempowered, questioning, hurting, or have any desire to re-write your story, this episode is for YOU!

"The meaning of El Divine Niño: the divine inner child exists belongs to you. According to the laws of karma the inner child reflects your unfulfilled desires, which compel you to reawaken to the rebirth of the present.

El Niño is a manifestation of the collective unconscious, a testament to the potential You hold within- the divine child.

Every one of us holds divinity and potential. However, it is locked within the inner child. Your life serves an opportunity to heal that child; unlocking your deepest potential, and transmuting the energy and emotions that once paralyzed you into a driving force for creativity & growth."

Connect with El Niño via:

Topics discussed: Narratives, our stories, ego, inner child work, inner child, purpose, reframing, transformation, spirituality, life after trauma, suicide, self-identity, self-love, freedom, meditation, mindfulness, buddhism.

Books mentioned:

Let's connect!

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Email: [email protected] for one-on-one and group coaching information.

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TRIGGER WARNING: In this episode exploring Shadow Work, we discuss some heavy topics such as suicide, assault, abuse, sexual assault, drug use, psychedelics, and use adult language. Please be advised if you are struggling, this might be a hard conversation to hear. You are not alone. All support hotline number’s will be listed below.

In today’s Episode, I am joined by Stephanie Portacio. Founder of the Blooming Beacon, a soul-leading Mindset and Spiritual Coach and Mentor who specializes in Shadow Work.  You can find more of her wonderful content and programs on Instagram at @Steffi.Blooms.

Humanity is multifaceted, complex, and twisty. We all have a wide range of emotions and experiences, thoughts, and unique beliefs that impact the way we choose function within our lives. 

We recognize our light (happiness, joy, bliss, 'the positive'), but facing and feeling the depths of our shadows (sadness, grief, pride, greed, 'the negative'), the contrast can feel SO overwhelming, especially after living REAL, life-shattering experiences.

How do we face the darkest, real experiences we’re still holding onto?

How do we find relief within the stories living in our mind that torment us?

How do we reframe effectively to shift our mindset?

How do we learn to respect and value our deepest    

Domestic Abuse Hotline: (800)-799-7233

Suicide and Crisis Hotline: 988

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST. These collective calls will be a mixture of guided mindfulness practices (such as meditation, visualization, breath-work, journaling practices and so much more), Integration work, and an open discussion time to share, connect, and grow with a likeminded, authentic community along the way. Message @laceydeancoaching or @ourmindatbay (on Instagram) or email [email protected] for more info!

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and getting this message out to the people who need to hear it.

"Trust: assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something one in which confidence is placed." Merriam-Webster 

Trust: SO many of us have experienced life without it. 

Personally, from as early as I can remember, I saw the world through the lens of broken trust, unsafe people, and painful experiences. Little by little, I began building a shield of armor around my heart that I felt would protect me from experiencing that inevitable rupture. 

I began numbing the negative and by default, numbing it all.

How do we learn to trust once our perception of 'safety' and 'security' have been shattered? 

How do we build a solid sense of trust within ourselves after manipulation, gaslighting, and abuse?

How do we lean into the uncertainty of the unknown having experienced real difficulties that have shaped us, our nervous systems, and our realities?

If you've struggled with trust issues, whether within yourself or in relation to others, this episode is for you! 

Topics discussed: Trust, learning to trust, trust after abuse, gaslighting, narcissistic abuse, generational abuse, manipulation, safety, divorce.

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST. These collective calls will be a mixture of guided mindfulness practices (such as meditation, visualization, breath-work, journaling practices and so much more), Integration work, and an open discussion time to share, connect, and grow with a likeminded, authentic community along the way. Message @laceydeancoaching or @ourmindatbay (on Instagram) or email [email protected] for more info!

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and getting this message out to the people who need to hear it.

Please share this episode and tag @getinthemudpodcast for chances to win prizes, get shouted out on the podcast, and support us in getting love, light, and hope out into the world.

We would love to connect with you! For more uplifting content, follow our personal Instagrams:

Lacey: @Laceydeancoaching

Tanya: @ourmindatbay, @Sur_le_divan (French)

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If you are also on the journey of daring to become all that you are meant to be, then this episode is for you.

@brenebrown said it best...

" We can choose courage or we can choose comfort, but we can't have both. Not at the same time.”

- How comfortable are you when you're being called to stretch out of your comfort zone?

- How willing are you to stand in your greatness, when you aren't feeling so great yet?

- How ready are you to start owning your experience of life, in the fullest?

If you feel, if you know you are meant to create a grander, more expansive and more abundant life for yourself, if you're sick of playing small, if you get that you need to start moving (dancing) with the fear, because there's just no such thing as daring safely and you need support in the unveiling of all that you can be, all that you are meant to be - than reach out to us!

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST. These collective calls will be a mixture of guided mindfulness practices (such as meditation, visualization, breath-work, journaling practices and so much more), Integration work, and an open discussion time to share, connect, and grow with a likeminded, authentic community along the way. Message @laceydeancoaching or @ourmindatbay (on Instagram) or email [email protected] for more info!

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and getting this message out to the people who need to hear it.

Please share this episode and tag @getinthemudpodcast for chances to win prizes, get shouted out on the podcast, and support us in getting love, light, and hope out into the world.

We would love to connect with you! For more uplifting content, follow our personal Instagrams:

Lacey: @Laceydeancoaching

Tanya: @ourmindatbay, @Sur_le_divan (French)

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Sources mentioned: 

"Feel The Fear And Do It Anyway: How to Turn Your Fear and Indecision into Confidence and Action" by Susan Jeffers

"We Bought a Zoo" directed by Cameron Crowe

The Power of Gratitude (Part 2) 

Does gratitude really change our lives? How do we actively cultivate gratitude when our physical reality gives us every excuse to feel the polar opposite? How do we overcome fears and reframe to see obstacles through the lens of gratefulness?

If you are curious about the transformational power of gratitude, this episode is for you!

Topics discussed: gratitude, presence, mindfulness, meditation, stillness, awareness, self-awareness, cultivating healthy habits, healthy perspective, mindset, mental health.

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and impacting the world forward.

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST, every week. Open invitation and free for anyone who is interested in slowing down, reconnecting to themselves and a loving community exactly as they are.  Message @laceydeancoaching on IG or [email protected] for the link!  

Please share this episode and tag @getinthemudpodcast for chances to win prizes, be shouted out on the podcast, and support us in getting love, light, and hope out into the world.

We would love to connect with you! For more uplifting content, follow our personal Instagrams:

Lacey: @Laceydeancoaching

Tanya: @Thepact2022, @Sur_le_divan (French)

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Gratitude: What is it and why does everyone say it's so important!?

How many times have we all seen a post or two saying we 'need' more of it, but why? Is there really 'power' in actively cultivating a gratitude practice? How do we choose gratitude in the face of very real feelings, how to we cultivate gratitude when we do not understand the full picture? Does gratitude actually benefit our day-to-day lives?

If you are curious about the transformational power of gratitude, this episode is for you!

Topics discussed: gratitude, presence, mindfulness, meditation, stillness, awareness, self-awareness, cultivating healthy habits, healthy perspective, mindset, mental health.

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and impacting the world forward.

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST. We created this space as a FREE opportunity to slow down, reconnect to ourselves, no matter what mess we're bringing, and also the opportunity to grow/share with a likeminded community. It is truly a sacred space, and we are so grateful to facilitate it. Message @laceydeancoaching on IG or [email protected] for the link!  Every Monday, open invitation.

Please share this episode and tag @getinthemudpodcast for chances to win prizes, be shouted out on the podcast, and support us in getting love, light, and hope out into the world.

We would love to connect with you! For more uplifting content, follow our personal Instagrams:

Lacey: @Laceydeancoaching

Tanya: @Thepact2022, @Sur_le_divan (French)

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Have you ever felt completely overwhelmed by your emotions?

Has it felt forbidden to have needs, to need support, or express what you're feeling without being perceived or treated like a burden?

Do you ever just wish there was a way to 'make it stop'?

This episode is for you. 

You are not alone in your fear, the overwhelm, and in the dark. There is hope, re

Grief, Loss, and Fear are emotions that shake us to our core. How do we navigate them with honesty, gentleness, compassion, and love.

Topics Discussed: Grief, Loss, death, big emotions, emotional regulation, fear, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, suicide

We cannot do this without you! We would be so grateful for a 5-star written review on Apple Podcasts and Spotify, share this episode on your social media and with your people. It makes SUCH a difference in growing our audience and impacting the world forward.

Join us for MESSY N’ MINDFUL Monday night's at 7:30 EST. These collective calls will be a mixture of guided mindfulness practices (such as meditation, visualization, breath-work, journaling practices and so much more), Integration work, and an open discussion time to share, connect, and grow with a likeminded, authentic community along the way. LIFE CHANGING. Message @laceydeancoaching or @thepact2022 (on Instagram) or email [email protected] for more info!

Please share this episode and tag @getinthemudpodcast for chances to win prizes, be shouted out on the podcast, and support us in getting love, light, and hope out into the world.

We would love to connect with you! For more uplifting content, follow our personal Instagrams:

Lacey: @Laceydeancoaching

Tanya: @Thepact2022, @Sur_le_divan (French)

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