*DISCLAIMER if you are experiencing any deep emotions that makes you feel like you can't do life anymore, please seek medical attention. If you feel like you're on your last straw, please reach out to a therapist. It is absolutely fine to need help. In fact I don't feel like we're suppose to do life alone. You're stronger than you may want to believe when making this tough decision.
S.N. Check with your insurance of any kind and employer to see if they cover therapy expenses.