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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with someone who means so much to me, my father-in-law, Tom. This conversation is incredibly special because we loved and lost the same person. I lost my husband, and Tom lost his son.

Together, we reflect on the first year without Tanner and what grief has looked like for each of us. Tom shares stories about raising Tanner, the joy he brought into every room, and the little moments that made him who he was. We also talk about how our bodies remember grief, why a parent's loss is so unique, and how love continues to live on through memories, family, and Tanner's daughter, Amy Lou.

One of my favorite parts of this conversation is simply getting to hear Tom tell stories about Tanner as a little boy. They made me laugh, they made me cry, and they reminded me that the people we love never stop shaping the lives around them.

If you've ever lost someone you love, or if you've wondered what grief looks like from a parent's perspective, I hope this conversation helps you feel seen. It's a reminder that grief changes over time, but love never does. Enjoy this season 1 finale, of Grief Witnessed.🤍

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with Aaron to share the story of his wife, Natalie, who passed away just hours after giving birth to their first son, Parker.

Aaron opens up about the shock of sudden loss, becoming a first-time dad without his wife by his side, and the bittersweet reality of raising a little boy who will know his mom through the stories and legacy she left behind. We also talk about grief, faith, anger toward God, and the hope that can still be found in the middle of unimaginable heartbreak.

This is a conversation about enduring love, finding purpose after loss, and learning to carry both grief and joy at the same time. 🤍

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with one of my very best widow friends, Tamara, to share the story of her husband, Grant.

They met at church, where Grant taught a Sunday School class so loved that people would crowd the room and sit on the floor just to hear him teach. He was a gifted musician, a man of deep faith, and someone who cared deeply about the people around him.

Grant also lived with bipolar disorder. He carried so much shame surrounding his illness but worked incredibly hard to heal and had been doing so well in the years leading up to his death.

While serving a shift at a homeless shelter, he took methadone during a manic episode without fully understanding the danger. Being the kind of person he was, he called Tamara to confess. She rushed to him and performed CPR for 13 agonizing minutes before paramedics arrived.

As a nurse practitioner, Tamara wrestled with overwhelming guilt, wondering how she couldn't save the person she loved most.

In one of the most vulnerable conversations we've had, Tamara also shares what happened after Grant's death. She talks honestly about the unbearable weight of grief, begging God to take her life, and how she slowly found a way to keep living after losing her best friend.

This episode is a powerful reminder that mental illness is not a character flaw, that addiction and bipolar disorder deserve compassion instead of shame, and that even in the deepest despair, hope can begin to grow again.

You can also listen to Grant's music on Spotify under the name Kevat.🩵

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with my friend Heather to share the story of losing her husband, Cameron, just four and a half months after they were married.

Heather opens up about the final day they spent together, the devastating moment she learned Cameron had died in a car accident, and what it was like to become a widow at just 23 years old. We also talk about trauma, dating after loss, finding love again, and the beautiful way her husband, Shawn, has made space for both her grief and her love for Cameron.

This conversation is a reminder that grief changes us, love never disappears, and healing doesn't mean leaving someone behind. 🤍

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with my friend Robin Rosenthal to talk about the sudden loss of her husband, Mark, who passed away unexpectedly from a heart attack after 24 years of marriage.

Together, we talk about navigating life as a young widow, raising children on your own, finding community through grief, and learning to move forward without leaving your person behind.

Robin also shares the beautiful ways she continues to honor Mark's memory and why love doesn't end when someone dies. This conversation is full of honesty, hope, laughter, and practical encouragement for anyone walking through loss.

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with Todd to share the story of his wife, Rachel, and the seven months that changed their family's life forever.

Rachel was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer on her birthday in April of 2023, despite never smoking a day in her life.

Todd remembers reacting with complete panic, while Rachel, despite being devastated, met the diagnosis with incredible calm and clarity. Looking back, Todd shares the guilt he carried, wishing he could have been steadier for her in those first moments.

As Rachel went through treatment, Todd says he felt like he was living in hell. Working in oncology while his own wife was dying from cancer was both a blessing and a burden. His coworkers and patients understood in a way few others could, but there was no escaping the reality they were living.

Todd opens up about the night he knew the end was near, simply by the look in Rachel's eyes. She entered hospice the day before she passed away. In one of the most heartbreaking moments of his story, Todd shares that he stepped away to shower and check on their two children. On his drive back, Rachel died before he could make it to her side.

We also talk about the promise he asked Rachel to make before she died: to somehow let him know she was okay. We talk about how she kept that promise.

This episode is about guilt, grace, signs from the people we love, and learning that the moments we replay in our minds can never outweigh a lifetime of loving someone well. 🤍

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with Peyton Marchant to talk about loving someone so fully that, even in the middle of unimaginable loss, you can look back without regrets.

After Lexi gave birth to their first child, Eddie, the future they had dreamed of together changed forever. She was diagnosed with a rare form of cancer, and instead of settling into life as new parents, they found themselves navigating treatments, uncertainty, and the heartbreaking reality that their time together might be shorter than they ever imagined.

Peyton shares what it looked like to intentionally love Lexi through her illness, to let go of the small things that once seemed important, and to focus on what mattered most. We also talk about the challenges of becoming a single parent, carrying grief while raising a child, and the peace that comes from knowing you truly showed up for the person you love.

This episode is a beautiful reminder that while we can't choose how much time we get, we can choose how we love. And sometimes, that becomes the greatest gift we leave behind.

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In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with my friend Kylee to share the story of her husband, Brett, and the six-year fight that changed their family forever.

Kylee and Brett met at BYU, fell in love quickly, and built a beautiful life together. After eight years of marriage and a young son, Brett was diagnosed with stage 4 colon cancer at just 31 years old. Together, they navigated surgeries, chemotherapy, medical residency, IVF, and the joyful surprise of welcoming twins in the middle of an impossible season.

We talk about what it means to love someone through terminal illness, the sacredness of hospice, the gift of a death doula, and the unforgettable moments of saying goodbye. Kylee also shares what life looks like now, dating after loss, raising three children, and learning that loving someone new never takes away the love you still carry for your spouse.

This conversation is filled with honesty, hope, tears, and laughter. It's a reminder that grief doesn't have an expiration date, and that the deepest loves continue to shape us long after goodbye.

If you've ever loved someone through illness, wondered how to keep moving forward, or needed permission to forever grieve, this episode is for you.

In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with Becca to talk about loving someone through chronic illness, the unexpected shock of sudden loss, and finding love again after heartbreak.

Bekah met Kenyon while working at Sundance, and what started as a snowboarding season romance turned into a marriage full of deep love and unimaginable challenges. Just six months after their wedding, Kenyon underwent life-changing surgeries due to severe ulcerative colitis. Their six and a half years together were marked by caregiving, hospital stays, hope, and learning how to keep loving each other through it all.

When Kenyon unexpectedly passed away in his sleep at just 27 years old, Becca's world shattered overnight. In this conversation, she shares the trauma of sudden loss, the incredible support that carried her through, and how she eventually found joy and love again in her chapter two.

This episode is about the many forms love can take, the resilience of the human heart, and the reminder that grief and joy can exist side by side. 🤍

In this episode of Grief Witnessed, I sit down with Laura to share the story of her love with her husband, Kyle.

The two met on Bumble and knew almost immediately that they had found their soulmate. They got married and soon welcomed their baby girl into the world. Like so many new parents, they found themselves deep in the newborn trenches when Kyle began experiencing severe fatigue. They assumed it was exhaustion from life with a newborn, but after months of searching for answers and countless tests, they learned it was kidney cancer.

Laura shares what it was like to become both a new mom to a baby and a caregiver to her husband, holding onto hope and truly believing that Kyle would get better. She also reflects on how this loss echoed another heartbreak in her life, having lost her mother to breast cancer in 2013.

We talk about how cancer asks everything of both the patient and the people who love them. The way it stretches your capacity to hope, endure, and keep showing up even when you're terrified of what comes next.

This episode is about soulmates, caregiving, and the heartbreak of loving someone enough to believe they'll make it, even when they don't. It's about carrying love forward after loss and finding the courage to keep going. 🤍