While I love my family, I am finding it incredibly difficult to show up in some of the ways the want me to. However I am finding ways to be at peace with how I am showing up and hopefully family will come to understand. Listen to this episode if you are going through expansion in your life and finding it hard to show up for your loved ones. Or even if you have a loved one who hasn't tapped in as much as you would like. 

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Y'all I am so very sorry I couldn't bring the bed episode out of me today. The Vaccine decided to really tap me into oblivion and I barely mustarded the strength to do this episode. However, don't fret because I'll be returning soon with more content and the episode I planned to release! Love you all and hope you guys enjoy me in pain lol.

Returning MAY 5, "I'm Finally Doing This" will be releasing new episodes with a updated structure allowing for a more immersive listening experience that offers examples and better sound quality. Creator, Pyscn Blu, left the podcast till she was able to re-envision and execute this podcast properly. Now that she is back, the show will continue, and it will be better than ever. Tune in every other Wednesday for a new episode, and bonus episodes to appear the following weeks Friday! Get ready for a full years worth of content! Follow @Constellations.ofSol on instagram for updates and information for this podcast, and for Growing Celestially!

Today's episode focuses on Pyscn Blu exploring why they enjoyed "Leave The Door Open" by @silksonic so very much. Tune in to hear her explore the musicality and a bit of the history behind the sound of this song, while also expressing how the song showed up to them in their real life.

Just for the month of april I will be taking a break to come back refreshed and rejuvenated. I have so many ideas and so much content planned for you guys coming in May through July. I actually have these breaks planned after every three months of podcasting! However, I will be releasing a very special episode during the month of April so keep your eyes pealed and your ears ready to hear my silky voice again really soon. 

Starting a new chapter in my life, I took the time to reflect on my birthday this year and how it was disappointing, but ultimately instrumental and helping me progress forward in my life. Main takeaway I've learned is celebrate yourself because no one else will. 

Still I am willing and able to try and evolve past my horrid tendencies when it comes to love and relationships. If you liked to share, I'd love to hear about a time when you had a big crush. Did it work out or did it not work out? In what ways did you grow? Also keep a damn journal yall. Its so beautiful to return to your own very words and experience the emotions you felt at the time. 

Part 3 in this telling of my first major male crush, I go over the ending of a powerful connection I had with a young man. I will be giving a 10 year look back to this confusing, disappointing, and beautiful time in the next episode. Enjoy we jokingly wrap up this monumental time in my life. So happy to have been able to share this with you guys. 

This episode provides a lot of the backstory to the bonus episode titled 'Why Did I Write This Letter?'. 10 years ago I was caught in the rapture of my first real unrequited love. That moment in time really shaped so much of how I pursued relationships going forward. Also was the first time I experienced a deep level of heart break. Many lessons were learned and beautiful raw emotions were born from this experience. I think I will always love going back in thought to explore that innocent and hopeful time.

And why the hell did I record this? Lol (which is even funnier once you listen to this episode. The first episode for the month of Venus. I'll be discussing one of my first romantic interest that blossomed into nothing, but felt amazing along the way. Hope you guys enjoy these stories.