Haifidelity

My time in the midwest following graduation where I ended up homeless, broke, and fifty pounds overweight — guided by an intention to help someone I cared about. I delayed my acceptance into the Peace Corps, declined jobs, and sold everything I had and bought a one-way ticket to Minneapolis.

Following the failed clothing company, I discuss three years spent living with friends, working with friends, and pretty much married to friends, only to have it abruptly end, resulting in a painful and necessary breakup.

A frame by frame explanation of why the relaunch of clothing company Absidee, the project between a motley crew of friends burned hot and fizzled out quickly after it launched.

When listening to my college friend who I revered in addition to a lack of confidence and conflicting sense of pride resulted in me getting dumped within a month by my first somewhat girlfriend who was also my very first kiss.

How totems of belonging like Tamagotchis and the knock-off version I had from Big Lots along with an irregular factory defect Calvin Klein tee from Ross shaped my view of community and identity.

The journey of a Fila windbreaker and my childhood of being bullied and ditching school in a beachside elementary school. Why I cared about clothes at an early age and how that helped me survive my childhood moving every 5-6 months.

Why I thought I could cure my grandmother’s Alzheimer's and dementia through supplements and skin care products -- and the strange cult of Ferragamo belts and a mythical pizza shop messiah who had us all drinking the Kool Aid.

Doing what I was “supposed” to do without having a guideline or context and working at a skate company for a summer, unpaid, without school credit, commuting in a 95’ honda civic that was already breaking down.

Why at age 31, I’m recording this podcast in my kitchen to share my story and connect with others.