Happily Waiting

Dealing with infertility is a very difficult experience. Some will say horrible even terrible and everyone is right. This is because women face different challenges.

- "The sadness and grief it brings are incomprehensible, only those who have been there will comprehend!" - A woman who has overcome this challenge.

We all can, but it takes commitment and persistence and community.

I remember how much hurt, hate, resentment, pain and sorrow I carried around in those days. It was so unhealthy that it extended to everyone; my spouse, siblings, friends, colleagues etc. I didn't like myself because medical reports said I couldn't have a child naturally. I later discovered the level of resentment, dislike and hate I felt towards myself. I had to learn to speak positive affirmations and love to myself. I learned to fall in love with myself again!

You can love yourself again, through scars, medical reports, being overweight and whatever makes you dislike yourself.

Look at yourself in the mirror today and say (insert your name).

I LOVE YOU

I AM ENOUGH

I AM GORGEOUS AND BEAUTIFUL

I LOVE THIS BODY OF MINE

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God bless you as you listen.

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Hello My Listeners!

Welcome to Episode 3. - Know Yourself in Christ

How do you know who I am in Christ?

Who does God say I am?

When a couple has not had children after years of marriage, spouse, relatives, colleagues begin to call the woman/wife names like; Barren, Infertile, worthless, and even call her a man. It is very easy to accept these labels after a while and begin to exhibit them in others/every area of life, this happened to me. I accepted the labels so much I began to see myself in that light. Until one day I read this scripture, Matthew 6:33 “But seek ye first his kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” I had read and quoted it for years but that fateful day it sounded different, it ministered to me in a different way. Seeking God meant knowing Him and if I knew Him, He would tell me who I am. Unlike in the past, this time I joined a community (invited by a Friend and Sister) and I learnt to hear God myself and then know who I was. 

This was my transformation! I read the bible and then got scriptures on fertility and began to quote, recite them everyday because I needed to clear out the negative labels I have heard and accepted for so many years. 

I will share a few with you;

Psalm 113:9 “He settles the childless woman in her home as a happy mother of children. Praise the LORD.”

Deuteronomy 7:14 “You shall be blessed above all peoples. There shall not be male or female barren among you or among your livestock.”

Psalm 128:3 “Your wife will be like a fruitful vine within your house; your children will be like olive shoots around your table.”

Judges 13:2-3 “There was a certain man of Zorah, of the family of the Danites, whose name was Manoah; and his wife was barren and had borne no children. Then the angel of the LORD appeared to the woman and said to her, “Behold now, you are barren and have borne no children, but you shall conceive and give birth to a son.”

I pray that the Holy Spirit will guide you to the scriptures that you need in this season and will resonate with you in Jesus’s name. Amen

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Hello my Listeners,

Episode 2: It's Okay To Grief for What Should Have Been

Grief is a response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone or some living thing that has died, to which a bond or affection was formed or response to a major loss such as the death of a loved one, serious, long term terminal illness. It includes feelings of great sadness, anger, guilt and despair.

There are five stages of grief; Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. Most times these stages are not experienced in a linear motion or we don't go through all the stages. The one stage I focused on more in this episode is "Acceptance", accepting that what should have been, did not come to pass.

It is not easy to get to the place of acceptance because it reaps out your heart and makes it feel like salt is being poured on a fresh wound. It HURTS!

Acceptance does not meet, we get over the feeling of loss, disappointment, pain, sorrow, NO. It only helps us to move on, to learn to live again.

I felt I had no right to live again because of the guilt and inadequacy I feel in myself and my body. But I found out I was losing on some good moments in life. I pushed everyone away or kept them at arm's length.

When I accepted that the out of the procedures were negative, the miscarriage and abortions, I chose to live again for the children that will be conceived and will stay and be born in sound health and call me Mama. The ones that I will play in the garden, beach with and run around the house playing hide and seek.

Then I got a scripture to help me through it, Psalms 34:18 AMP; "The Lord is near to the heartbroken, And He saves those who are crushed in spirit" God is a gracious and a glorious God. He has held my hands through this journey. And yes, there are times I still break down but I find that I rise up stronger and more resolved than the last time and Hope just keeps stirring up in my spirit.

I pray that the Holy Spirit will enter your hearts and heal your broken hearts and give you the strength to live again Mama.

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Hello My Listeners!

Welcome to Episode 1. - It's Okay to Not be Okay

I will be sharing how I came to the point where I discovered I was not okay mentally and I needed help.

In accepting where I was and reaching out for the help I needed, I learnt self love. Because I had accepted the many negative labels given to me by people and the medical reports, I did not see the effect it had on my mental health, physical well being, career, business and marriage. Everything was dark and I hardly looked forward to positive news.

It took coming across a webinar that had to do with dealing with trauma, loss, hurt and abuse that I got to see how down the dark hole and deep into depression I was. I didn't like anything about myself, I didn't see myself as anything/anyone good, fruitful, enough, or whole. But as I could identify I was not okay and it was normal to have low times and understand the root of the emotions, I learnt to address the emotions, love myself and seek God's help in seeing myself through His eyes.

I began to speak words of affirmation to myself in the state of 'not okay' to get to 'okay'. Our words are powerful and they are weapons. What you speak over yourself is what you subconsciously become.

Say this;

I am Beautiful

I am Whole

I am Enough

I am Fertile

I Love Myself.

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Hello My Listeners!

Welcome to Happily Waiting Podcast Season 2!!!!!!!

It is an absolute honor to be sharing with you this season.

In the episodes to come I will be sharing my journey and the process of self discovery for the past two years. It ha been an experience laced with a lot of emotions that have included bitterness, anger, resentment, zero self esteem, etc.

I will be sharing how despite my struggles with the infertility journey, I also had to go through some life changing and wrecking experiences.

But in all of these, I found myself.

I found Abba Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit and they helped me through the dark path of nothingness to fullness, joy and knowing who I truly am and not letting the many labels of infertility continue to define me.

I learnt to let God teach me to live, love myself, trust myself, forgive myself and find wholeness.

I enjoin you to please have an open heart as you listen to these episodes and let the Holy Spirit. I know the journey has and still is one of great pain, sorrow and disappointments, I have experienced it but I can tell you be can find wholeness, peace and happiness.

It will not be an easy process, but it will be worth every bit of it.

If you have any questions, contributions or comments, please send an email to [email protected]

God bless you as you listen.

Thank you.

In this episode just like the title Uncensored, the words were shared from my heart to you. Please listen with an earpiece and in a quiet place. Recording volume quite low. To contact me email - [email protected] or Whatsapp +2348161102397. Thank you 🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

This episode it to simply find out how we are mentally fairing with all that’s been happening this season. 🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

This episode talks about the fruitfulness of the woman as said in Ps 128:3(ESV). Every woman is created as a fruitful vine. 🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

In this episode, I share my challenge recording and how you can be of help to me by giving me your feedback. Contact details are mentioned. 🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺

Have you been able to share you waiting experience with anyone? Can you talk about the hurt, pain and how it has shaped you? Will you be willing to encourage someone with your story?🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺🌺