Were we lied to about hell?

This week, I am joined by Brian Recker, a pastor's kid, former minister, and author of Hell Bent. Brian asked the question most of us were taught to fear: Is the hell we grew up with actually biblical?

Brian shares how studying Scripture and church history unraveled fear-based theology and led him into a deeper and more loving experience of God. We talk about the harm of "turn or burn" messaging, what Jesus really taught, and how letting go of hell did not destroy Brian's faith, it healed it.

If you grew up terrified of eternal punishment, this conversation offers clarity, freedom, and hope.

-

Brian Recker’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/berecker/

Brian Recker’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@brianrecker5

Hell Bent: https://www.penguinrandomhouse.com/books/771172/hell-bent-by-brian-recker/

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Maddie Zahm grew up in a Christian home where she took her purity seriously and poured her heart into worship leading. Years later, after auditioning for American Idol, she began writing the kind of songs that reach straight into the stories of those deconstructing their faith and identity.

Her song “You Might Not Like Her” became an anthem for anyone learning to love themselves after leaving shame based systems (including me). In this conversation, Maddie opens up about coming out to her family, finding her community, and the beautiful, messy process of discovering who you truly are.

-

Maddie Zahm’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/maddiezahm/

Maddie Zahm’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@maddiezahm

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Monte was raised in rural Wyoming to believe she might have to die for her faith.
Growing up under alt-right Christian nationalism, her family prepared for war, built a bunker, and warned her that Democrats would come to kill them. She was taught to shoot at a young age and to see obedience as holiness.

Seen as her father’s “chosen one,” she was encouraged to get an education so she could “change the world for God.” She signed a purity contract and learned that her worth was tied to submission and control. Years later, after escaping the abuse and fear that defined her childhood, Monte began rebuilding her life, teaching others what the Bible actually says, and using her voice to fight Christian nationalism.

-

Monte’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/montemader/

Monte’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@montemader

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 of 2

Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.

In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.

-

Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/

Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 2

Victoria joined Bethel School of Supernatural Ministry at a pivotal time in her life, hoping to grow in her faith and purpose. During her time there, she began an internship with Nick and Jess, a couple who led a group of students through life coaching and emotional healing practices. What started as mentorship quickly shifted into something harmful, as Victoria found herself leading unlicensed “therapy” sessions, participating in anxiety inducing trust exercises, and watching leaders blur the lines between spiritual growth and manipulation.

In this episode, Victoria opens up about how a program built on transformation and vulnerability became a system of control. She shares how the pressure to perform, obey, and protect her leaders led to emotional and spiritual harm, and what it took to reclaim her voice after being coached into silence.

-

Victoria’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/victoriagreerhathaway/

Victoria’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@victoriagreerhathaway

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Azriél Crews, actor, writer, and daughter of Terry Crews, grew up in front of the cameras on her family’s reality show The Family Crews. As a teenager, she signed a purity pledge on national TV, turning her private coming-of-age into a public spectacle.

In this episode, Azriél opens up about navigating faith, fame, and identity in the spotlight. She shares how college gave her the space to embrace who she truly is, her journey of deconstruction, and how she now uses humor (and a touch of “nepo baby” honesty) to tell stories about healing, queerness, and self-acceptance.

-

Azriel’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/azrielpatricia/

Azriel’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@azrielpatricia

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

I’ve known Jade since middle school, and I’ve watched her story unfold over the years. After college, she married her wife in what seemed like a dream come true. They even won a free elopement in a contest, creating memories that felt magical in so many ways.

But after seven years together, everything unraveled in a matter of days. A series of accusations and bizarre circumstances ended the marriage suddenly, and the two never spoke again. Jade first shared pieces of her story on TikTok, where her series caught attention, and now she is here to share the full journey.

From fairytale beginnings to an abrupt and painful ending, Jade opens up about how she picked up the pieces, rebuilt her life, and is now chasing her passions with resilience and strength.

-

Jade’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/jade.nyasia/

Jade’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@jade.nyasia

Sixth Seat: https://www.instagram.com/sixth.seat/

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 1

Colten grew up in the Holiness movement, a Pentecostal tradition with even stricter rules than most. In his church, women were not allowed to cut their hair, wear jewelry, or even wear pants. Baptism had to be done in a very specific way, or else your eternity was on the line. His dad was the pastor, and Colten took those rules to heart, believing his salvation depended on them.

In this episode, Colten shares vivid memories of his upbringing, including the moment he broke down sobbing after seeing his mom wear pants for the first time because he believed she was going to hell. He talks about what it was like to go to seminary, to begin evaluating what he had been taught, and how he has turned those experiences into knowledge he now shares with thousands of people on TikTok.

-

Colten’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coltenbarnaby/

Colten’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coltenbarnaby

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 1 of 1

CW: mentions of suicide

You may know Gabrielle Stone as the bestselling author of Eat, Pray, #FML, where she chronicles the wildest year of her life: discovering her husband’s affair with a 19-year-old, falling into a whirlwind romance, and then getting dumped just before a month-long trip to Europe. But her story doesn’t begin or end there.

In this conversation, Gabrielle opens up about the layers of loss and heartbreak that shaped her. She shares about losing her father at a young age, grieving the death of a boyfriend, and living with the belief that everyone she loved would eventually die. We talk about the pain that inspired her to write, the healing she’s done since, and the vibrant life and community she has built today.

This episode is about love, grief, resilience, and rewriting your story even when the plot twists are unthinkable.

-

Gabrielle’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/gabriellestone/

Gabrielle’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@gabrielle_stone

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8⁠

Part 2 or 2

Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People. From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with Teen Mania, he toured with Acquire the Fire, lived on just $5 a day, telemarketed for Jesus, and was pushed into purity culture teachings that took years to unpack.

In this episode, Corey shares what it meant to grow up in a world of extreme legalism disguised as discipleship, as well as how he is finding freedom and healing after leaving.

-

Corey’s IG: https://www.instagram.com/coreylwright/

Corey’s Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@coreylwright

-

Patreon: ⁠https://www.patreon.com/Healedish⁠

Follow for more:  

Jubilee’s TikTok: ⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@jubileedawns⁠

 Jubilee’s IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/jubileedawns⁠

 Healed-ish TikTok: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.tiktok.com/@healedishpodcast⁠

 Healed-ish IG: ⁠⁠⁠⁠https://www.instagram.com/healedishpodcast⁠

 Apply To Share Your Story: ⁠⁠⁠https://forms.gle/23f8SPBX1VntsqUU8