If you've ever wanted to live in your van, but you've thought, "How in the hell can I make money on the road?" then this episode is for you.

so i'm not gonna lie, craig - i'm past the point of empty right now. 

i'm exhausted mentally. 

every day, 7 days a week from before sun up to past sunset, i am at my computer working.

there are so many gears going at once, and i have to constantly switch them up that i feel like i'm not being efficient with my time.

even right now, as i record this, and probably even while i'm listening to it back in editing, i'll be thinking, "there are other things that i need to be doing right now."

but the truth is, i'm realizing that this little project that you're listening to has always been more about putting my intentions out into the world and using that to hold myself accountable. 

happy february everybody. i did the thing i said i was gonna do. i fired myself.

i'll be honest, this is the only time i've ever left a job without having "another job" lined up.  not to say i don't have big plans, but this is the only time i've ever planned to not get a traditional job again.

but blue, have you lost your damn mind? is this some kind of mid life crisis where you desperately cling to delusions of no responsibilities no working make hippie amanda something something?

yes! and no! i don't know yet!

so i think i quit my job. and i don't have another job lined up.  follow along as i contemplate throwing myself into a den of lions in this episode of "what the fuck have you done, blue?"

this is a van life episode. i'm gonna answer a few of the weird questions i get when people find out i live in my great white shark.

some of my favorites are:

"what do you like, do in here?"

"doesn't it get hot?"

"how do you poop?"

and my favorite assumption -

"sooo i guess you don't shower?"