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One of the UK's longest-surviving people with HIV, diagnosed in October 1982, on bathhouses in San Francisco, standing in the darkest corner of the bar, and why a man in crimson pantaloons saved his life.
Summary
In 1982, Jonathan Blake was a 33-year-old actor waiting tables at Joe Allen in Covent Garden. London was horny. He'd just come back from San Francisco and the steam baths. His lymph nodes swelled until he was walking like a gorilla. At the Middlesex Hospital, the cultures took a couple of days. When the results came back: you have a virus, there is no cure, you've got between two and nine months to live. But you can go home.
He felt like a modern-day leper. He would go to the bars in Earl's Court and stand in the darkest corner - wanting people but unable to engage. What was his opening line? Hello, my name is Jonathan, I have this killer virus coursing through my veins. He planned suicide: a hot bath, pills, razorblades. Then his mother's voice: Jonathan, you clear up your own mess. So like a nice Jewish boy, if you can't kill yourself, you better get on and live.
On 1 April 1983, he saw a tiny advert in Capital Gay for a coach to Greenham Common. It said: everybody welcome. As he turned to flee, a voice said: hello, my name is Nigel. Green Wellington boots, crimson pantaloons, a mop of black curly hair. Nigel brought banana and two jam doughnuts to tea and suggested they squat together in Brixton. Jonathan thought: I've got about two months to live. Why not? They were companions for almost 38 years. Jonathan refused AZT, refused the Concorde trial, and survived to combination therapy in 1996. The morning of the fourth week, he woke with such energy he laid a patio. It's still there.
Key Moments
- [00:00] "You have a virus" - diagnosed at the Middlesex Hospital, two to nine months to live, but you can go home
- [04:33] San Francisco steam baths - Turkish baths, fuck rooms, and the year before everything changed
- [09:51] The darkest corner of the bar - wanting people but unable to speak, and the worst chat-up line in history
- [12:41] The Roman way - planning suicide, and a Jewish mother's voice pulling him back
- [14:50] 1 April 1983 - the tiny advert, the coach to Greenham Common, and the man in crimson pantaloons who gave him a life
- [22:43] English National Opera - a letter on a noticeboard thanking colleagues for supporting a man who'd died of AIDS, and thinking: when I get ill, they'll understand
- [26:56] Refusing AZT - the Concorde trial, the belief that never touching the drug is why he's still alive
- [33:14] The morning of the fourth week - combination therapy, the energy of Atlas, and a patio that's still there
- [41:30] U=U - the first unprotected sex since before 1982
- [45:07] Care homes and the closet - the biggest fear of ageing: I ain't going back in the closet
Dedication
Jonathan remembers George Hudson, met in the Coleherne in 1977, and Nigel Young, who gave him a life and died in 2022.
About Jonathan Blake
Jonathan Blake was diagnosed with HIV in October 1982 and is one of the UK's longest-term survivors. An actor, tailor, and activist, his role in Lesbians and Gays Support the Miners was depicted in the film Pride. He lives in south London with a contorted hazel tree he planted in 1989 - a tree injected with something that makes it grow differently, just like him.
Resources
- Terrence Higgins Trust
- Food Chain
- National AIDS Trust
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