Home Is Where The Body Is

In this episode, I explore how “misaugyny” put a chip on my shoulder very early in my working life. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• Naming “misaugyny” (00:54)
• When systemic bias puts a chip on your shoulder (07:53)
• Autistic women statistics (13:43)

Resources mentioned: 

• “Misaugyny” - https://medium.com/@autieadventures/misaugyny-the-relationship-between-misogyny-and-autism-e6d7df8a39a4
• “Autistiphobia” - https://autismspectrumnews.org/this-is-what-autistiphobia-looks-like-why-autistic-advocacy-matters/
• Why female autism is questioned - https://embrace-autism.com/why-female-autism-is-questioned/
• Danish suicide study - https://jamanetwork.com/journals/jamanetworkopen/fullarticle/2774853
• French sexual violence study - https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC9087551/

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In this episode, I explore what I’ve learned from my attempts at content creation. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• The inherent value of self-expression (00:54)
• The value of “bad” art (04:02)
• The many benefits of creative self-expression (05:39)

This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more.

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In this episode, I explore my eye-opening reaction to the book Anti-Diet. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• Anti-Diet (00:54)
• Worth is not measured by numbers on a scale, or paycheck (12:14)
• I AM okay, not I will be okay (20:32)
• Body positivity within the patriarchy (27:49)

Resources mentioned: 

• Anti-Diet: Reclaim Your Time, Money, Well-Being, and Happiness Through Intuitive Eating by Christy Harrison
• Weight stigma is stressful: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/24997407/ (Explains how weight stigma itself contributes to physiological stress and poorer health outcomes independent of BMI)
• Long-term Effects of Dieting: https://compass.onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/abs/10.1111/spc3.12076 (A review revealing that dieting rarely leads to long-term weight loss and often doesn’t improve health outcomes)
• Long term maintenance of weight loss …: https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/25134100/ (Shows that even with structured programs, most people regain lost weight over time, with limited evidence of long-term maintenance)
• The Body is Not an Apology by Sonya Renee Taylor 

This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more.

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In this episode, I explore shifting from prioritizing survival for survival’s sake, to prioritizing alignment with my true self. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• Living in alignment with true self (01:36)
• Liberation from outcome attachment (22:10)
• An internal anchor, existential integrity (27:47)

This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more.

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In this episode, I explore how a shift from the Christianity of my childhood to non-theistic Satanism allowed me to break the internalized link between love, control, and self-erasure. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• A new blog! (00:54)
• When choice is not a choice (02:29)
• Reclaiming belonging to myself first (08:14)
• From external to internal validation (15:36)

This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on my blog. Visit What My Connective Tissue Knows to read more.

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In this episode, I explore institutional gaslighting in the context of family court, specifically my mother’s failed attempt to divorce my father when I was a kid. I reflect on how recognizing and learning about institutional gaslighting shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• Gaslighting in court (00:54)
• Recognizing institutional gaslighting (06:21)
• Emotionally detaching to reclaim safety (14:04)

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In this episode, I explore how recognizing the humanity in my abusers allowed me to build empathy for them, and to simultaneously set firmer boundaries with them. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• My abusers were human, CW: suicide and physical/sexual abuse (00:54)
• But empathy is not obligation (10:01)
• It’s about boundaries (22:02)

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In this episode, I explore how recognizing the interaction between neurodivergence, physical disability, and generation trauma gave me the power to shift the narrative relating to my lifelong sense of alienation. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about:

• Recognizing the pattern (00:54)
• Shifting the narrative (07:06)
• Reclaiming internal power (17:09)

Resources mentioned: 

• What My Bones Know by Stephanie Foo
• Rage Becomes Her by Soraya Chemaly 

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Home is Where the Body Is is my reflective podcast about searching for home, and slowly realizing it’s something built from the inside out.

I’m Jenn, an autistic woman living with complex trauma and chronic illness. Through specific moments and lived experience, I explore trauma processing, nervous system repair, inner child care, and the lifelong work of becoming my own first and truest home.

New episodes every Wednesday.
If you’ve ever felt like home was just out of reach, you’re welcome here.