EPISODE 15 IS DETAILING THE MOST TRAUMATIC AND LIFE CHANGING TIMEPERIOD IN MY LIFE....IT WAS A SUMMER WHERE I WAS JUST PARTYING AND BEING SELFISH.... AND I PAID A PRICE FOR WANTING TO JUST HAVE FUN ALL THE TIME.

TRAUMA-PTSD-ALCOHOL ADDICTION-TOXIC FRIENDS by JOHN SCHAEFER

FOLLOW MY LONG DARK , ENLIGHTENING ROAD OUT OF HELL!!!!!!!

AS AN ADDICT, YOUNG MALE , GROWING UP IN AMERICA, AND LOVING TRAVELING AND ROCK AND ROLL--- I'M LEARNING FROM ALL THE SELFISH TOXIC BEHAVIOR AND COMMITTED TO SELF GROWTH SELF AWARENESS AND EVOLVING AS INDIVIDUALS!!!

My life had been shattered into pieces and I felt in a lot of ways I deserved everything that was happening to me....All of my choices slowly brought me to my own corner of hell....opiate addiction-a bad ugly break up, using alcohol to cope and forget. Intead of facing it all and learning from it all......focused on working in Denver and getting experience in the kitchens! Threw myself into the city and tried to focus on career oriented lifestyle......but I wasn't happy and I needed to heal.

PTSD and addiction almost killed me. It did in a way.

EPISODE 11 ---

FOLLOW ME AND MY QUEST TO OVERCOME ADDICTION-HEARTBREAK- AND BEING AN IMMATURE YOUNG MAN IN AMERICA--AS AN ADDICT AND PTSD/TBI SURVIVOR !!!!

FOLLOW MY ROAD OUT OF HELL!

THIS IS THE STORY ABOUT THE MOST TRAUMATIC TIME PERIOD IN MY LIFE---- THE SUMMER THAT CHANGED ME-FOREVER.

A PART OF ME DIED THAT SUMMER OF 2012......I WAS CAUGHT UP IN ALL THE MATERIALISTIC AND CHEAP TEMPORARY PLEASURES.

SELFISH AND IMMATURE--NAIVE AND UNEDUCATED.

THE AURORA THEATER SHOOTING HAPPENS ONE NIGHT....2 MILES AWAY FROM OUR PLACE....I WAS ASSAULTED AND SUFFERED A CONCUSSION -- PTSD--- AND OPIATE ADDICTION.....FOLLOWED BY---MY THEN GIRLFRIEND--LEAVING ME FOR MY YOUNGER BROTHER.

PICKING MYSELF UP AND DUSTING MYSELF OFF....TRYING TO BUILD AND FIND MY HOME IN THIS WORLD. THIS WAS FROM 2012 IN COLORADO..... IT CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER.

AS OF 2020 MY BROTHER A I HAVE WORKED THROUGH A LOT AND HAVE BEEN BUILDING A NEW HEALTHY MATURE RELATIONSHIP. WE'VE BEEN ABLE TO LEARN AND GROW FROM THE PAIN.

FOLLOW MY JOURNEY AS A YOUNG MAN IN AMERICA-DEALING WITH OPIATE ADDICTION AND ALCOHOL!!!! MY LONG HARD ROAD OUT OF HELL!

FOLLOW MY JOURNEY AS AN ADDICT

LIVING IN AMERICA !

MY GOAL IS TO HELP YOU REACH FOR A HIGHER QUALITY OF LIFE--

FOLLOW THE JOURNEY AND LISTEN TO ADVISE FROM AN AMERICAN ADDICT AND ESCAPING PERSONAL HELL.

I did a little special-- just talking....jumping from topic to topic---some memories and stories and more lessons from my journey out of hell......

I just wanted to talk and shoot some subjects around!

This isn't the regular show---this is more current....but also bouncing back and forth from different things.....lol....just wanted to talk to you....just wanted to riff and shoot the shit with you.