Honest Vibes Only

Branching out of my solo segments, I join forces with Keaton Kiewra and Kevin (KDLearns) to bring you episodes where we shed light on topics related to chess, mental health and content creation. Our aim is to discuss common issues that players and creators in the chess community face throughout their journey.

life is always throwing a new challenge my way. short life update, hope to be back more consistently soon. love you all.

after a tough week and some saddening news, i decided it's time to open up about those struggles not spoken about enough. i talk about my battle with depression, struggles with suicide, difficulty fighting mental health alone and how important it is to reach out and be there for one another.

A little different from previous episodes; I quote notes I took from an episode on the Matthias J Barker podcast in 'Forgiving Your Parents' and relate what he says to my personal experiences growing up. His profound ways of explaining forgiveness in relation to parental debt has helped me on my journey with healing and I am happy to pass on some of what I have learned through him in this episode.

Today officially marks one year of moving out of my parent's place and being on my own. I recap how I've grown throughout the past year, experiences I've had, what I've learned about adulthood so far and more. Today is a special milestone for me. Thank you for all the support the past year, it means the world.

In this episode, I dive into how important it is to have a voice. This is especially true having come from a background filled with trauma, where my perspective was shut down and invalidated whenever it was expressed. This past week, I describe an enlightening experience, and I express how refreshing and powerful it was to have my voice heard.

It has been two months since I posted an episode so to get back into the swing of posting, in this episode I talk about my goals with the podcast and in general for the new year!

Content full speed ahead with weekly episodes!

I delve into the process of creating my own moral code. I start talking about the code I grew up with and how that affected the way I would make decisions and live my life. Recently, I've had a big realization: Being an adult living on my own has allowed me to rethink that belief system. I talk about my process on breaking down the previous belief system I grew up on and how I am slowly creating my new system today. I talk about the pros and cons of living by my own code and how it relates with how I make choices in adulthood.

What is an inner child exactly? I dive into the literal definition of it and how my childhood trauma affected my own inner child. I talk about the steps I take to insure that it gets expressed in my life today as well as the societal taboos of adults indulging in their inner child.

What does feeling safe mean to me? A term I only recently came to understand and experience. What is safety to me, why have I not been able to experience it, and how does my childhood trauma neurobiologically affect my sense of safety in adulthood? I dive into a conversation of my journey to understanding and experiencing safety and how crucial it is for me to experience it in order to function.