I tend to focus on my "Severe Depressive Suicidal Episodes"... but I am learning more about that "Constant State of Depression" - or simply stated "I am Depressed."

I visit the differences in both ... and ask the question that perhaps some of us THINK we know the answer to? Which Depression is Worse?

I share some stories from my past... involving my work in Sales for DJ production company, something my ex-sister-in law said to me that I'll Never Forget ...

Lastly, I give a message to those out there ... NOT necessarily "suffering" from depression ... but NOT HAPPY. Those of you, dear friends, who are just ACCEPTING what your life is in this moment. .... I explain... in a character's voice that you will never forget ... that SETTLING IS UNACCEPTABLE.

Thank you for Listening - and I LOVE HEARING FROM YOU! Tell me something in your life right now... that you are realizing after THIS episode ... is completely UNACCEPTABLE.

Love Always,

Alana

THIS ... get ready to laugh people!!! I auditioned for the NATIONAL TOUR of Footloose when I was in high school... this visits that adventure ... and also involves a secondary story of when I directed the NYSNC DEBUT in 1998....

The overall theme here is something that I am proud of. I talk about how when these opportunities came around ... I never said to myself "I really hope I win this... Or I hope I get this spot on the national tour..." I WAS ALWAYS CONVINCED ... THAT I JUST WOULD.

So when I am gracing the stages all over the nation... and then all over the world... I want to make sure EVERYONE hears that part. I WAS ALWAYS CONVINCED ... THAT I WOULD MAKE IT.

SO ... Let's STOP doubting ourselves - imagine if we ALL just KNEW we COULD??? and that we WOULD??? Let's do this ... .and make sure to pee before you listen!!! Hahahahah ... LOVE this one.

Love Always,

Alana

The title of this episode ... were literally SPOKEN by our Pastor On Easter Sunday. It totally makes sense ... it fits my beliefs, my signs, my faith ...

I talk a lot about that word "ABUNDANCE".... right before I recorded this... I said to myself "WHAT EVEN IS ABUNDANCE???" This word keeps coming up ... I am seeing it, I am hearing it ... and then I realize.... it's because I am FEELING it.

I invite YOU to listen ... and then truly believe your own ABUNDANCE has already happened .... and THAT is when you will see everything around you .... CHANGE. FOR. THE. GOOD.

Thank you for Listening - Email Me! [email protected]

Love Always,

Alana

You have to listen to this one to Understand the title! It's recorded after a really "bad" night of missing my Dad ... should we really call these moments "bad" though? I am thinking of that in this moment ... these moments, and they are usually not much more than fleeting... are perhaps the "winks from Earth" that we send to our loved ones in the clouds?

Anyway ... I compare the feeling of the waves of grief and having that feeling of drowning... the time i LITERALLY almost drowned in a Glazed Donut!

SO... you might cry ... but I promise you will also Laugh ... and never forget the story I am about to tell ... Thank you for listening everyone.

With Love Always,

Alana

The word "Partner" to describe the person you are with ... Husband, Wife, Girlfriend, Boyfriend... Significant Other.... Always sounded weird to me.

But ... today I realize how important it is to have a TRUE PARTNER. I visit a lot of ideas on how you need to be with someone who can be the Stop Sign ... Or Yield Sign in your brain when your mind starts to go down the rabbit hole.... and even more importantly, someone that you trust enough to be the Conductor to your runaway train.... someone who, no matter WHAT ... will ALWAYS bring you back on track.

I feel so beyond lucky that just when My conductor left this Earth (My Dad) he sent me another one to keep me safe on my travels ... which are about to get PRETTY CRAZY (but in the best way).

Thank you for listening! ALLLL ABOARD!!!!!

Love, Alana.

"Dear Younger Me' - by MercyMe.

A song that has always been SOOOOO huge ... as the first time I heard it was 2013 during/after my first diagnosed Hypomanic/Depressive episodes of Bipolar Disorder. It always made me cry. ... Today... I hear it... and I still cry, but for different reasons.

It's Easter Sunday ... and I reflect on how the idea of being "Sacrificed to Save" ... rings true in numerous ways in my Life ...

This is a short listen, but an impactful one. I invite you to listen... and perhaps write a letter to YOUR "Younger Me.."

Thank you for listening everyone... Wishing you a very Happy Easter.... remember this is the ONLY Easter you will EVER have in the year of 2026 ... So, let's make it COUNT.

In the words of the awesome show... "Cobra Kai" ... I am here to FLIP THE EFFING SCRIPT!

I think you will all like this one .... It's more upbeat... a few "EFF" bombs ... and a lot of OPINION. I talk in a bit of a lighter way about some serious topics... and hopefully will allow ALL of you to change your perspective ... but instead of crying ... You will be laughing with this one!

I also briefly visit the idea of ... doing something, sending something, texting something, posting something ... and then MOVE ON. Do not re-read, do not edit, do not overthink... delete the text thread, delete the sent email... we all get hung up on what we said... how we said it... when we posted it .... LET. IT. GO - we all have bigger and better things in front of us ... to keep looking behind us.

And then?? START FLIPPING YOUR EFFING SCRIPT ...who cares what everyone "knows you for"?? Who do YOU want to be? What do YOU want to be known for? Do what you want, say what you want ... but do it all with INTENTION. BE. INTENTIONAL ... TAKE A PAUSE before you SAY or DO IT ... and then watch how things will begin to change.

Love Always,

Alana - and of course THANK YOU FOR LISTENING!

This is an OPEN letter to ALL parents .... If you have any desire to save our Children (and adults) from suicide ... I ask that you please listen to this 7 MINUTE Recording.

I want to spread this message more than I have ever wanted anything in my life... I am willing to speak in front of 5 parents .. 500 .. or 5,000. EVERYONE needs to hear this. Not just Parents ... but all humans.

I change the perspective on Suicide ... from my own personal experience of my OWN brain lying to me .... more than once, telling me this world would be a better place WITHOUT ME HERE. Please listen ... send.... share ... post. With every person who can hear this, that is another life we might be saving.

Thank you for listening as Always ...

Love, Alana

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STOP AND LISTEN FOR FIVE (5) MINUTES!!

This is the SHORTEST but possibly MOST IMPORTANT recording I have done TO DATE.

It is a letter to our New Jersey Senator ... CORY BOOKER! (What a great name right? Sounds like a Celebrity)... ANYWAY... take a listen, it speaks for itself.

I focus on the schools/children... but I am very passionate about spreading this message to anyone and everyone who will listen. So if you know of an organization or a group that you feel would benefit from hearing a different perspective on SUICIDE AWARENESS & PREVENTION -

Please EMAIL ME (or comment on the Episode)

[email protected]

Do you have someone in your life... that is "unhealthy" in some way??? Drinking... Heart Disease.... Diabetes... Abusive Relationship.... and you find yourself consumed with worry for them, and every chance you get ... you tell them what they "need" to do???

Well... then.... this is a "MUST HEAR" for you.

I loved this one ... I recorded it later in the evening, so by the time I listened to it back in the morning, I had forgotten a lot of what I said ... and I think I say a lot of things that my listeners (or My "Fan Club") ... really needs to hear. Thank you as always for Listening .... and for really HEARING me.