There is no “1 800 let’s get this over with” in the healing journey - it’s a commitment to yourself that has no time - the healing evolves as emotions are released .. truth seen ..you’re are dismantled, dug up & replanted...it’s not your schedule ..if you’re doing ayahuasca don’t count on “any” schedule ..

Yes... Act one scene one was going on well before you arrived.. everyone was loaded with their own baggage ...just waiting... you’re like the billiard ball ready to be “acted upon” .. will you show up or disappear? Will they blossom or devour your.. who knows?? But if your ambushed the ayahuasca is the navy seal team to pull you out..

How much of you is hidden? Your ego will proclaim NOTHING ..:) the AYahuasca will show you exactly how much ... & sometimes that’s a continents worth of “drag” ... who knew?? & Thank god.. the journey is treacherous magical & enlightening - next...

The unknown terrifies us so people use that fear to “idolize” it.. meditation plant medecines ... there’s a “holier than thou” pitch .. fugaadabout it.. embrace it.. humanize it.. make it yours .. yes anything new is “scary” - so is surgery but it doesn’t stop you from believing a “doctor”... go make the world your & let it heal you ...

Shedding keeps you flowing.. egos don’t want to budge.. like the stock market they like predictable safety .. but if trauma owns even a tiny part of your energetic real estate you will stay stuck .. the sandcastle that refuses to be transformed by the wave will suffer.. shed!

Once you start dissolving fear will show up.. your beliefs melting you will enter other dimensions .. keep dissolving ...you will be scared you will continue to trust & be healed ..

The path is never really clear..how it starts .. where you’re going.. it takes you..this is a look back at the map that now begins to make sense .. a little bit for now on a journey that started with “the perfect life:)

In the world of trauma you’re “wrong” “unacceptable” - if you’re being hurt the message is “it’s you” - you need to change to accommodate them .. the ayahuasca will reveal your authenticity.. will love & accept all of “your” truth so you can live “that”

In the end we want that sweet infinite taste of love.. vulnerable unconditional eternal divine.. to bathe in its infinite glory.. in trauma it is shut down and locked away.. the ayahuasca guides you too it after you’ve crossed the moat:)

The way home is the way back to love .. yes horrific things happened .. ( I pretended they didn’t) but it’s not the horror that’s the hell its the eviction from love ... the ayahuasca is the great guide back through the darkness.. stick close to her & she will return you home