I am OPTimist

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Enough is enough! all the BS can lead to individual action, it is what triggers single individuals to R3-Volt.

I am not enticing anything; I am just observing and rejoicing that the heavens are supporting this. In the meantime:

I am reflecting on how best to handle the rapid pace of life. I've found myself increasingly focused on managing my attention and aligning with the receptive nature of my mind. This involves recognizing when to take a step back, maintaining awareness of my needs and desires, and identifying recurring patterns.

This stems from a deep observation of the potentials as portals, the quality they are structured within their evolutionary process and understanding of my correctness, how I resonate within my own body allowing information to be absorbed by my brain and immediate environment. While I acknowledge the reality around me and recognize the ongoing conditioning and restrictions that affect it. What motives me will be the way I perceive things.

How do we discern what's truly important? Our senses constantly receive this information, but our perception filters what we absorb. We are meant to be oriented naturally to our path if we follow our strategy and authority. It's crucial to attune ourselves to the vibrational frequencies that harmonize with our physical and emotional well-being.

Learning to say no is one of the first steps to saying yes to your inner authority.

Remember it is a projection

The world is a projection. Knowing what the surface is (the other) can be of value so understanding our reactionary nature and tuning it into a response that requires space (observation) and time (reflection) within the given senses.

Yet, as primal beings, we could know using the filters of how to respond if our body is in danger, whether you have your spleen activated in your body chart or not, each gate is a potential to understand the fears that will help you navigate the present moment.

Remember if you see a herd of rats running in one direction, what do you do? Do you follow them? or do you run against them?

For the past 18 months, I've been leading weekly human design groups, which have been invaluable for my personal growth and development. Soon, I'll be hosting a session featuring conversations with remarkable women who have enriched my understanding of this complex language and they have supported my intervention as a facilitator, a role I fully embrace with humility.

Now, as we stand on the cusp of possible revolutions, it's time to ask ourselves:

-Are we feeling the energy?

-Are we ready to take action?

-What more evidence do we need so to embrace our freedom?

The New Moon in Aquarius squares its ruler Uranus in Taurus, setting the stage for transformation with sudden shocks. With Jupiter's swift movement through the zodiac, opportunities for growth and change abound. It's a time to reassess and innovate, to explore new territories and break free from the constraints that hold us back.

There's no time to wait. Mars and Venus will soon align in Aquarius, first meeting Pluto next week signaling a shift in humanity's direction. It's up to each of us to embrace our autonomy and evolve into the best versions of ourselves.

Individual action is essential. During the New Moon at 20° Aquarius The new moon will fall in Gate 49.3, symbolizing the revolution against outdated principles. With Mercury positioned in Gate 19.1, embracing an interdependent approach rooted in individuality, they form the channel of synthesis. This signifies a striving for a delicate balance between the individual needs of a community and its guiding principles.

When the needs of the folk are unmet due to broken principles,the R-3volution is ignited…

Action, we need individual action.

Whether it's the resilience of European farmers, the outspokenness of public figures such as Tucker Carlson, talking about difficult subjects, the border, Putin, Russell Brand, you name it, his Uranian flame is ON…

see Javier Milei: all he has done in a mere 50 days, see Bukele, winning a second term…

See where and how your individuality will shine and then your peers can see your individual quest that will align with theirs or the courage to chart your own path.

Now is the time to assert your individuality and make your voices heard.

Observe where your ideologies are grounded and will expand. The transits of Jupiter through the individual Gates 24-8 this new moon is related to this journey below:

Gate 24 the return, The mental process which, following introspection, facilitates spontaneous renewal through individual truths 02.04-03/12. Gate 2,03/13-04/08 Orientation carries the potential for receiving and giving direction. Like a seed, which knows that with the help of sunlight and water it will one day become an oak.

-Do you remember what you were up to in August 2022 that might have changed the direction of your life in a sudden way initiating the path you are in now and that it will be expanded in a big way? I remember, and I am LIT!

Gate 23, 04/09-05/02, the expression of Individual knowledge may be ingenious, expresses individual knowledge. It is the assimilation of an individual person's knowledge made possible through language. Whenever individual insights have to be communicated to others. This is where Jupiter will meet Uranus on 04/20…

Jupiter moves then to Gate 8 05/03-05-23 Deploying one's individuality for the benefit of the group's objectives. It says: „I know, I can.“ It is an individual person’s contribution to attract the attention of others. It is the “agent” that helps expressing one’s own creative contribution and those of others.

Overall, Jupiter reminds us if we want to be free, we have to make this journey an individual affair, trusting our judgment, and shifting views when necessary. Once you shift, you will have more space for optimal results.

Noticing:

When I feel I have to have the last word.

When I feel compelled to be right at all costs.

When I feel I need to care for others who have not asked to be supported.

When I deviate from my individual path, I remember that I can do more by showing up than showing off.

What are your weakest links that make you feel trapped? Those are your adaptations or addictions.

In my own journey, I find solace in the alignment of the new moon with my first house and the presence of Uranus and Jupiter in my emotional realm. When I feel free to be myself, I am truly at home.

Reflecting on the discovery of Uranus and the revolutions it sparked, I am reminded of the power of change and the potential for transformation that lies within each of us.

An ode to URANUS

An exploration into the core dynamics between Uranus and Saturn reveals a profound interplay of liberation and structure. Uranus, sings of individuation's wings, offering a bold melody of liberation from the grip of Saturn, the keeper of life's patterns. This struggle mirrors the human quest for freedom from society and familiar conditioning.

Deconditioning becomes a mystical art form, marking a freeing start from the binds of social constructs and familial expectations. It is a journey to rediscover unbounded grace in the depths of unconditioned consciousness.

Every transit of Uranus offers an opportunity for liberation, inviting individuals to break free from the chains that bind their souls. Each aspect of Uranus' influence presents a chance to transcend personal inhibitions and cultural norms, yet resistance often lingers for the sake of security.

The clash between Uranus and Saturn symbolizes the tension between rebellion and struc…

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At its core, synthesis is the ability to take information from multiple sources and distill it into a cohesive and actionable insight. ~Says the internet

As expressed in my recent posts, my perception of time has undergone a profound shift. Rather than feeling constrained by it, I find myself immersed in its flow, not soaring aimlessly pushed by unseen forces, but rather navigating through what feels like multiple timelines.

I consciously make an effort to revisit specific events, ones driven by intense emotional cues and triggers. Having addressed and integrated those emotions, I no longer resonate with that frequency, creating the sense of traversing another timeline and experiencing a different reality.

Notably, my social habits have evolved. Engaging with a new circle of individuals doesn't pose a significant challenge; it's akin to performing a taijiquan long form. Each interaction feels like a step in a choreographed dance, where I sense a renewal with every move, guided by an innate wisdom in my body that instinctively knows how to make the best decisions.

I prefer to view time as a notation board, a canvas where I can trace the intricate patterns of my personal journey.

Speaking of time, the imminent arrival of the Year of the Wood Dragon, a celebration occurring every 60 years, is just around the corner. In about 7 weeks, I will mark this significant milestone.

How do I feel?

Free.

The freedom I experience is rooted in the synthesis of my life, enjoying each moment as it unfolds.

'The frequency of somebody who is correct is a powerful frequency'. Ra Uru Hu (Human Design)

A set of synthesizing minds

In the twenty-first century, the most important kind of mind will be the synthesizing mind.” — Murray Gell-Mann (Nobel Laureate in Physics in 1969, founder of the interdisciplinary Santa Fe Institute, and coiner of the term ‘synthesizing mind’)

A few days ago, I engaged in a long-form dialogue with Mari Budlong that delved into the evolving relationship between us. This connection led us to focus on a creative purpose, with Mari taking on the roles of editor and co-producer for my upcoming publication: 'The Nature of My Reality, everything I need is in my body.' The 3-part book is set to pre-sale launch in late Feb-March 2024—stay tuned.

One of the most memorable aspects of our ongoing two-year dialogue is the type of thinking we both share, namely, our synthesizing mind.

It took me nearly 60 years to appreciate the thought process of my mind and recognize the strength of the uniqueness each human being is meant to be. The process of individuation is meant to be the path of the heroine’s journey.

It is personal, and individual, yet satisfying as one learns to understand its process once its contents are discovered. The journey is fuller with wonderful adventures.

I hope you enjoyed my dialogue with Mari; recording it was a fun experience. We discussed education, facilitation, communities that support individuation practices, and the relationship involved in co-producing the upcoming book.

Stay tuned for more insights to come.

And Stay free

𝚅𝚘𝚒𝚌𝚎𝚜 #𝟸: 𝙻𝚒𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚗 𝚂𝚢𝚗𝚝𝚑𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚜, 𝙰 𝚕𝚘𝚗𝚐-𝚏𝚘𝚛𝚖 𝚍𝚒𝚊𝚕𝚘𝚐𝚞𝚎 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝙼𝚊𝚛𝚒 + 𝙼𝚘𝚗𝚒𝚔𝚊 video:

Audio of the long-form dialogue:

Links for some of the practices we mentioned during the conversation:

Rebel Wisdom [webpage active, the community has closed]

Gabor Maté [I’d suggest watching the documentary "The Wisdom of Trauma" and signing up for a compassionate inquiry workshop]

Thomas Hübl [Listen to his podcasts and see if you resonate with his work]

Emergent Commons A member and volunteer-supported community that emerged from the work of Rebel Wisdom. As indicated in our Purpose Statement, we have found that *how* we relate to each other is an essential aspect of our foundation and growth--at least as important as what we discuss or do together.

{I was a part of this community from its inception until September 2022 when I voluntarily decided to leave. I felt it was the right time for me to immerse myself in practices beyond the safety of this community. In other words, I needed to be actively involved in the streets, engaging in moment-to-moment practices outside the confines of this safe space, so I could walk the walk and talk the talk.}

The Principle of Listening…

The Sun on Gate 13, positioned at the G center, functions as an abstract circuitry signaling our location between the cardinal points of the winter and summer solstice. It prompts us to hold space and practice empathetic listening to ourselves, acknowledging fears, joys, and those of others without judgment. Do a check-up on the vibration you emit; if what you hear doesn't resonate well and your body reacts, pay attention to that too.

The grounding nature of the Earth at Gate 7, associated with the army and strategy, signifies the direction of the future. Its potential lies in developing a strategy, urging us to question our aims and consider everything and everyone important in leading toward a victorious direction where creativity, leadership, and authenticity can be expressed.

With Saturn and Jupiter now in tribal Emotional Gate 37 and individual conceptual Gate 24, familiar matters may resurface and feel like it is Ground Hog Day over and over again. Allow space for insights to decide whether to engage in the drama or remain detached.

There's no pressure; most emotional dramas stem from the not-self, unconditioned individuals.

Mars and Venus are moving closer to their meet-up with Pluto in a couple of weeks, initiating a new cycle in Aquarius.

The sextile between Jupiter in Taurus and Saturn in Pisces in the same signs as it occurred 60 years ago, is beginning to separate. The ability to ground one's values into a novel and undefined structure is highlighted. This process, if accompanied by surrendering and trusting inner guidance, supports material expansion leading to pleasant surprises. This transit aligns well with the lunar nodes, and in my chart, Pluto, and Uranus serve as a robust support system in my mental framework.

It's crucial to remember that I don't attribute my experiences to luck. Instead, I've developed a heightened awareness of my decision-making process through a profound observational practice.

As Venus squares the lunar nodes, the values one diligently works on may be triggered accompanied by a sense of lacking bravery. However, there is an opportunity to find the courage to release limitations tied to self-worth.

As Mercury meets Pluto currently, it delves deep into darkness becoming a path to renewal. Embracing intensity as the new normal is encouraged,

-What are the brilliant ideas you are willing to bring forth from the underworld that will enlighten undefined structures that are dissolving to generate the dreams of individuation?

Take a moment to observe the world around you and question whether you are merely watching a movie. Reflect on the type of movie it is.

-Do you enjoy it?

If not, consider shifting and changing your timeline.

If you find yourself unsure of how to navigate this shift, trust your inner authority. It serves as a reliable starting point.

Be like water, my friends…

“For those who pass it without entering, the city is one thing; it is another for those who are trapped by it and never leave. There is the city where you arrive for the first time, and there is another city which you leave never to return. Each deserves a different name; perhaps I have already spoken of Irene under other names; perhaps I have spoken only of Irene.”

―Italo Calvino, Invisible Cities

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In all things of nature, there is something of the marvelous.

~Aristotle

“The fundamental engineering feature of the fiat system is that it treats future promises of money as if they were as good as present money because the government guarantees these promises” ― Saifedean Ammous, The Fiat Standard: The Debt Slavery Alternative to Human Civilization

01.18.24: I am almost left without words, contemplating what I have been building or reconstructing in the past 46 months…

A couple of years ago, while doing intensive 10-week breathwork with a practitioner, I narrated to her that during the breath trance, I saw myself stepping on a platform—a cantilever, a projecting beam supported at only one end. I felt that I would be in an eerie suspension and was not ready to step up then, as it led to the unknown. The skies were dimmed black, except all the bright stars above greeted me with a sense of familiarity.

The feeling was of unknown wonder. I knew then I needed to get prepared, hone my resources, and shape them into not just one new tool but refine all of my other talents, even if that meant learning something completely new!

So I did, and now I am experiencing something summarized as something like: 'THERE IS NO WAY BACK TO FIAT' as a state of mind. I have been hashing and re-educating my brain with new information. I have also been integrating this info with my ongoing Hakomi sessions with Kai. I am very happy to announce that I have the resources to confront what, sometime back, used to trigger me and thus scare me: being authentic in group situations.

01.22.23: Last weekend, I stepped in as a panelist for a Bitcoin day conference in Naples, Florida. I was invited to be part of -a boomer panel that can speak with wisdom about how we can influence others to adopt Bitcoin-.

Of course, I had a lot of trouble with many of the wordings, but as I like to do, I challenged those views by expressing my personal perspective:

* I don’t define myself by gender, age, or place of birth, not by any certification, I am a Polymath, and multi-disciplinary artist.

* I am not an influencer as I don’t bestow power over anyone, nor would I like to. Instead, I like to inspire beings to be authentic.

* It was a beautiful coincidence this happened the evening when Pluto entered the sign of Aquarius. I spoke of courage as the most important virtue this year, while Chiron and the North Node are in the sign of Aries, and Uranus is going direct and will meet Jupiter in the 21st degree of Taurus, April 20th: the time is Nigh!

I will expand more on my insights, as I have been a bit contemplative in the last weeks and am illustrating and writing the last texts of my upcoming book “The Nature of My Reality.” I am recording more dialogues with upcoming guests and preparing the launch of the presale of the book in the next 4 weeks.

-We are ready - says one little voice within, we have been preparing all our lives!

Full moon in Leo, Uranus direct

-Do you sense the inclination to express yourself and embrace the wilderness within your defined limits?

Overall reading: Uranus is the last planet to go direct, and even if the direction or destination is uncertain, a sense of the right timing to embody and act with wisdom prevails. Resources have been shaped into tools, and values and needs have been redefined. Abundance defines form, and support is not just for survival but for thriving. Trusting the unknown is a crucial lesson, and confronting fears allows one to step onto the platform.

One last word: Pluto entered Aquarius again, signifying acceleration. Clinging to fixed past ideologies can bring pain. The invitation is to plan strategically for re-construction what is wholesome to you, enabling navigation in the right frequency and vibrating in pure thriving experiences of joy.

In essence: BE YOUR OWN PERSON

Note: I took my time to listen and edit this long-form dialogue with Ellery that I cut into three parts. Initially, I did so because I wanted to take my time and create some visuals, but now, after weeks of listening and digesting, it is clear that I wanted to savor what I consider the remnants of a past way of relating.

Times have changed

On many levels, we have all grown since four years ago. Remember? We had no idea what would unfold, and then it came like a large dark cloud. Confusion led to fear driving our lives, even if only for a short time.

This became a great opportunity for me to rebrand my mind.

Bitcoin, Austrian Economy, Money, resources...

And behold, there is no turning back. to be continued…

VOiCES oN CREATION + iNITIATION

a CONVERSATION BETWEEN eLLERY+ MoNIKA part 3:

I continued my conversation with Ellery, and I shared the initial steps that led me to take care of my needs diving deep into the notion of value, scarcity, bitcoin, and human action, Ellery shares a glimpse of his upcoming workshop, "The Song of the Self".

The third installment of Voices on Creation with Ellery [video] here is 43 minutes:

“Who looks outside, dreams; who looks inside, awakes.”

Carl. G. Jung

Full-length dialogue: Voices on Creation with Ellery [audio] here: 1 hour 46 mins

Full-length dialogue: Voices on Creation with Ellery [video] here: 1 hour 46 mins

One last time before we jump

This week, an incredible event is happening. The source of our lives, the sun, will meet the energy that embodies the desire to evolve Pluto at 29'59" Capricorn.

Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and contemplate what has happened in your life in the last 15 years.

-Which part of your life has completely been transformed?

-How have you evolved or mutated?

-Humanity is entering a new paradigm.

We caught a glimpse of it last year. Proof of work will become as useful as all our decisions or passive non-activity yield a result.

As a manifestor, I have been attracting many souls with the same energy to remind each other to stand up, speak up, and with courage, move forward and truly confront what is needed.

Thank you, Ellery. My relationship with you is one of reflection. What started as a mentorship has evolved into a pure reminder that, no matter what, we need each other as human beings to reflect on each other through feedback.

I invite the viewers to look for Ellery's workshop, which, paraphrasing him, is something he created for his younger self.

-What part of your younger inner child are you still allowing to guide you?

Remember: Validation and recognition are not the same!

The bridge

Ensuring that I don't overlook anything that should be carried forward and that I don't carry anything that should be left behind.

Fire is the artificial light against Nature, as Consciousness is the light which Man has made against Nature. Nature herself is unconscious and the original Man is unconscious; his great achievement against nature is that he becomes conscious.

~ Carl Jung, Zarathustra Seminar, Page 128

Voices: The thin veil between passion and obsession

Miami Beach, at this time of the year, embraces a notable humidity, essential for life as it acts as a moisturizing agent against dryness. However, when the humidity lingers, it can lead to dampness, resulting in a sense of stagnation, limited circulation, and diminished energy.

My body responds by resisting, adapting, and transforming the humidity through practices such as breathwork, humming, Neti-pots, and lots of ginger and deliberate slow movements. It becomes evident that neglecting the impact of the environment can dampen the mood and induce a sinking feeling.

The prevailing mood in this locale is one of overall gloom and doom. As I share this observation, I acknowledge a personal shift taking place within me and everywhere else.

-Can you notice it?

I've recognized instances where I've been stalling, stagnating, and allowing myself to become lost in "space." During my morning breathwork, I intentionally tap into my heart, signaling a return to rhythm.

Provocative and challenging environments, at times, divert my path, leading me into extremes and encounters where the integrity, or lack thereof, may stir the core of my soul. This often leaves me on a limb, searching for a way back in. As a result, I take a moment to breathe and retreat to the role of an observer.

As the new year begins, my contemplation revolves around noticing the thin veil between being passionately engaged and teetering towards obsession. With a natal Moon in the 9th house (associated with seeking) with a Scorpio intensity in conjunction with the Mid Heaven, and Neptune in the 10th house, I must remain vigilant regarding the direction and motivation of each passionate pursuit. As boundaries are non-existent, and I can become that which I project to be, caring about the ecology of my surroundings is the core of my well-being.

-Are you deeply passionate and perhaps inclined towards obsession? If so, in which specific area does this intensity manifest?

It is essential to recognize that this thin veil exists. Without grounding myself in the present moment, I risk realizing I have crossed it, only to navigate slowly back to the center.

Not everything is gloomy; the prospect is to keep enjoying and inspiring. In the past few weeks, I have Oranged-pilled at least 7 people with an intensive Bitcoin 10-hour workshop, giving them the tools so they can sail away in their new journey as they practice their accountability. The prospectus of ignorance is like a room with a lack of light. I am not the light, yet I can support the alignment.

-You do the rest.-

Part 2/3 of the conversation with Ellery:

Feedback, emergence

I don't like the feeling of where I am now—sending signals to the outer world and getting no response, not even a reaction. Some people call it ghosting; I call it the absence of feedback. Yet, with my somatic training, I have to sit with the awkward sensation without analysis but just allow the emotions to run their course like a high tide and create a space for them to settle in the now moment.

-Am I dead now?

And then one part of myself says, hey, we are here! Don't lose yourself in disillusionment as we can't fix it. Ellery's conversation reminds me as I edit it and add the motion graphics that I need time to listen to the subtle changes and not obsess over what cannot be changed.

In the conversation, we dive into the Gospel of John, the Logos, its potential meaning, and how stories or ideas thread from spirit.

I introduce Mari Budlong, the co-producer, and editor of my upcoming book, whose contribution has shaped, and synthesized the non-linear narrative, while I follow through and design and illustrate it.

p.s. The last installment of the conversation will drop sometime this week; this time of year, I allow my moods to be.

The first part here:

With one hand on my heart and another one on the keyboard, I remind the inner child that we have all it takes to live a life full of courage.

-How is your engagement with your needs going?

-Have you noticed more direction in the last couple of days?

I feel my old self gone; I will talk about it more on another occasion

Happy 2024!

Hello beautiful friends, as the year 2023 nears its end, I reflect on a year where I practiced the virtue of generosity, experienced my second Saturn return, and witnessed the peaceful passing of my amazing mother. I am extremely grateful for my life and the opportunities I both generated and embraced as part of my evolutionary journey. I read or heard once that once you lose both of your parents, you are completely free. In that sense, I must agree, as it has been my time to embody both inner and outer authority.

This year has also marked the conclusion of bigger cycles. As I prepare for the great unexpected unknown with grace, I am launching a series of creative endeavors that are somehow familiar. The first is a series of video-recorded monthly conversations [VOICES], where I will be engaging with friends who have a creative practice stemming from inner dialogue, in the shape of long-form dialogues.

The second endeavor is an upcoming publication, "The Nature of My Reality: EVERYTHING I NEED IS IN MY BODY." This book illustrates my process of individuation, showcasing my journey from disempowerment to recognition, turning toward vulnerability, and being open to myself. In sharing, it’s also an invitation for the reader to self-reflect. The publication takes a whimsical form, divided into three segments, each with a different purpose. More details about the book and how to pre-order a copy will be available in the next weeks.

My first guest is my dear friendEllery James Robertswho is not only extremely creative and thoughtful but who is also launching a new venture in the form of a workshop called the Song of the Self. I invited him to share more about this new creative adventure and to be the spark that initiates these series and the AD 2024, where the theme in the collective is the courage one needs to be fully authentic.

I decided to divide the interview into three installments, with one available today and the subsequent ones in the next few days.

A full version of the whole interview will be available in the third installment.

Part one of three

A long-form dialogue

Introduction, deep listening, and courage: 27 mins

In this first part, Ellery and I spoke about:

-Our creative processes and the journey of self-discovery.

-We shared the challenges we both faced in defining ourselves and breaking free from societal expectations.

-Acknowledged the transformative moment we're experiencing as a society, where voices are rising with courage.

-The need to stay within our truth was stressed, using self-reflection as a vehicle to explore the delicate balance between receptivity and structure in the creative process.

Enjoy!

In the forthcoming 2 installments, Ellery and I delve into diverse themes that echo the essence of our creative journey such as:

-The Logos, G*D, and life force, contemplating the role of feedback in relational values and the imperative of self-discovery.

-The journey of self-reliance, the inherent limitations of seeking external validation, particularly in the realms of the art and music industries. Challenges posed by financial insecurity, the significance of staying grounded in reality.

-The intricacies of the creative vessel, the process of book writing, reflections on time, personal responsibility, and the tangible consequences of our actions. We touch upon my journey with Bitcoin, illuminating the direct link between human action, sovereignty, and authenticity.

-Lastly, Ellery shares his vision for The Song of the Self’s workshop, illustrating how he employs play and intention to shape his new role as a facilitator.

Through this Dia-logos, you will bear witness to the authentic and purposeful connection that defines our friendship.

Wishing you, my friends, a beautiful and meaningful 2024. Stay creative. And to you Ellery, a happy solar return!

To go in the dark with a light is to know the light.

To know the dark, go dark. Go without sight,

and find that the dark, too, blooms and sings,

and is traveled by dark feet and dark wings.

~ WENDELL BERRY 

Such things should never happen but we die The swallow finds an oak to nest her young Defenceless between the earth and the sky Uncounted beneath a vast, indifferent sun A mother holds her baby to her breastShe trusts in you yet does not dare to breatheAs the baby swallow falls from its nestAs the mighty oak does not appear to seeSuch things should never happen but they doIn a darkened room, a mothеr criesThe swallow seeks to build its nest anеwThe oak tree lifts its branches to its eyes

~Nick Cave, Seven Psalms

Much love to each one of you, some beautiful words with music from the magical duo, Nick Cave and Warren Ellis.

Be well

M

Note: I missed one week, so here it is, a bit long article, enjoy!

Greetings, beautiful souls who graciously take the time to delve into my thoughts amidst the chaos that surrounds us, both internally and externally.

I can’t recall another schizophrenic time like this, honestly; it feels like a whirlwind, evoking memories of surreal times when I was high on substances, navigating altered states, disconnected, soothing my pains temporarily behind a veil.

Back then, my imagination sprinted as it was on speed while weaving fantastical realms—ironic, whimsical, shaped by a blend of faith and (de)illusion.

However, this time, there are no external factors such as substances, and there's no veil either. Even in sporadic fogs, I discern a mind-program, a set of beliefs or ideologies, executed with eerie precision. To safeguard my sanity, scrutiny is imperative, as merging with the surroundings would spell a tragic demise for my soul.

A while back, I started looking at the world through a different lens, moving around the spaces created different vibrations, as I started resonating at different frequencies.

Pinpointing the exact "moment" this shift occurred proves elusive. Yet, I can trace one such activation for change to around 9 years ago, precisely on 12/19/2014, when I severed an 18-year partnership with my second husband—a complete nodal return in the Libra-Aries axis, now mirrored in its opposite.

The focus on the WE ARE - I AM dynamic then drove me down the rabbit hole of asking myself just one question:

-How can I have leverage and relate to others if I ignore what my needs and values are?

And so it began then, my journey of emotional maturation and emancipation. Nine years may feel like a whole lot, but in my case, I have been liberating myself in a moment-to-moment manner.

But time is both nonexistence and a continuum, and as souls, we are navigating a materialistic experience with a lot of privilege that at times grounds us too much in matter. The density is needed to practice evolution through mutation while there are rough angles that show up as limitations. There are times that the energy seems to flow, supporting decisions and giving a feeling of being one with nature. Both instances are necessary in this duality.

Power is often misconceived as possession or acquisition, tethered to value. In truth, it's simpler—exerting effort, a proof of work that catalyzes transformation altering states of materials. Power demands effort, and effort is the application of energy.

Ever felt powerless? What does that sensation entail? Perhaps it's a disconnection from the intimate dance of confronting fears and allowing a process of becoming.

Can effort exist without movement? Can energy be conjured from nothing? The answers resonate in the negative.

Perception spans a spectrum with quantitative expressions of energy. Picture musical scales divided into fractions. It's akin to the range of colors perceivable—a mere angle of the complete spectrum. What our eyes grasp is but a fraction of this vast energetic totality.

Under and beyond the hue cycle lie the ultraviolet or the infrared. They exist in the 'invisible' spectrum, yet their existence can be traced as vibrations beyond our perception. This is called qualitative energy. This energetic totality converges to the radius or the emanating light from the core.

Ratios contribute to the creation of harmonic relationships. They compare quantities within the same frequency, creating harmony in a vibratory space. In instances where dissonance arises and impedes mutation, transference becomes the action that carries over into a different mutative dynamic jumping onto another state.

Human action directs the energy to the power of I AM; what sets in motion is the capacity to embrace the individuated state. While these days, either speaking up or not complying may seem extremely risky to the survival of the individual, it is perhaps the most important gesture/practice and principle one has.

“We are the temple of experience”

…science defines energy as the ability to produce some effect. An effect needs somebody to be affected. We build a physics of quality, where the human energy system is the measuring device of everything…

~Dr. Ibrahim Karim - #biogeometry

An event emerges and is set in motion

An event emerges and sets in motion the manifestation of life force in two distinct ways—spontaneously through natural radiation (emanating) and intentionally through directed release (emitting).

To grasp the intricacies of energy quality, imagine colorless light passing through a prism, creating varied angles and colors. This analogy extends beyond the visible spectrum, akin to musical notes producing sound beyond audibility..

Sensory scales (color, sound, touch) interchange on a vibratory level. This interchangeability allows the measurement of sound, touch, taste, angle, and shape through resonance with a repetitive color scale.

Perceived effects within sensory ranges—color, sound, touch, taste, smell—originate from abstract energy qualities. Unperceived effects beyond sensory ranges operate subconsciously, measurable with Radiesthesic instruments calibrated to the color scale.

Quantifying the quality of energy as it travels beyond our senses poses a challenge. Tools like pendulums, dials, and emitters are instrumental in this exploration, offering a glimpse into the uncharted realms of energy measurement.

Duality can only be integrated

Contrast IS necessary, it's a crucial element in my perception. Whenever I discern the existence of another, or the presence of the "other," I initiate my observation ritual. I meticulously note my feelings and assess how external factors, whether situations, objects, or people, influence my emotional state.

Am I truly reacting to them, or is it a response to a projection or a memory? More often than not, the connection is tenuous, but following my instincts and intuition, and observing the emotional waves for clarity, becomes crucial. I pose questions to myself:

-Am I safe in this moment?

-Am I allowing space for emotions to ebb and flow within me, both internally and externally?

-Do I sense a fog of non-clarity?

If the response aligns with instinct, if it arrives as a resounding "NO," signaling that I can't be present or embrace the given situation, it becomes evident that it emanates a dubious energy, and an immediate rejection is necessary. Regardless of potential losses, if something smells fishy or feels like BS, it's a clear "NO.”

Intuition, on the other hand, resembles an inner vision or a subtle whisper of knowledge. I NEVER feel the need to prove it, and you won't catch me presenting any evidence. Trust is paramount, and one simply knows.

Perhaps what can validate all this, are synchronicities or serendipity, but I don’t get too impressed by them as I aspire to live a life in harmony, always vibrating at the frequency I must at that specific time, so synchronicity is a state of being as oppossed to an event! thus meditation, humming, contemplations, as well as following my inner emotional authoriy are daily practices.

Energy as consent or Disobedience

I think of energy not only in the act of exertion, but also deflecting it, as in Aikido, redirecting the flow to make something either concrete or meaningful. The act of rejecting, holding, or embracing requires energy too.

Giving or withholding consent involves a certain amount of mental and emotional energy. When individuals provide consent, whether in personal relationships, professional settings, or societal contexts, they invest a part of their emotio…

Their Absence is my Presence

I talk to my mom all the time. Even after her passing, I could hear and feel her deeply. Over time, the constant sense of her nearby presence would bring tears—tears of immense love, the same love I now have for myself.

I knew that, with time, this feeling would subdue. Not fade away, but become a constant, integrated part of me.

A few weeks ago, I asked her if she was around because I wasn't sensing her presence. She responded that if I wanted to feel her, I should be near my siblings. She said, 'I am in them too.'

My Taoist and Buddhist teachers taught me that we are half our parents. We carry half mom and half dad. Today, I felt them both deeply.

My mom is my joy, my wit, my mischiefs, my attempts at new ventures, and my courage. My dad has a different flow. His energy is piercing, intense, a seeker. Since his absence became my presence, I've felt this fire in me, guiding journeys of contemplation and the pursuit of freedom in the form of truth, my truth.

Together in me, Monika, they whispered in unison during my breathwork, and tears of joy rolled down my cheeks.

I don't need anything I don't value. I don't expect anything that doesn't belong to me—neither in situations, persons, nor things. The freedom to know that I am going, I don't know where, but I know it is happening. Since the last eclipse redirected me, I trust it is all within me.

My gig: Accelerated evolution:

I sense that many in the world are torn inside out. I reflect on the discrepancies, divisions, and the sense of chaos. Integrating polarities is a constant harmonic venture. Synthesizing doesn't always mean leaning 100 percent to one side of the scale; it may involve creating a deep connection, listening to oneself, and finding the right balance with the other.

Today, the South Node of the Moon in Libra and Venus (Gate 32) share a sweet embrace—a gentle reminder of enduring principles in relational values, even amidst change.

My natal Mars, in opposition next to the North Node (Gate 42), rules the transiting Chiron in Aries—a perfect choreography applying the laws of harmonics with the maturity to cultivate growth through mediation. This propels me with all the courage I never felt ready to use, as the purpose reveals itself through inner vision.

Relational values are a deep observation of the landscape from the outside, guiding the choice of when to enter and become a significant part of it.

With a Moon in Scorpio (MC-9th house) and Pluto in Virgo in my 8th house, I've learned that unless I become self-reliant, no one will save me, nor need to save me. Intimate relationships or partnerships have hindered my ability to create a healthy relationship with my needs and values.

I achieved this by living through its polarity point, Taurus, Venus, and the second house ruled by Neptune. An essential part was isolating myself from relationships that were too close. I wanted to experience the relationship with myself without addiction to substances, things, or persons. I learned that I can't manipulate outcomes; I have to be sincere to feel the power of transformation. The intention was set before my birth, and I made sure to remember it, completing a period of transition.

My evolution is through my emotional body, so my choices need space for clarity. Trust issues were severely violated in the past. With Uranus close in a balsamic aspect to Pluto and ruling my ascendant and South Node, it adds an extra kick to my intention to solely individuate!

If at times I choose aloofness, it's not that I don't care; in fact, I care too much. I need space to respond or not to what lies outside of me and what I am relating to.

The others: mathematikoi + akousmatikoi

Inspiring the collective at an individual level, teaching value and individuation via Polymathēs, many listeners and learners intermingle in common and singular spaces, evolving through curiosity, discipline, inquiry, and joy.

I was born with four planets in retrograde, I find that this accelerates my soul’s evolution, questioning the status quo and the consensus. It becomes the basis for the soul's desire to break free, to revise, recreate, or relive something already known that yearns to be transformed.

Individuation is not necessary only for people with retrogrades, but for all souls. Lately, I feel like I am back in school, running around the steps of knowledge from one subject to the next, asking questions, doing homework, rehashing my frontal cortex with new data.

In the preceding year and the forthcoming months, both Jupiter in Taurus and Saturn in Pisces revisit their positions in my chart. Forming a supportive sextile, mirroring my natal alignment, they initially met at 0* Aquarius in December 2020. Now, they create sextile to provide support between material expansion and restraint.

Saturn positioned between the boundless nature of Pisces and the grounded energy of Jupiter in Earthy Taurus, they fabricate a framework for gradual and consistent growth.

Occupying my 1st and third houses, I've thoroughly delved into new practical aspects, reshaping how I perceive myself and paving the way for enduring benefits for others. The decisions and plans laid out last year during the nodes' transit through Scorpio-Taurus, focusing on understanding energy, value, money, economy, sound, vibrations, bitcoin and harmonics, are now crystallizing in my consciousness. They are shaping pathways to serve the collective in the years ahead, extending beyond my artistic endeavors that continue to stir my heart.

This constructive journey, balancing practicality with discovery, underscores the significance of education. This remarkable energy, accessible to all until approximately the end of February 2024, encouraging you to identify and derive pleasure from simple things that expand consciousness and deepen the relationship with source, offering tangible ways to actively engage with the world.

Chernikhov operated in what could be best described as a ‘laboratory of ideas.’ His sketches were experiments, each one probing the boundaries of form, function, and feasibility. They were not meant to be final products but starting points, catalysts for further exploration and innovation. In this sense, his unbuilt works were not failures but successful experiments that yielded valuable data, data that architects and designers have been mining for decades.

~Bahram H Yousefi, Dr. Techn. Iakov Chernikhov: The Unbuilt Architect Who Defined 20th-Century Modernism

The Invisible Blueprint: Our uniqueness

At times,I find that certain artists adeptly convey similar ideas or exemplify them even more effectively through their enduring legacy. One such figure is Yakov Chernikhov, a pioneering architect and theoretician who introduced his pedagogical system, Eksprimatika. This set of rules for new drawing principles is grounded in symmetry, rhythm, and the interplay of component parts, constructions, and colors.

In the 1920s, Chernikhov established the Research and Experimental Laboratory of Architectural Forms and Methods with the aim of imparting a "lighter method of the teaching of drawing and its laws."

This endeavor surpassed mere instruction in the art of drawing; it aimed to fortify students' independence of thought—a concept that challenged Soviet discipline and stirred complications for the artist in the 1930s. It's precisely this independence of thought that distinguished the Russian avant-garde as a uniquely transformative movement of its time. Chernikhov, the 'architect-composer,'staunchly believed in the liberating power of art to free the mind.

Another exceptional educator in the realm of art was Josef Albers. Albers expressed that the primary goal of his classes was to "open their eyes." Cultiva…

Note: You don’t have to abide by my views; this article explores how delicate it is to show up, perhaps disagree, and yet leave space for non-aggression cultivating the emergence of dialogue.

Inside your bones lies the marrow, akin to the earth beneath your feet—a grounding essence that defines your home.

~paraphrased from Sarah Blondin’s meditation

Aiming towards truth [Liberty]

Let me put it this way:

If the ideologies or the science of ideas you hold dear haven't evolved in the past three years, brace for their potential crumbling. In 2024, perspective and wit will be crucial, along with the ability to differentiate signal from noise. Now's the time to take stock of your resources, talents, and goods; without a Plan B or C, this could be your last call.

Current celestial alignments compel us to reevaluate our actions, self-perception, and thoughts, urging us to seek alternative views and directions to comprehend and integrate the events of recent years.

Questions arise, prompting contemplation on the archetypes of Jupiter's yearning for freedom to explore diverse cultures, philosophies, religions, and languages, Uranus's commitment to uniqueness, and the collective need to explore concepts like liberty, property rights, aggression, civilized behavior, and the factors differentiating us from animals during Jupiter and Uranus' most recent journey through Taurus (last time was 1941).

Saturn and Jupiter shape and control social constructs, while Uranus ensures avenues for breaking free from conditioning and addressing generational trauma that hinders both individuals and humanity.

The Full Moon on November 27th at 4°Gemini (PHASE 65°-GEMINI 5°) brings us back to June 19, 2023, when the Sun and the Moon initiated a new cycle at 27° Gemini.

Reflect on the mental, ideological, or directional shifts in your life during this brief five-month span. While only a short time has elapsed, consider the impact of Pluto's recent three-month stint in Aquarius before retracing its steps to Capricorn. Come January 2024, Pluto will re-enter Aquarius, accelerating the trajectory into potential dystopian scenarios.

As one who holds dear the doctrine of free will as most libertarians, who value property rights and truth. In the spirit of the full moon in Gemini, we use reason and wisdom to increase our individual awareness for the greater good of our values and ideals.

However, we must be cautious not to exert too much power, as it can be delusional. Let us conserve our energy and be mindful of who is ready to receive our care, trust, and cooperation with divine wisdom.

In the grand scheme, the only certainty in life is change, a truth embodied in the transformative nature of death.

-What is your short, mid, and long-term plan?

-Can you trust your wisdom?

PHASE 65 (GEMINI 5*): A REVOLUTIONARY MAGAZINE ASK­ING FOR ACTION. The explosive tendency of repressed feelings and root emotions.

Every movement overstressing one direction calls forth, in time, an equally extreme movement in the opposite direction. This is particularly true at the level of the dualistic mind symbolized in the zodiac by Gemini. What is rigidly bound in form and convention tends to explode into formlessness. It may do so violently if socially oppressed — through revolution — or at the psychological level in psychosis, or it may withdraw inwardly into the mystical state in which one identifies with an unformulatable Reality.

This fifth stage is related to the first, for it is the experience of a world of being so far unperceived by the everyday consciousness which starts the process. In the same sense a psychedelic experience may momentarily make the mind transparent to a non-ego-structured realm of consciousness, and may lead to a sustained attempt at understanding what has been revealed of a transcendent Reality.

Whether the revolutionary action is violent or peaceful, bitterly resentful or loving, the one desire is TO REACH BEYOND ESTABLISHED FORMS.

~Dane Rudhyar. AN ASTROLOGICAL MANDALA The Cycle of Transformations and Its 360 Symbolic Phases

To reach beyond established forms

What to do?

How to unplug?

How do I verify?

We can’t trust the people who brought all the lies in the form of government and information!

And if we are codependent on them and the medical system we might be in for a ride…

Ok, perhaps it sounds all too crazy? Yes, … maybe I am going nuts!

Who cares, if you trust yourself, you are in a great place!

The spirit level is internal…

In the meantime, a soundtrack for the article: (use headphones)

Social Media Experiment: VIVA LA LIBERTA CARAJO! LONG LIVE FREEDOM DAMN IT!

Embarking on a recent social media experiment brought early fears to the front, some years ago just the idea of being canceled, left out, or mocked, would have prevented me from doing such a thing, which seemed somehow reckless (a word used by a friend referring to my experiment).

I have crossed to another timeline, at least it feels like this. It has not been something that just happened, but a slow progression towards what I could say will be the last third of my life. If I divide my life into parts—0-19, 30-55 with two transitional intervals between 20-29 and 55-59—that is where I am now…

So I orchestrated an experiment that played out quite effectively. I strategically placed a highly emblematic image on my social media feed, accompanied by a caption that subtly related to the image but wasn't about the image itself. The caption encouraged viewers to take their time and acquaint themselves with what I am really talking about before rushing to judgment. I made it clear that I was open to discussion. The caption called to delve into the realms of #Bitcoin, #libertarianism, and #austrianeconomics, the post triggered a flood of emojis conveying disgust and anger (mostly vomiting, crying, and many WTF?).

The focal point of this experiment was an image of Javier Milei with his arms raised as a sign of triumph, he is the first anarcho-libertarian president elected by a nation in local elections, such nation is Argentina whose inflation rates in the last 20 years had a whole generation leave to greener pastures. The Western world and legacy media deem him politically as from the extreme right, the truth is, that he aligns with the libertarian movement, a distinction often overlooked.

Surprisingly, it seemed that hardly anyone actually read the caption, as the use of emojis left me puzzled… The responders were once part of my pre-pandemic network in New York, well-"educated" individuals with a strong inclination toward socialism and the left and who once held (or still hold) positions of power in cultural institutions. They exuded righteousness, convinced of their sole possession of the truth.

This experience unveiled a rift between how I see myself now and how the group of old acquaintances I thought were friends once, see me now. These individuals left no room for curiosity or understanding. It became evident that this experiment was a crucial step for me. There was a lingering part of me that hadn't fully shown up or expressed my thoughts. Part of it was due to a lack of eloquence and education on certain matters that have become significant in my life in recent years.

While I responded to a few questions, I couldn't help but laugh at the situation. It became clear that this was more about them than about …