I don't just want it, I need it.

Idk you gotta listen to find out!

Sup, poopoo heads. Hope you're doing well! 

Sometimes I just like talking to you guys without any particular direction. In this episode I update you guys on Therapy, relationships and my thoughts at the moment!

Stay safe and take care of yourself 

In this episode I explain my personal struggle with addiction, I tell you how it effected me and my life from the negative and depressing times to the "road to recovery." I have struggled my whole life with depression and I have always sought ways to escape my mind and the never ended sadness. I am now working on healthy ways to go about coping with my depression but that doesn't mean its easy. I really hope I didn't discourage anyone about going back to understand the present but I feel as I always have to be honest! With love - Anthony 

As I continue to learn and grow I hope you do as well! I have let my guard down and allowed myself to express who I truly wish to put out there in the public, if you like it or not I will always stay true to myself. I hope you guys understand everything and anything I do comes from a good place! If you guys liked the "The Real Me" Please send it to a friend and follow me on my socials - Twitter: Fin_98 & IG: _anthonydefreitas. Love and Peace! 

I decided to record an episode one day I was having a panic attack, I've struggled with different forms of anxiety basically everyday of my life but the panic attack I had a couple days ago was very scary! I'm still just trying to be there for someone if they need me but if anything... The sun will rise again tomorrow so just keep pushing.. hour by hour and minute by minute! 

PSA: This episode lacks in microphone quality due to the fact I can't figure out the settings on my new laptop.. Hopefully that will be fixed soon! (100% UNEDITED) 

From me to you w/ love. 

** TWITTER: Fin_98 ** The title"For You Only" was because this podcast and even though i'm most proud of this episode to date, wont be posted on any social media platforms. As I take time to really think about how to produce MY content, restyle my socials and focus on quality i'll still be posting episode every so often as I will never give up on my goals but I need to take a step back, come back with a clean game plan and move forward! Hopefully this clarifies what was said in this episode! Love y'all as always, Peace! 

-Anthony de Freitas

In this episode I talk about how I've been over-thinking the episodes too much and doing them in a way that doesn't allow me to get my thought across in the way I intent them to get across. I'm still learning the best way to execute these podcasts, i'm having a hard time converting my thoughts into words... as perusal! When I use the word "persona" I don't mean that I wasn't being myself, I was just a more filtered and was creating context in a  conformed way and i'm someone who doesn't conform very well, making it miserable to make episodes. With that all being said I thank the ones who bare with me as I figure all of this out, I really appreciate you guys!