October 27, 2025

I Fkn Hate My Life (and here's what I'm going to do about it)...

11 minutes

This isn’t another “you got this, babe” pep talk.
It’s the wake-up call I wish someone had given me when I was stuck in my lowest season.

Over the last few months, I completely lost my momentum.
I gained weight. I lost weight. Then life got busy with house guests, commitments, and distractions. Before I knew it, I was right back in my old patterns.
“I’ll start again Monday.” “Next month will be different.”
But it never was.

I wasn’t unhappy because my life was falling apart. I was unhappy because my mind was.
My inner world was a disaster zone and I kept waiting for someone else to clean it up.

So in this episode, I share exactly how I turned it all around, one decision, one drawer, one system at a time.

You’ll hear how I:
• Stopped waiting for motivation and started rebuilding my momentum
• Did a full audit of my environment because your surroundings expose your excuses
• Rebuilt my morning and evening routines from scratch
• Created systems that made success feel automatic again
• Developed a fallback plan that keeps me consistent when life goes to hell

This episode is raw, real, and probably way too relatable. But if you’ve been half-assing your life while expecting full-ass results, you need to hear this.

Because here’s the truth. If your thoughts aren’t building you, they’re breaking you.
And I’m done feeling broken.

So come with me. I’m rebuilding my systems, my mindset, and my energy between now and the end of the year, and I’m sharing the whole journey in real time.

Follow me on Instagram @kylie_pax because if I win, you’ll see it. If I fall, you’ll see that too.

It’s time to stop waiting for the sun to come out.
We’re becoming it.