I Needed This

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Dear nightly anxiety, 
As I sit here quietly, 
Why do you mess with my mind and pull at what's inside me? 
Why do you have to remind me constantly?
That, I am just no good. 
All the "I should," "I wish I could," "I wish I would,"
but always falling short because I'm misunderstood. 
I should control all this rage that no one can see,
I wish I could get a grip on my ADHD... 
I wish I would see a doctor about my PTSD.
But I can't.
Because it all hides inside of me,
As I sit here quietly, 
Being reminded of what's inside me,
By my nightly anxiety. 
I just want to sleep. 
But while I try to unwind and put my past behind, you creep into my mind and make me think too deep. 
What is sleep? 
What is the gain of the pain and strain of the endless, bottomless pit that is my brain? 
I feel like I am on the edge of the cliff, and you want me to trip.
 "Just jump already," you whisper as I slip... 
I can't go back now; that boat has shipped.
Then, I jolt awake, lying in my bed. 
Dang, anxiety, you got me again. 
Now, I just sit here quietly.
While you pull at what's inside of me 
And constantly remind me,
I'm just no good. 
I hate you anxiety, and I want you gone for good. 
I wish I could. I probably should. I would if I could!
But I can't. 
Because you hide quietly inside of me, 
As I sit quietly, 
I am being tormented by you violently while my daughter sleeps beside me. 
You kindly remind me that I will fail her too. 
It's true. 
Who knew you would be on point with that too? 

I just hope she loves me anyway. 

"Sigh" 

Why? 

(Deep Breath)

I can't give up. 

I got to try. 

To my surprise, as you hide and disguise that your demise is on the horizon. 

God raises the sun, and the rays come in, 
I cast all of my doubts and my life faults on him,
I cast you out with all of my sins,
Because Jesus died so I could win. 

There is power in the name of Jesus, 
And with him shall I rise and pick up my pieces, 
And leave you speechless. 

What? 

Nothing to say nightly anxiety? 

Nowhere to hide when his spirit is inside of me? 

It's a shame when you can no longer blame and make me feel pain from the past. 

Because as you know, his love last. 

So with the power of the name of Jesus, I cast you out, 
You can pull, you can scream, and you can shout! 

But your out! 

(Deep breath)

Finally.... 

........................ you're gone! 

With the spirit inside of me, I can do no wrong. 

Is this what it's like to know peace? 

And I am still standing? 

This peace I feel transcends all my understanding. 

Oh holy spirit inside of me, 
Thank you for allowing me to sleep soundly and quietly, 
Thank you for healing all the things that were inside of me, 
Thank you for getting rid of my nightly anxiety.  

Written by: 
David Bennett 
11/17/2021 
12:54 am

What's up, ladies and gentlemen, happy Friday. I hope your week has gone well so far! Thank you for tuning into The "I Needed This" podcast. I'm your host, David Bennett. 

In today's episode, we are going to be talking about:

• How I felt disconnected from my loved ones.
• Using the R.E.S.E.T. method changed my entire life. 
• How I used these five keys to get my life back on track and start pursuing my goals and dreams again. 

I am super excited to share this one with you guys. 

I would like to thank Joeseph Bennett for becoming an All-Access Patron. Joe, thank you so much for your $5 sub. It means way more than you know! As promised, here is your official shout-out on today's podcast! Keep an eye out in your mail-box for your very own; "I Needed This" Decal Sticker! 

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I am very excited to get back into the groove of things here in season three, and I am ready to get at it! How about you?

In today's episode, were going to talk about:

• Looking back in hindsight 
• how crazy the year 2020 was
• how it changed all of our lives
• how it personally affected me
• and some positive things that we can carry throughout the rest of 2021

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In today's episode, I am going to talk about how much the year 2020 has changed the entire world, and RIGHT NOW is the perfect time to Be The Change that is needed. The world is changing anyway, like it or not. 

So, it might as well be a positive change.

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In today's episode, we are going to be talking about how negative self-talk, circumstances, and the lack of results, can put us in a mindset of not being enough. I am going to talk about how I struggle with this as well and what I do to keep myself moving forward.

I am pumped up and ready to go with today's episode!

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Special guest day!

Today's guest is a long time friend of mine.
He became homeless for eight months back in 2016, after losing his job.
Even though he had nothing, he maintained a positive mindset and knew things were going to get better.

Now, he is the owner, founder, and CEO of (AHA) American Heroes Apparel.

His company makes clothing, home decor, and accessories supporting men and women in protective services.

Today, he wants to talk about living a life with no regrets and keeping a mindset on positivity by living through the laws of the universe.

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In today's episode, I talk about how much the world has changed in the last 2 months. With so much uncertainty and not knowing if anything is going to go back to normal for a while, fear is starting to settle in.
I am going to talk about the two choices we have and how to persevere!

So, sit back and get ready ladies and gentlemen, because this episode is going to be a good one!

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In today's episode, we are going to talk about pulling yourself out of the negative stuff that clouds your mind and keeps you from moving forward. We are going to talk about how not even six months ago, I was in a very dark place mentally and what I did to get out of it.

My goal for this episode is to wake you up, discover that fire that is deep inside of you, and fan it until it grows like wildfire and the darkness can no longer control you!

I read a Facebook post the other day that said:
I don't think people realize how much strength it takes to pull yourself out of a dark place mentally, so if you've done that today, I AM PROUD OF YOU.

And that is so true. I am proud of you for trying today. I am proud of you for moving forward.

Remember,

We are all in this world together.
We need to start focusing on a brighter future for one another.
Let's start building each other up and encourage each other to BE the CHANGE WE WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD.

The only way for YOUR world to change in a positive way, IS BEING the change you want to see.

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In today's episode, we are going to talk about how so many of us never take time to choose ourselves.

By always putting ourselves on the back burner all the time, we never really discover who we really are. This message is so important to me and if you never get anything else from any of my podcast episodes, I hope this is the one you choose to learn from.

I know if you stick to the end, you will be left with solid motivation to get you thinking about choosing yourself from now on.

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(Warning - mild swearing in this episode)

Get in touch with Jill Personally. Email her at : [email protected]

Jill Toto has been a long time friend of mine, whos journey has not been the easiest.

By using the power of the will to survive she has overcome watching her childhood best friend's mother passed away in her arms at 7 years old, losing her father to a vehicle accident, and surviving an assault that left her with brain damage.

Jill is one of the most interesting people I have ever got to know in my life.

I hope you enjoy this episode today!

This is actually my second guest spot ever!

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