As I revisit my early days of recovery, I come across a journal entry that finds me at 40 days of sobriety. I am unsettled because I don't know a healthy way to cope! Join me in exploring my first steps to learn to cope in recovery.

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In Psalms, can you relate to David in his distress, crying out to God? When I'm honest with myself in times when life is exceptionally hard, I can relate to David. Join me as I read a journal entry from my 3rd month of recovery - a time that I'm not doing okay and pouring my heart out to God.

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Join me as I explore a journal entry about a time when I lied. What did I do about it? What does it look like to be imperfectly truthful as an imperfect person?

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Early on in my recovery, I was given a way to relate to the parable of the prodigal son. I had heard that story many times, but at this point in my life, a whole new dimension opened up - the Father's love for his son. Join me as I reflect on this perfect love!

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Isn't it easy to make a commitment in a moment, then hard to submit to it in the future? In month 2 of my recovery I found myself at a crossroads, and by God's grace I chose to maintain the commitment I made at the onset of recovery. Join me as I re-live this life-altering decision (that I almost missed)!

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Early in my recovery journey, I felt the presence of fear and desperation. Even now, I come up against fear often. Join me in an honest take on what I hold on to when I am feeling driven by fear.

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Early in my recovery, as my self awareness was continuing to develop, I wrote about hypocrisy - the outer versus the inner life. Join me as I explore hypocrisy from several angles and admit my own hypocrisy!

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Here we continue our journey through my journal from month 2 of recovery, and (surprise) I was writing about discipline again. Don't miss this latest exploration of discipline as it comes alive through the Proverbs, AND it is true whether or not I believe in God.

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How does deep desire relate to discipline? Is it necessary to have a deep desire to be spiritually disciplined? Join me as I explore this relationship, inspired by my thoughts from month 2 of my recovery!

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3 years ago God gave me a new desire (or at least a new awareness), and it starkly differed from my old ways of relating to others.  I still struggle against these old ways! Join me as I explore an interesting insight I inked in my journal as I navigated my first month of recovery. (Note: in journal entry name changed to protect privacy.)

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