I Wasn't Loud Enough The First Time Podcast

Detachment is a beautiful thing! (In the right situation). Sometimes that's all we need. I detach to re-center, re-focus and ground myself. I love reading Buddhist teachings and have adopted them for spiritual development. Honestly..... detachment has been my favorite lesson so far. 

October 19, 2020

Have you heard Miss Lauryn Hill's "I gotta find peace of mind" ? if not, please do. 

September 29, 2020

Everybody has gifts! How are you going to use yours? Branding, marketing, new work and mentorship are tools that can guide you toward utilizing your gift. Sometimes you have to embark on the journey to discovery!

September 15, 2020

You are not stuck! The only limits that exist are the ones that we create and agree to! Where you are is temporary and if you want to go further you absolutely can. Just look at how far you've come. I named this episode after one of my favorites songs by Anita Baker. My freshman year of college I played this song on loop at least a literal 50 times. Of course, I was going through "the struggle" but hearing this song helped me pull it together. Find that thing that makes you feel alive again.  A song, movie, place, etc. which reminds you to be grateful. Even through all of our mess there is still something to be grateful for. Even if it's just the opportunity to move on from where we are now.

September 1, 2020

Hopefully the title is loud enough for you, because this episode is exactly that; I don't wanna play no games. After entering the "dating world" if you will, I realized that there are so many rules and games that I didn't know existed. Even after knowing, I've decided that they just aren't for me. Trying to always be a step ahead, mimicking  emotional avoidance so that I convince myself I don't care either, maintaining mountains of secrecy and pettiness, made me feel as though I was slowly changing who I am all in the name of the game. I simply could not keep up and I really didn't want to. Besides, it makes no sense to me to make these (unproductive might I add,) adjustments for a person I'm not romantically interested in. All this energy for a "TALKING STAGE"? I think not! If I wouldn't do this in any other scenario or relationship, why start here? The "benefits" just didn't seem like enough to keep compromising myself for. So, while seeing the bigger picture, I decided in the tune of Chris Brown + Drake's No Guidance that, "I don't wanna play no games."

August 24, 2020

In this episode, I talk about being fat. Also phat for people who don't rock with the word fat. Awkward situations have come up where people have felt the need to remind me that I am bigger than them. I think it's odd that there are expectations for "fat" people as far as self-esteem, relationships, dressing, etc. yet here we are.

August 15, 2020

Inspiration comes from the strangest places. Play this on a walk. Play this in the car. Play this when you need positivity. Play this when you're up late thinking about your next move. Play this when you need new ideas, as will I. 

August 4, 2020

Sometimes the best thing to do is let go and let spirit lead you. 

August 2, 2020

For awhile now, I've been getting messages from people and spirit pushing me to begin on my shadow work. From what I understand, shadow work deals with confronting and healing things that are within our subconscious but rule more of our lives than we think. I surely know that I have been neglecting dealing with loss. I keep getting these messages to tap into the darkest parts of myself, stop running from my truth, emotions, sorrow and loss. So here's me sticking my toe into the pool of my shadows. I don't know if this will turn out to be a kitty pool or an ocean, hopefully it's somewhere in between. Either way, I am excited to be on my journey and I hope everyone else can learn and grow as well. I also created a "Feel Better" playlist on Apple Music compiled of some of the songs I listen to in order to be in a place of gratitude. I hope you enjoy and please don't forget to rate the podcast, leave comments and follow the Instagram page @IWASNTLOUDENOUGHPODCAST or @IWLEFT.

July 28, 2020

The gag is, we are all brainwashed and will continue to be. But, the other gag is that we can participate in our brainwashing if we choose. How we "self care" goes beyond eating Hershey bars, soaking in bubble baths, sipping champagne and lighting ocean breeze candles. Internal self care is a THING. We can "brainwash" our minds in order to speak better to ourselves and care for ourselves. With all of the influences in life and on social media, it is important that we are accountable in filtering what comes in our mind which ultimately impacts our internal dialogue. July 28, 2020