ICUE&MESH

It's too late now to save this friendship. Here's why.
(I describe a synopsis of 9 months of my struggle to try, in vain, to make a friendship work)
I believe that it's one of those things where we're both right and both wrong.

For the millionth time I've attempted to detach from her and she still got in yesterday and today ignored me again. I share some more of my struggle and keep hoping that I find my way out. For more information please refer to the videos before this one. Turquoise

Kamala Harris may divert votes back to Democrats support. I'm voting for Green. Beware --- both candidates sound good against Trump dictatorship, but one is noncorporate. Guess who?

I did another episode this morning and I'm going to call it part 1. Please refer to that one before you watch this one. This is part 2. "Seeing them as they are", not seeing them with a limerent idea of them.

I walk myself and anyone interested through a meditation to deal with recovery from limerence.
This is my own personal walkthrough.

Two weeks ago I thought I had said goodbye to Olga for good with one last text. But since she's still there every day, and since one of the counselors set us up, as I had discovered he had been doing for months with us, for those weeks past I've had to run into her and deal with more up and down. I talked about how I felt, what I experienced during those past couple weeks, and what I am now planning, to deal with it currently.

I'm struggling with the boundary between my mental illness and reality right now. Because I'm living in a world full of mental illness too. I talk about my current issues, past and present diagnoses, more experience as a peer with mental illness.

You are perfectly welcome to go on my old podcast (s). It looks like I will be on here from now on because one of the podcast platforms is not user friendly and the other one is limiting me to only one episode a month for free. Peace everyone.

I share my own experience with the situation where I have to bow to the absurd. Please refer to other episodes about how I am handling things at my IOP. I am being covertly mistreated there. But I need the program right now I'm not ready to leave..