I'M NOT* SUPPOSED TO BE HERE.

In this episode of I'm Not Supposed To Be Here, I sit down with Teresa Conrad—an ex-college athlete turned personal trainer, and one of the most down-to-earth people you’ll ever meet. Teresa’s journey didn’t exactly follow the traditional playbook, and that’s what makes it so relatable.

We get into her days as a college softball player, the reality of figuring out what comes next when the game ends, and how she’s learned to roll with life’s punches. From career pivots to the pressure of where she "should" be at a certain age, Teresa talks candidly about how she’s found her own way—without always having it all figured out.

This conversation is less about answers and more about the ride, with plenty of laughs, real talk, and a few unexpected moments. Whether you’re at a crossroads or just need a reminder that you’re not alone in figuring it all out, this episode is for you. Trust me, Teresa’s story will resonate in a way that sticks with you long after the episode ends.

And if you’re looking for a personal trainer who brings that same no-nonsense, real-world approach, check out Teresa’s business, Conrad’s Coaching. Whether you’re looking to get stronger, lose weight, or find a fitness routine that works for your lifestyle, she’s got you covered. You can find her at www.conradscoaching.com, on Instagram at @conradscoaching, or on Facebook at Conrad’s Coaching.

In this episode of I'm Not Supposed To Be Here, I sit down with my dear friend Devon Price to talk about a pivotal moment in his life—leaving North Carolina with just $500 in his pocket and a one-way ticket to Los Angeles. It was a huge leap of faith, full of uncertainty, but also the start of something new and transformative.

Beyond the big move, this conversation is about the journey of learning to navigate our emotions as we get older. Devon and I reflect on growing up in environments where showing emotion wasn’t always encouraged, and how that shaped our ability to connect with ourselves and others. Now, in adulthood, we’re both figuring out what it means to truly understand and express our feelings.

We also talk about the power of a friendship that stands the test of time and life’s challenges—how having someone who really accepts you can make all the difference when you’re facing tough times. This episode is full of raw, honest moments about finding your footing, leaning on those who care, and learning to keep moving forward, even when it’s hard.

If you’re looking for a conversation that’s real, relatable, and full of heart, this one’s for you. Thanks as always for being here!

In this episode of I'm Not Supposed To Be Here, I’m sitting down with my good friend Derek, a documentary filmmaker who’s mastered the delicate balance of telling powerful, real-life stories. From capturing the experiences of refugees to navigating the ethics of storytelling, Derek shares the challenges and responsibilities that come with bringing other people’s stories to the screen.

We dive into what it means to handle sensitive topics with care, the pressures of getting it right, and the courage it takes to push past fear—both in filmmaking and in life. Derek’s journey is a powerful reminder that sometimes, the most meaningful stories are the ones that push us out of our comfort zones.

Whether you’re passionate about storytelling or just looking for a dose of inspiration to face your own fears, this episode has something for you. Tune in for a conversation that’s as thought-provoking as it is inspiring.

In this episode of I'm Not Supposed To Be Here, I’m hanging out with one of my closest friends, Jon Atwell. We met totally by chance at a bar in LA when we were both new to the city, and since that night, we’ve been pretty much PIC's.

Jon’s journey to LA has been anything but ordinary, and we’re chatting about all the twists and turns that brought him here. Plus, you’ll get to hear the crazy story of how he lost his front teeth—it’s as wild as it sounds. We also dive into his passion for Cactus Johnny, his clothing brand that’s just as unique and creative as he is.

Jon and I keep things light and real, mixing humor with some genuinely heartfelt moments. It’s just two friends talking about life’s unexpected turns and the stories that come out of them.

So, if you’re in the mood for some easygoing conversation and a few laughs, tune in and enjoy. You’ll feel like you’re right here with us.

Welcome back to "I'm Not Supposed To Be Here." I'm Matt Holguin, and I'm thrilled to be back with you all after a year and a half away. In this heartfelt episode, I share my journey through grief and healing after losing my beloved dog, Apollo.

Apollo was more than just a pet to me; he was my rock and a source of unconditional love and joy. His loving and gentle spirit brought light to even my darkest days. In this episode, I open up about the invaluable lessons Apollo left behind—lessons in resilience, love, and living fully in each moment. Through memories of our adventures and the quiet strength he imparted, I find a renewed sense of purpose.

I also want to thank you, the listeners, for your unwavering support and encouragement. The messages and stories you've shared reminded me that even when we feel alone, we are part of a larger tapestry of shared experiences. You've been my lifeline, weaving threads of encouragement that pulled me back to this podcast and gave me the courage to continue this journey. This new season is not just a continuation but a celebration of the community we've started building together.

Whether you're a longtime listener or tuning in for the first time, I invite you to join me as we reconnect and embrace the idea that life’s unexpected turns often lead to the most meaningful destinations. Let’s celebrate Apollo’s legacy together and dive into a season filled with laughter, insight, and the kind of connection that only comes from sharing our stories.

Press play, and let's embark on this journey together, remembering that sometimes, not being where you expected to be is exactly where you’re meant to be.

Back in 2017, I met a young dude with a huge smile and unlimited potential. Now, Nate DeVaughn is a father, a husband, and an entrepreneur making waves with his art.

caught up with the man himself, alex dubois, and had a good chat about self-confidence, remembering your value, and navigating life’s changes at your own pace.

this week I spoke to my good friend, Dara Firoozi, about making hard decisions, finding confidence, and being grateful for the journey.

THIS IS CRAZY. 

I'M NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HERE. EP. 16: YELA CAREY